Sunday, July 31, 2005

When he doesn't love you anymore....

Something happened today.... this article cheer me up and give me strength to stand up and face the world again. ^^

当他不爱你的时候,无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了,又或者是否是从未爱过。当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候,他的心便不会记得你。虽然他知道你深爱他,但他宁可选择装作是不知道。

当他不爱你的时候,请不要在你不开心,或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。也许他会在接到你的电话的时候,淡淡地安慰你几句,却也仅此而已。也许你会再想要一点什么,于是说:“我们见面吧。”而他肯定心有烦躁了。当他不爱你的时候,你的爱,你的人,就会显得廉价许多。你占了下风,这是人的本性。他会说:“好,不过我现在有点事情。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧。或者我给你电话也可以。”而你这时千万不要当真,他只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。请,不要真的去等,不要骗自己。

当他不爱你的时候,请不要与他讲你的琐事,也许此刻,你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些。只是,他却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你,你的生活,你的过去,你的长处短处与他又何干?即使讲了。他也很快会忘记的,就如他忘记你的生日,你的地址,你的电话一样。没有爱,于是你注定挤不进他的生命。即使,你要的哪怕只是一个很小很小的角落。


当他不爱你的时候,请不要在他的面前流眼泪,不要在生病的时候告诉他。他无法给予你照顾和关心。至多是同情一下,而,请骄傲的你,不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。虽然太多的人,在爱的面前丢失了太多。连站起来的勇气都没有。何来骄傲?只是,要记得,只有爱自己的人,才可以真正的去疼惜你。而不是,旁观的同情。怜悯。

当他不爱你的时候,你的爱便是他的负担。请不要去计算自己的付出,不要希望有什么回报。爱着不爱自己的人,本身便是没有回报的。不要计较对与错。这样会快乐些。要记住,你与他之间的爱,是单方面的,你用心,他无心。所以,也不要怪他。因为也许他也想做好一些。对你不要那样的冷漠。知识,爱一个人,对一个人好。本来就是一种本能。对不起,他没有这样的本能。

当他不爱你的时候,请不要失去自己的自信。因为爱一个人,并非他的优秀,而只是一种感觉。他让你有这样的感觉,于是你爱他。同样,他不爱你,也并非你不优秀。优秀,不是爱的理由。看看还有那么多爱自己的人,淡淡地微笑一下,也是异样甜美的。

当他不爱你的时候,也一定要祝福他。有了爱,便不该有恨。爱是美好的。恨却丑陋。何必让生命中最美好的东西化作丑恶呢?也不要觉得不公平。关于离去。他失去的是一个爱他的人,而你失去了一个不爱你的人,却得到了一个重新生活,重新去爱的机会。

请不要去想到“永远”。爱没有永远。你此刻深爱,却注定遥远的某一天也不再爱他。他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。当他不爱你的时候,请轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖,轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。

当他不再爱你的时候,應該深深呼吸,因為一生的路上,铺满了爱的花蕾,总有那么一朵属于你,不是安慰你。而是,这是生生世世早已经注定的。我們應該相信。

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

HAPPY DAY!!

hahahahahah... happy happy... well, i'm actually very sleepy now coz i had a 8am class today and i woke up at 7am after having only errr... 5 hours of sleep?? tat's obviously not enuff for a pig.. hehe... i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight.. so that tomolo i'll have a great day! well, according to horoscope, tomolo will be my luckiest day this week, we'll see what happens tomolo... lalalala!!!!
well, everything has been great today.... despite that i'm a bit tired, well, i managed to start my assignment and get approximately 80% done in 3 hours!! haha... then yeah... gotta know the results of the bowling event i went last week. can't believe i actually did a great job. so proud of myself.. heheh! gonna collect my prize soon.. hehe.. wat will it be ah??? *think think*
The results were:

Team Event
Champion ---- Team B 912 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team D 812 points


Adult Category Event
Champion ---- Team D 602 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team B 544 points

Children Category Event
Champion ---- Team B 368 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team A 334 points

Adult Individual Event
Champion - High Game & High Series
Grace Loy
224 / 356
1st RunnerUp - High Game & High Series
Carolyn Teh
181 / 349

Children Individual Event
Champion - High Game
James P
122
1st RunnerUp - High Game
Cleo K
102

Champion - High Series
James P
221
1st RunnerUp - High Series
Oliver K
172


well, i'm in Team B, and each team has 2 adults and 2 children. It's actually quite fun playing with little kids. hehe... u can see their reaction when they got strike... haha... well, of coz you could see those kids that became real sad after a few tries coz they kept getting gutter balls.. but it's really nice.. :P had loads of fun! haha...

