Fatigue

It's 2.15am now. I've been planning to sleep early (as in sleep before midnight) for the past few days but i always end up sleeping at 2ish.... student life aye?! assignments to do, projects to kick start at this stage and lots of readings to be done...

I can feel that my body clock starts to change.... changing me back into a nocturnal person. ^___^ ah, i must admit that i find that studying in the middle of the night is way nicer... feels like the night is longer and there's hardly any distraction as well. BUT, the weather is turning cooler nowadays.... i just feel like sleeping.... oh well, guess there's always an excuse to be lazy.

hmm.... can someone please help me with my construction project management project? how long does the whole process of building a simple one storey office building take?? my mind has been spinning hard for the past few days thinking about this project. argh... now i wish i'm a structural engineer.... >.<>.<

Laziness

Laziness is killing me. I'm feeling so lazy... probably too much things in my mind now?

Ah...

Easter

Easter weekend has just started. Well, it’s a one-week holiday break for me because my lecture on next Tuesday has been cancelled and I do not have lectures on Wednesday. Yippee!

I don’t think it will be much of a holiday for me because I have to start doing some serious readings and studying. I just found out that most of the syllabuses that I’m learning now are pretty relevant to what the local Civil Engineering graduates did in their undergraduate degree which is somewhat different from what I was taught in Christchurch. Anyway, I borrowed a few reference books and I think it will in some ways help me. =)

Speaking about my varsity life, it’s pretty relaxing in a way that I do not have lectures for half of the week. I only have 12 hours of lectures a week but I do have a lot of extra reading and assignments to do on a weekly basis. Not too much of a mission for me but again, I have given myself a relatively high target to achieve this time which makes it tougher and giving myself unnecessary stress I assume?

Apart from the 12 hours lectures, I have two free weekdays in a week, Wednesday and Friday. I promised my employer that I will go back to work on these two days IF they need me there. So, for the past few weeks, I have been working on a casual basis but I’m really disappointed to find out that I will not get paid this month, they said that all casual staff are paid one month in arrears. >.<

Ah well, life is like that when you are not working anymore and you don’t get student allowance. Sometimes I wonder whether if I have made the right step, probably because people around me are not very supportive and therefore making me very confused.

Ahh….

Leap Year

Yup, it's leap year this year and it only happens once in every four years i believe? And this is my second leap year in New Zealand, away from home. It's been six years away from home... can't believe that time really flies. I can still remember my first day here, my first day at unihall, my first attempt trying to make friends with someone here, my first home here, my first job application, my first interview, moving up north to Auckland, my first permanent job as a traffic engineer.... etc.

Anyway....

Two weeks ago, I managed to make a decision – quitting my current job (which have been giving me $$ to survive in this city for the past 2+ years) and to pursue my Masters Degree. Yes, I’m going to be a full time student again. In fact, my student life officially starts next Monday. Fingers crossed that I could pass and graduate this November. That’s my only aim at this moment, and as I mentioned before, my plan for 2008 is to complete my Masters Degree.

Anyway, I’ve been relaxing at home for two weeks now. I managed to tidy up all the mess in the house, and to do another round of housekeeping of my junks which were once considered precious. Well, it’s always good to throw away stuff when you have the “courage” to do so.

Will blog again when my school starts. Am I looking forward to studying again?? I need my confidence back.

Summer

It’s been pretty warm recently. I can’t really concentrate at work because of the terrible ventilation in the office that easily makes me tired. Argh… sucks!

Anyway, one good thing about summer is that we have longer days. Nowadays, I have a new “hobby” – walking after dinner! Yeah, sounds like what old people like to do… but oh well, it really makes me feel good. =) Our record so far was approximately 10km walk last Friday, journey started from newmarket then went to remuera, orakei and parnell before coming back to newmarket.

Our longest walking route so far

New Start

Exactly four months… I haven’t had the chance or probably haven’t had the mood to blog for four months! Probably I think I was just too occupied with my work (due to limited resources at work) and been busy thinking about my 2008 plan.