Anyway, i'm going to finish up my marketing quiz now and head off to bed.. need sleep! haha.. tired.. really tired. tomolo is another long day... ^^

Monday, July 25, 2005

cool down n u'll haf a clear mind!

i can feel the pressure whenever i'm in university lately. partly becoz it's the last semester and ppl are all trying to push themselves to the limit? haha... i'm not one of them. dad has been asking me to take things easily... haha.. yeah, here i am.. taking things REAL easily now. hafta push myself a bit already, really been slacking a lot!
i kinda missed those times that we dun really give a damn about studies, i mean like we kinda party hard and study hard at the same time... i cant feel tat anymore. although i still hang out quite a bit lately just to release the stress, but yeah.. ppl around me ain't happy and cheerful anymore.. aiii... tat actually make me kinda depressed. and it's really hard to cheer them up. whhyy!!! well, can't really blame them. every individual has their way of living their lives.. so yeah.. hehe... at least i tried my best to cheer them up.. but i failed? ^^
anyway, i've been thinking about some issues lately.. haha.. i m glad tat i finally found an aim which i can look forward to already! hehe.. at least from now until next year? hehe... cool stuff!!! just hope that everything will be great at the end. 98 days to go... woo hoo!!!
btw, i'm gonna be away in august hols... haha... another sudden random decision tat i made err... 3 hours ago? life is full of surprises.. hehe!! gonna make my life like tat so i wont have a monotonious life .... ^^ happiee happieee k ppl???

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Nice Weekend!!!

NICE WEEKEND YAAAA!!!! yesterday was amazing!! really.... according to horoscope (again..^^) i'll have a very nice weekend... it's TRUE! i know quite a few people and enjoy every minute.
well, i went to bowling with UCSSS around 3.30pm, the first UCSSS event that i went to this year. it was great! besides meeting new ppl like charlene and marina, i broke my own bowling record.. hahaha... i got 181 for the first game and got 168 for the 2nd game.. woo hoo!!! hahaa.. congrats to myself ^^

Marina, Me and Esther

Me and Esther

After this event, i went over to heather's place for mark's surprise birthday party. oh... coz this party is supposed to be a potluck.. so me and esther went to countdown to get some food. oh damn.. i just hate the blardy cashier who told the rest of the cashiers around that i'm not allowed to buy alcohol... wtf! i have ID, it's just that esther is new to nz, she doesn't have a legal id.. so they said i'm not supposed to buy... well oh well, i would not be that PISSED if you kindly explain it to me... argh!!! luckily my EQ was really "high" at that time.. haha.. i din lose my temper and i went off... but it's just stupid. STUPID BLARDY PPL!!
ok ok... back to happy stuff... the bday party was another amazing event. haha.. we makan and drink and chit chat happily there. oh yeah.. i did a good job.. i introduced esther to them.. :) well, at the same time, i feel bad coz errr... the guys forced her to drink coz she's NEW to the club.. haha!! well, she went a bit high after a few drinks.. but it was funny la.. din get to take any photos there..too bad la...
anyway, i got home around 1am... to avoid getting drunk.. coz i was driving last night.. had the responsibility to send esther home... hehe... anyway, i really had a great time yesterday... :)