Now 2008 is here, I’m glad that I have got a plan for this year and I already started to think about what’s next…. i.e. what do I want to do next year. Hmm… I better stop thinking too much about future as it’s full of uncertainties. It might change next second and it’s a bit too early to think about next year anyway – it’s only January now. >.< Anyway, Happy New Year and a belated Merry Xmas to everyone!!!

I had a great Xmas break this time. Although it’s only a two-week break, but I felt that this holiday is actually quite long and relaxing. I went to Paihia & Cape Reinga before Xmas break with family, then to Christchurch for three days during the Xmas Break, and a one-day trip to Tauranga just before the Xmas break ends.


Paihia - Hole in the Rock Trip... dolphins! =)

Oh, I also got addicted to cross-stitching. Yup, it’s pretty cool and really addictive. I started staying up until 1am every night and I gave up going online chatting with my mates. Then I started getting addicted to Sudoku and Kakuro when I went down south to Christchurch. And guess what, I’m still addicted to it now! I have to finish either a Kakuro puzzle or a Sudoku puzzle before I go to sleep every night. Hmm… I seriously wonder how long this addiction will last.


Cross-stitching.... not done yet. =)

Counting down…. One more month….one more month to a new phase of my life. =)

Hmm...

我过去那死党早晚共对
各也扎职以后没法畅聚
而终於相约到但无言共对疏淡如水
曰夜做见爸爸刚好想呻
却霎眼看出他多了皱纹
而他的苍老感是从来未觉太内疚担心
最心痛是爱得太迟
有些心意不可等某个曰子
盲目地发奋忙忙忙其实自私
梦中也习惯有压力要我得知
最可怕是爱需要及时只差一秒
心声都已变历史
忙极亦放肆见我爱的见双至
要抱要吻怎黱也好
偏要推说要等一下次
我也觉我体质仿似下降
看了症得到是别要太忙
而影碟都扫光但从来未看因有事赶
曰夜做储的钱都应该够
到圣诞正好讲跟我白头
谁知她开了口未能挨下去己恨我很久
错失太易爱得太迟我怎想到
她忍不到那曰子
盲目地发奋忙忙忙从来未知幸福会掠过
再也没法说钟意爱一个字
也需要及时只差一秒
心声都己变历史为忙未放肆
见我爱见的双至要抱要吻要怎黱也好
不要相信一切有下次
相拥我所爱又花几多秒
这几秒能够做到又有多少
未算少足够遗憾忘掉
多少抱憾多少过路人
太懂估计却不懂爱锡自身
人人在发奋想起他朝都兴奋
但今晚未过你要过也很吸引
纵不信运你不过是人
你想很远爱於咫尺却在等
来曰别操心趁你有能力开心
世界有太多东西发生不要等到天

Progress

Yes, blogging from work again. Because it’s Friday and my “neighbours” are away at the moment, I am all alone and struggling to stay awake. Forgot about bringing my breakfast to work this morning so yeah… I’m hungry and waiting for lunch now. I’ve been drinking loads of water this morning because I’m hungry. Hehe…

Anyway, the crazy weekend just started. Tonight is DV8 night and tomorrow we are going for a trip up north to see dolphins followed by Marcus surprise birthday party from 6pm onwards. Oh my goodness… a long day eh? I’m really excited about the trip up north but not too excited about the rest. I wonder why. Probably because I’m getting old and clubbing is just not my thing anymore? I’ll probably see lots of younger “boys” which I’m not really interested in CHECKING THEM OUT… if you get what I mean… it’s different for guys. They can always check out younger girls… it doesn’t sound wrong. Hmm… I think I’ll just go for the sake of going and to keep my Welly mate accompanied.

Oh yeah. good news from me. I’ve been approached by my director yesterday. He asked me to step up to be the project manager of one of the big jobs we have been doing since 2002. The reason being the current project manager is transferring to another branch in UK and I’ve been her assistant for the past few months so I’m the best candidate. Hmm ... I did hesitate for a while because I don’t seem to know a lot about the project. (à Sign of low confidence… ~.~) But he’s nice enough to assist me. So I’m now officially a project manager for one of the key projects after spending months doing small jobs.