Friday, July 22, 2005

horoscope n me

i belif in horoscope... very very much. i know i'm a typical aquarius... especially when it comes to freedom, i dun like to be controlled and the more ppl control me, the more rebellious i become. haha!! and i enjoy being aquarius... proud of being an aquarius.. :)
mm.. according to the horoscope.. it's a special month for me ..and especially today! darn.. nothing happened today... well, still got 4 hours to go.. haha! but i saw something that made me sad though. mm.. dun feel like saying it here..but i can hear the cracking sound of my heart... shit! i dun wan a special month full of sadness... i want a special month full of surprises that will enlighten my life! sigh... looks like it's another challenge that i hafta face... i'm stronger each day...at least i LOOK stronger each day... but at the same time, my heart is weaker each day.. haha.. i might die of heart attack some day... the amount of problems/matters that my heart has to carry is larger than the "resistance"... life oh life...
i've made a life changing decision last night. and i know i'm gonna stick to my decision and i'm gonna make sure i haf no regrets. even did something crazy last night... drove all the way to sumner beach at night... hahaha... i was wearing sandals..walking on the beach!! omg... the craziest thing was i did not feel the cold coz my mind was spinning... mmm... come to think about, issit becoz of this decision tat made today a special day for me? haha..shit... i dunno aye!
101 days to go... i'm waiting for that day to come..... so tat i can escape the reality again... and be another me... cant wait for tat day to arrive. ^^
mm... i'm getting a digital camera soon. IXUS 50 or IXUS700??? which one is better? well, like wat my friend said, we cant turn back time, i just wanna capture every nice/sad view i see in my life... and i wanna see my changes... so i plan to take a photo everyday... like a diary for myself. wat do u think? hehe.. and i think i'm quite photogenic... so yeah... i dun mind taking heaps of photos! ^^ okiez la. i wanna go and take a nap already. i found a way to avoid getting depressions... tat's to hop on to my bed and sleep whenever i feel sad... or when i feel tat i'm gonna be sad any minute. i better run now before it's too late... ciao babez!
**dream is the only place that i can find the perfect heaven...**

-- The end --

mm.. finally... my crucial week has come to an end! phew! i reckon everything went smoothly with a wee bit of uncertainty in between. well, i'm glad tat everything has been done.. at least for now. :) just hafta sit here and wait for good news hopefully.
well, despite my tight schedule and continuos job interviews i had this week.. i did realise something about this environment i've been staying in for the past three years. i've got this very weird feeling about it, but i just dunno how to explain.. haha.. shit, i'm talking crap. anyway, i'll try explaining it next time. let me have a clear mind first. ^^
oh yeah... i was flipping through my photo album just before... thought about my high school life.. missed my buddies back then soooo much.. wondering how's everyone doing. well, i messaged my bestest buddy like two hours ago and had like a one hour long sms "chatting" with him. i'm glad that he still thinks about me and do care about me.. haha! i was so scared tat there will be some "barrier" in between us as i din contact him for 2 years liao... hehe.. it alwez make me happy and feel wanted when ppl say they miss me.. especially my high school mates. i din see some of my high school mates for 4 years!!! haha.. really wanna go back home again... well, wait for me man! three more months, then i'll pack my bag and fly back to msia for like 4 or 5 months!! wait k?? and any of u... *hint hint.. u know who i'm talking about * who plans to get married, do it in these 4 or 5 months la.. coz i wanna attend your wedding ma.. hehehe...
also, i especially missed my sistas back home... wonder how they are doing. i only stay in contact with chloe.. my 3rd sista on a daily basis.. becoz the others are still not used to using internet for chatting purpose. haha.. some are busy flirting with guys.. good on ya sis! enjoying life aye?? haha.. as long as you r happy..
life is short.. just need to cherish every moment.... tat's what i'm doing now. despite some depressions at times...but i alwez try to cheer myself up. i prefer having another happy day rather than a sad day. and of coz i know God will alwez be there to help me. every failure that i've gone through is a challenge to me.. and God is just training me to become a better person.
hehe.. okiez la.. i'm heading off to bed.. Zzzzz...more to come tomolo.. !!!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

complex feelin

it's drizzling out there... just like wat my feeling for these few days.
what happened to me? i dunno
i really dunno.... i'm not really DEPRESSED...but i'm just feelin a bit lost and helpless.
loneliness is killing me? not really... i alwez keep myself occupied. ^^
then what issit? still examining... mmm....
well, i've just been to three interviews for the past three days. cant blif that the comments given by all 4 interviewers are the same... you are a cheerful person. great! hahaha... am i really that bubbly? well, i WAS! look at my display pic. tat was taken in year 2003 if i'm not mistaken. although i was still studying engineering and going through the same deep shit about study pressure at that time, but i was super happy. why? why? why? i dunno again... probably friends that have been chatting with me these few days are pretty annoyed at my answers and my reaction when they are trying to comfort me. mmm.. sorrie aye. coz i'm just telling the truth... i REALLY DUNNO...
probably i need an aim now.
do some social work? mmm.. probably it's good..
or do part time job? coz apparently i'm pretty free this sem... on average i got 2 hours of class per day.. how cool is that..
well, will see about this matter later. coz i'm currently focussing on getting a job so that i dun hafta worry about my future. went for interviews with two big companies. hopefully i could get a job. pray pray pray..and god will hear my prayer!
gonna go to my pavement class now. i'll blog again sometime later today after i finished my other job applications. :)
take care mates.. and really wanna apologise to those who i complained to a lot these few days.. especially you... i'm sorry.... u know who i'm talking about u... but thanks for being there... really... just gimme time. i'll realign myself and adapt with my new life. i just need time... time time....

Monday, July 18, 2005

my travel plan

my crazy travel plan after i graduate... how long will it take me?? mm..dunno aye! but i'll use up all my savings.. haha!!

nz --> australia --> malaysia --> london --> paris --> NY ---> florida --> texas --> LA --> tokyo ---> hongkong --->shanghai ---> thailand ----> msia ---> hawaii ---> nz

wat do u think?

suddenly tot of this song ...

你怎么舍得我难过

对你的思念
是一天又一天,
孤单的我还是没有改变,
美丽的梦何时才能出现,
亲爱的你好想再见你一面.
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过,
想起了去年的这个时候,
你的心到底在想些什么,
为什么留下这个结局让我承受.
最爱你的人是我,
你怎么舍得我难过,
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走,
最爱你的人是我,
你怎么舍得我难过,
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过.

life is full of unexpected events and it's indeed cruel. we just hafta live with it and stand up on our own at where we failed. this is LIFE! to all my friends who are depressed and disappointed or unhappy.... cheer up! life is full of ups and downs, u'll get the UPS of ur life very soon. just believe and it'll be right at the corner waiting for u... ^^ i'll be right here waiting for you guys... cheer up!

Sunday, July 17, 2005

nervous nervous n nervous!!!

omg... haha..tomolo i'll haf my first interview!! and it's with one of the biggest companies here in NZ. argh...i'm super nervous now... oh god... gimme strength!
mm..been watching interview videos borrowed from the career centre and been jotting down all possible questions that i would be asked. now i'm trying to do some more research about the company and prepare my answers. oh dear.... haha.. hope everything will be cool. my dad cant seem to understand why i still hafta prepare for interview and why am i so nervous. hehe... well, i cant control also. errr... dun ask me! i've got three interviews... monday, wednesday and thursday.. mmm... scary, stress, and challenging week for me. crucial week for me also... about my future.
wish me the best aye! hopefully i'll come back from every interview with a smiling face.. haha!!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

thank god!!!

hahahaa.... i PASSED all my first sem papers... haha... damn happy now. first of all, i wanna thank GOD, then gonna thank my beloved parents... n family... muacks! love ya guys soo much! thanks for being there when i needed you guys so much.. thanks for the support, the love, mm.. EVERYTHING! couldn't have passed all my papers without you guys... well, really hope everything will become better in the future. ^^

three interviews next week... pressure pressure.... pray pray again...

just a short blog today coz i'm too hyper.. haha!!! happpy... wanna talk to daddy and mummy first.

Friday, July 15, 2005

NERVOUS

i'm super hyper now after a cup of white chocolate latte... with SUGAR! hahah.. damn. it's not good to have such sweet stuff so late... haha.. and some more hang out with a super crazy girl... tat really makes me sooooo hyper!
well, hyper hyper hyper... coz i wanna forget that i'm actually nervous and worried. list of things that i'm worrying now:
1. my results gonna release tomolo... hope everything's great!
2. interviews... just got another interview ..so i'll have two interviews next week. damn nervous aye.. my first time! been working so hard by studying interview skills and run through company profiles. hope everything's turn out to be great too! desperately seeking a job. hahahahah!

teehehehhe.... but anyway, i'm trying to be hyper so that i could forget these worries in me... and somemore.. ppl around me nowadays are so depressed. when depressed ppl meet depressed ppl...then both will be depressed.. so i might as well be hyper and smile.. so tat they could be happier... am i right?! hehehe... anyway, wish me luck and i pray hard hard for you guys out there who's facing some challenges in life or errr.. have some difficulties? GOD BLESS!