Well thinking about it… my work progress so far since I join this company…

First few months (early 2006)
90% of admin job, I’ve done really crappy admin job (filing, sending letters, ordering stationeries à I’ve been “nominated” to be the assistant secretary when my secretary is away). I’ve been asked to be the department librarian and been given the “mission impossible”, i.e. tidying up all the books/standards/project folders stacking up in the department library.

Mid 2006
Started involving in some preliminary background information preparation work, doing some traffic survey supervision work, and doing some traffic engineering review work. All these work is only in the order of $2000 max. And I don’t really have to do much thinking. All I need to do is to get things done effectively.

Late 2006
My only achievement/improvement then was to organise AND supervise traffic surveys. I was “the person” to approach if someone in the department is to get some survey done. At this time, due to me being “upgraded” to becoming a organiser AND a supervisor, the cost of work that I was doing then was approximately $3000 max.

Early 2007 until Mid 2007
Due to a new grad joined us in early 2007, I passed most of my little “tasks” to him. I’ve been given chances to do projects all by myself but all my reports/outputs would be reviewed by my senior before issuing to the clients. I’ve done three mini engineering/planning projects in that period (approximately $6k fee each). For the very first time, I was being introduced as the “traffic engineer” during client meetings. Freaky but challenging. =) My senior and I were very pleased that our clients for all three projects were very satisfied with the output.

Now
Due to my senior being too occupied with other projects, I’ve been given the chance to do the final follow up of a $30k job which I’ve done extensive survey on and did the preliminary part of the project. And as I mentioned upfront, i’ve been given the chance to be a project manager finally. This job is more than $30k and I am really glad that I’ve been given this chance. =) wish me luck!!!!

All right… lunch time. =) Gonna go Remuera noodle house for lunch.. yum yum…

Baking

While i'm waiting for the pastry to thaw, i'll quickly write something here... i'm doing my second project - mince pie. my first project was successfully completed last night!! i finally made it!!! the fruit flan... it's yummy although it doesn't look as nice. should i make more?



anyway, i finally made my first online purchase... waiting patiently. =) still thinking whether if i should buy simcity... hmm.. it's a game about building cities.... a bit relevant to what i'm doing now? but problem is i'm using vista now, which has lotsa compatibility issues.... >.<

Fatigue

Remember i wrote a post about me getting shoulder ache and a software was installed on my work pc to remind me to take breaks throughout the day? oh well, i had my first physio session today at work.

well, she sort of adjusted all my work equipments, i.e. the height of my chair, the height of my stool, the height of my microdesk etc. We also chat about what i do outside work.. blah blah blah.... she concluded that:
- I spent too much time in front of the pc. I should just switch off my pc, walk around, read a book/magazine or do some cooking;
- Doing gym is not good for me at the moment because it won't help relaxing my muscles. I should do more yoga (i.e. stretching exercise) and walk more.

apart from that, she said that i look "fatigue"... sounds serious eh? well, fatigue means that every morning when i wake up, i don't feel refresh, but i feel tired. She said i should watch out what i drink/eat after 6pm every night and try to relax at night and always drink lots of water + min 8 hrs of sleep. hmm... time to change... =)

oh well, i'm doing some online shopping recently. Trying to buy something off the net. currently looking for a lotion, an eye cream, a perfume, & a face mask.

hmm... any good websites??? =)

等待

我等待的这一天终于到了
从今以后我的世界是怎样
是喜还是悲?
有谁可以告诉我??
一切献给上帝吧!

Friday??

Friday, gloomy day.

Why do I always get blamed for something that I did not even do??? How can I make a mistake when I’m not even around! I can’t argue because I wasn’t given the chance to argue. All I have to do now is to solve all the problems. I don’t even know where to start because I have no freaking idea about what went wrong. Oh well….

Can I get some sunlight here please?

Ouch!

Argh. I've been having severe shoulder ache recently. Yesterday, i did a workstation assessment and i complained about my shoulder ache. Well, as a result, the company physiotherapist ordered me a brand new chair which could give me more back support and installed a software in my pc which would constnatly remind me to take a break.