Thursday, July 14, 2005

change

yeah... things changed... and after a long discussion with dad, i decided to change my initial plan after graduation. YES! not gonna study masters anymore. haha... reason?
mmm..
1. no more confidence in studying as my results are getting worse and worse....sigh...
2. feel like having a break from studies
3. feel that i'll be more sure wat i'm gonna study for my masters degree in the future if i had some working experience.

so yeah... i've actually been thinking about this for quite some time. and i'm glad that my parents did realise about my problems. thank you soo much! i'm glad that they encourage me and they are alwez here by my side for me... sooo happy and i thank god for everything.

well oh well, just hope that the rest of my results for my first semester paper will be okay... and yeah. my interview next week will be great! wish me luck and pray hard! :)

Monday, July 11, 2005

测测你一生会爱几个人

Q1.当他温柔的看着你,你会说:
A.你的眼睛大又圆→Q2
B.你真好→Q3
C.你踩到我的脚了!→Q3
D.你想什么呢?→Q2

Q2.当你想念他的笑和他的吻的时候,你会
A.打电话给他→Q3
B.一个人呆着,练习眨眼睛→Q4
C.找好朋友→Q5
D.洗衣服→Q3

Q3.喜欢听浪漫伤感情歌吗?
A.害怕听→Q4
B.非常喜欢→Q4
C.厌恶→Q5
D.还好→Q6

Q4.有种花的习惯吗?
A.没有→Q5
B.有→Q5
C.懒惰→Q6
D.咱们看下一道题→Q6

Q5.如果朋友送你一只狗,你会:
A.表面高兴,心里想这家伙害死我了!→Q6
B.感到太幸福了,早就想要一只→Q7
C.接受的时候就面露尴尬→Q8
D.顺其自然→Q9

Q6.如果男生跟你夸他自己的能力有多么强,他自己多么帅,你会认为:
A.男人都这样。是个男人,他就帅ⅲ 鶴7
B.他真无聊→Q8
C.他挺有意思→Q7
D.他喝多了→Q9

Q7.你怎样处理以前情人留下来的东西?
A.扔掉→Q8
B.留着→Q9
C.送回或送人→Q9
D.砸烂→Q8

Q8.喜欢去麦当劳点什么样的东西?
A.套餐→Q9
B.单点→Q10
C.一定要用优惠券→Q9
D.不一定→Q11

Q9.喜欢上网做什么?
A.查信或很简单的事情→Q10
B.写文章、灌水→Q11
C.狂聊天→Q12
D.不喜欢上网→Q11

Q10.信用卡有多少张?
A.零→Q11
B.一张到三张→Q12
C.不知道→Q13
D.很多吧→Q12

Q11.怎样修理你的头发?
A.去小发廊→Q12
B.自己动手→Q13
C.我没有头发→Q12
D.找个有品的发馆→Q13

Q12.你的QQ需要身份验证吗?
A.当然→Q13
B.不用→Q14
C.你问哪个QQ?→Q15
D.不一定或者没QQ,不使用QQ→Q13

Q13.有固定喜欢的明星偶像吗?
A.曾经→Q14
B.有→Q14
C.没有→Q15
D.很难说清楚→Q16

Q14.当一个人对你说爱你,想象一下你当时的表情会是:
A.傻笑→Q15
B.惊讶→Q16
C.无表情→Q15
D.诧异→Q16

Q15.去动物园的时候,请你选择以下你比较喜欢去做的事情:
A.喂动物→Q16
B.摸动物→Q17
C.咬动物(如果动物园允许的话)→Q17
D.吃动物(仅仅允许幻想)→Q16

Q16.你喜欢跟情人怎样相处?
A.拉着→Q17
B.搂着→Q18
C.压着→Q19
D.未成年不宜→Q18

Q17.累的时候喜欢:
A.睡觉→Q19
B.洗澡→Q20
C.被按摩→Q18
D.其他→Q19

Q18.当你希望跟一个人一辈子在一起,你会选择以下:
A. 跟他说→A
B. 等他说出来→Q19
C.让他跟你说→Q20
D.别的方式→Q19

Q19.喜欢爱人跟你撒娇吗?
A.喜欢跟爱人撒娇→B
B.还好吧,能接受→Q20
C.笑,一般吧→B
D.非常喜欢,觉得这样很可爱→Q20

Q20.当爱人在你面前哭泣:
A.无奈,不是很喜欢→D
B.为难,不知道该怎么办→C
C.哄他,但自己比较清醒→B
D.跟着心碎→A



A. 你的真心人就是那么一个,永永远远的那样一个。从此以后,不论你 再遇见谁,跟谁在一起,你再也不会对其他人有以前那个人那样的上心。人是很奇怪的东西,没有理由的相遇。没有理由的萌生爱意。也许爱一个人很简单,但是总想起的还是他好,还是那个他没有任何毛病。在你心中永远完美。就象《东京爱情故事》中的莉香,永远的微笑着,成为一个美好的标志。