It's pretty cool at the very beginning, but it became really annoying. I am forced to take micropauses every now and then for 1 - 3minutes, and then break (morning tea break, lunch break and afternoon tea break). My keyboard will be locked and i had to sit here wondering around or do the exercise they suggested to me.... Yeah.. EXERCISE. During breaks, a pop up window will appear showing some exercise movements, for example, "Put one arm behind your head with the palm touching your back. Hold onto your elbow with the other hand and gently pull across and down. Go to the point where you feel a stretch in your shoulder and upper arm and hold this position. Repeat both sides several times."

oh ...annoying....

Oh no!!!!!

This is not good. I was really happy that I finally built my website. It looks great using Firefox browser but it looks horrible when I tried browsing it at work today using IE, i mean IE6. Argh… crap! Meaning I’ve got another problem to solve. or should i just keep it like that??? since it works in Firefox and IE7? hmm.... *thinking*

Back in the Blogging World

Yeah. I'm back in the blogging world after disappearing for three months. I've been really busy and feeling lazy most of the time to blog from home. Well, ever since Blogger uses Gmail account as sign-in, i have difficulty to blog from the office because we can't access any other mailbox apart from our work mailbox. Yeah, SUCKS! This means that I can't blog during working hours, which i normally do.

Anyway.....

Please give a big hand to ME!!!!!! After spending the past 4 days trying to learn CSS language, i finally managed to build a brand new page. Really tough job but i'm quite satisfied with the end result. *clap*

Oh well, I've still got some tiny things that need to be done before my entire website is completed, such as:
- The links on my current site has to be updated as most of the links are still empty;
- Still thinking of what to do with the Gallery section. Don't feel like posting all my pictures online, but i would love to share some nice/memorable pictures. Well, i found this amazing online photo album that could do nice picture slideshows. Might give it a try.
- I'm still looking at making my website better. Currently I'm thinking of how to make a scrollable content with fixed header and the bars on either side of the content? Killing my brain cells to find out the answer. HELP?

Okay. i've been staring at the computer screen for too long. It's time to take a rest, or probably i should just go to bed since it's already late and tomorrow is M O N D A Y... yea... no one likes monday. i hate Mondays and in fact, i hate weekdays recently. Why? will tell you the reason soon.

- goodnight people -

Again...

沒用﹐

我真的很沒用..

覺得羞恥﹐

覺得尷尬﹐

覺得自卑﹐

漫長的旅途﹐

令我想得很多﹐

是不是該醒了﹐

夢不會是永遠的美好﹐

就這樣﹐

我又哭了﹐

我明白哭不能解決問題﹐

只會令自己更傷心。

此時此刻的我﹐

好想有個傾訴的對象﹐

緊緊地摟著我﹐

默默地聽我抱怨。

而不是自己一個人﹐

躲在房裡

傷心地哭泣…

Nice Song from Fish Leung

仿佛想你一分钟
你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
很多的歌到底是什么内容
仿佛已经自由
下一个我变成风
吹过你的脸孔差点失控
回忆在夜里遗留的恨说
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
却担心言不由衷
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些人都
能记得多久
仿佛已经自由
下一个我变成风
吹过你的脸孔差点失控
回忆在夜里遗留的恨说
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
却担心言不由衷
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些人都
能记得多久
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些人都
能记得多久

56 working hours

Yes, 56 working hours… I have the habit to keep track of the hours I spent on a particular project so that when the PM questioned me about my time spent on the job, I have something to prove.

Oh well, I’m really tired… working day and night, haven’t had a chance to really relax and take my break in the office apart from the occasional “toilet trips”.

Hmm… enough said. Nothing special in my life. Work work work…

Sick of it. Seriously thinking of going back to my student life...

A New Start

I'm back from Malaysia 2 days ago and I've finally moved into my new apartment! yeah.. feels like home now. =) Thanks dad! =)

Anyway, just a short post because my pc is dead as usual and i'm using my bf's laptop to write up a short post before he gets back his beloved laptop.

Will blog soon when everything is back in order.

Tomorrow gotta start work... SUCKS!!!

awww....

yea yea yea... i'll be leaving msia in less than 24 hours....

complex feeling...

feeling sad....

really dun wanna go back....

sigh...

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reality sux!!!!!!!!!!