B. 你的真心人是谁?你一生会有无数的爱人,少则七八个,多则20多个。你自己都不知道谁是你的最爱。也许有的人会被你记住,但记住不代表爱情。你戏弄红尘嘲笑爱情,浪逐尘世,也被尘世、爱情、红尘狠狠的报复、惩罚。应该说,这是你自找的。你就象《东邪西毒》的西毒一样,你渴望知道被人喜欢的感觉是这么样的,结果伤害了很多人。现在,看到了这个测试结果,你是不是应该考虑来个结束呢?是你回归单纯的时候了吧?

C. 你会有那么两个刻骨铭心的爱人,甚至是一段三角恋爱。你最爱谁?恐怕你也不清楚,一个阶段一个想法。这不是你的错误,更不是他们的错误。当然,也不是我的错误。爱情这东西,公说公有理,婆说婆有理,说来说去说得谁心里也没有底。但愿你现在已经离开了那段乱七八糟的经历。如果现在还没解脱的话,给你一个建议,他们两个谁都别跟随。不够完美的爱情对谁都是一场折磨。不如从头开始。虽然后来的爱人不再是那样的爱了,但是象阳光一样温温的爱情有什么不好呢?

D. 恐怕,你一生也没有最爱的人吧。因为你对自由的渴望,因为你对你所追求的文化的热爱也许远远超过了对爱情的关心。也许朋友对你来说是更加可靠的心理上的中流砥柱。和你这样的人组成家庭应该是很幸福的。因为你能用超出一般的人的眼光来看待事物。因为你太理性还是因为你太独特?找到一个和你身心合璧的人也许真的太难了。所以,恐怕是这样。但是,茫茫人海,谁又能找到真正合适自己的那个人呢?

HUGS... tats wat i need now...

hugs.... argh... i super need some warm hugs now.... first day back at school, got heaps of unfortunate events happened. feeling so lost, feel like crying, feel like shouting... so? i cant do all these stuff... it's a fact tat i hafta face and it wont make any difference if i do cry or shout, right?
argh....fuck! life is tough.... and yet i hafta believe that life is beautiful... i screwed up everything at the last minute after months and months of hard work... kill me pls... an accurate head shot will be nice.. simple and easy! how i wish my family or my buddies are here with me... gimme a nice warm hug.... i dunnid any words to comfort my disappointed heart, i just need a nice warm hug. hugs can create miracles... i believe that. well, too bad.... the ones that i need are so far away from me... so i think i hafta hug myself and comfort myself.
missed my friends back in high school... my true friends. at times like this, they will either scold me (so that i will be awake) or gimme a warm hugs... cant find anyone here in this piece of land which i've stayed for 4 years... at least i can talk to God, at least i can talk to myself... i'll be strong and wake up and face everything... tis is what i keep telling myself. can i do it? i hope i can... life is full of ups and downs... i'm facing the downs now and hopefully eveyrthing will be sweet in the end.. pray for me!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

MY SONG --- 你走你的路

如果你的生命注定无法停止追逐
我也只能为你祝福
如果你觉定将这段感情结束
又何必管我在不在乎
如果我的存在只是增加你的痛苦
为何你不对我说清楚
莫非我早该知道我将要孤独在我们相识的最初

你走你的路
直到我们无法接触
我也许将独自跳舞
也许独自在街头漫步

你走你的路
用我无法追赶的脚步
我也许将独自跳舞
也许独自在街头漫步

我也曾经想过回头寻找来时的路
心中的你已经太模糊
你以为可以从我这里找到幸福
而我却总是让你哭

如果我们的爱已经成了彼此包伏
何不就让我们承认错误
因为我知道我终於将会孤独在我们相识的最初...

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Short Trip back to Malaysia

just got back from a 11 day trip back to Malaysia. sound a bit crazy hor... went back for 11 days only. well, i tried that before 3 years ago in my first year of university. i went back for 10 days during easter break, which was approximately one month after i arrived in this country. haha! well, i was forced to leave this place coz i was still staying in the halls and i had no where to go. i still remember that my dad came over and dragged me home, and my mum was so surprised to see me in the airport! haha...
well, this trip back to msia was the "bestest"... did a lot of shoppings, and bought heaps of stuff which were all out of my expectations. well, as ppl alwez say, expectations kill! right? also, i got to spend precious time with my parents and we talked a lot. coolie? missed malaysia now... din go back 2 years liao... everything has changed, but one thing will never change... i've got my bestest family over there... hehe.. muacks! luv ya guys soo muchie!
oh okay... i'm gonna talk about some changes in our pretty country, Malaysia, through observations la ha.. trying my best:
1. Phones
- not as kolot as NZ, msia is promoting 3G phones... cool stuff hor.. and the phones there are super geng ... so tempted to get a new phone but it's not practical to get one now as i'll be in this outdated country. no point! hehe..
2. Cars
- everywhere i go, i'll see big adverts promoting BMW. dunno why... oh yeah, the BMW 1 series is a damn cute cars..suitable for girls... also, if you are after cars buatan msia.. Proton Gen 2 is the most popular choice la... so many women/girls driving this car.. all look damn sombong one..as if they are driving sports car.. haha! kenot take it.
3. Highways
- Soooo many highways have been constructed in KL - Selangor area. I got so pening on the first few days as I still don't really know how to go to places from my house. i think i can easily get lost aye! scary...!!!
4. Price
- whew! food price, petrol, car, clothes... just about all the stuff is facing a price increase... i used to get a large plate of char kuey teow for only RM2.50.. but not now, i paid RM 4.00 for only a small plate of char kuey teow that won't make me full... damn!
5. Pop songs
- haha..the most popular song has a very cute name, it's called "老鼠爱大米". well, this song is not that nice but just dunno why it's so popular. i heard it's a name of a tw series.... just gonna wait and see... :P try downloading it and see whether if you like it !
mmm... i forgot wat other changes i've noticed. i'll keep updating this list.. it's almost 12am.. time to sleep.. hehe! i'm becoming a sleeping beauty nowadays as i've got nothing better to do. it's my last night to sleep more because my next term will start on monday. Not really that happy, but at least it'll keep me busy and i wont die of boredom at home. hehe...also .. pray that my first sem results are pretty okay.. i just need a PASS for everything... !!!
will keep blogging laaa...
forgot to get a digicam back in msia... aiks!! damn.. see??? tat's what i mean expectation kills... i EXPECTed to get a digicam and a cool sunglasses back in Msia... but i din get these stuff... arghhh... din plan to get so many clothes... but i got like a whole box of new clothes... u guys gonna see me wearing my new clothes...not now la.. now cold ma..but in summer! hehehe!!!! happppieeee
la la laaa... sleep loooo... Zzzzzz....

Friday, July 01, 2005

An article about LOVE (from Chloe...)

Sometimes, love dies; and there is no easy
Some of us see it coming. Some of us dont.
But most of us try not to see it at all.
Because it is easier to pretend that all is well rather than admit that your dreams have been shattered and that you are left only with the broken pieces of your heart.

It hurts to imagine the person we love with someone else.
It hurts to no longer be the object of his/her affections.
It hurts to be no longer the center of his/her universe.
It hurts to no longer be wanted.
It hurts to be discarded, replaced and dumped unceremoniously like an old rag that has outlived its usefulness.
It hurts to no longer be loved.
But it happens everyday to the best among of us to the beautiful, the kind, the talented, the smart, the successful, the multi-awarded.

It happens to the perfect wife, sister, friend and mother.
It happens to the civic leader, the CEO, the cover girl.
Whether or not its something we did or didnt do, sometimes, love just dies.
And overthinking would serve no purpose.

To be loved is a blessing.
But to no longer be loved is not necessarily a tragedy.
We've been raised since childhood to believe that love must last forever.
And perhaps it must.
But isnt it possible to simply be happy for the love you have no matter if it doesnt last forever?

Isnt it possible to simple savor the moment and become richer by it without wanting to possess it forever?
Isnt it possible to love and let go and love again?
Isnt it possible to love forever but to love different people over time?

Its all right to no longer be loved.
Its all right to stop loving.
Its all right to mourn for loves losses but to condemn yourself to a life of misery because your love didnt last forever is foolhardy.

If love must die, let it go peacefully into the night.
But dont keep score.
Love is not a contest.
It is not a competition to see who emerges the prettiest, the craftiest or toughest.
Love is what it is a gift.
It cannot be forced on anyone.
Neither can it be forced out of anyone.
So let it be.
When love dies, hold on to the memories.
But let go of the one you love.