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It’s Monday again. I was so reluctant to wake up this morning because of the miserable Auckland weather. I’m getting crazy dealing with the Auckland weather. Last weekend was a quiet weekend. Only attended one party at Opium on Friday night but I did not party hard as before. I just sat there… drink, drink and drink. Reason being I was too tired to stay awake and I didn’t like the environment at all. *sigh*

Something that I found out in Auckland is that many Aucklanders are smokers. I think 90% of my friends are smokers or probably learning how to become a smoker. Imagine going out with a bunch of people and all of a sudden, every one of them suddenly left the room and went out for a smoke, leaving you all by yourself. This is my situation… I really dislike this sort of feeling. Oh well, it’s nobody’s fault. It’s just because I don’t smoke, and I never had that urge to pick up a cigarette and start somking, although I always like to say that I would love to try smoking. So when people start smoking, the only thing that I could do is DRINK. Not too bad actually because I love drinking now. Not that I’m an alcoholic, but it’s the only way I could think of now to keep myself occupied when people are busy with their cigs.

Okay. I’m having a terrible mood today. Don’t ask me why, coz I don’t know why. It’s end of October 2006, approaching my 11th month working in this company. I’m going to have my performance review very soon, as in this Wednesday. Two days later… what’s my expectation for my 2nd year here? What do I want from the company? And what could I contribute to my department/company? These are really common yet important questions. I’ve been thinking hard… should I start planning for my Masters? Or should I wait for another year? Which sector should I go into? Should I go overseas for a short term assignment? Am I capable enough to go explore the world? There are so many things to consider. Some might think it’s easy decision making process, but to me, it’s not! Probably I’m a person who tends to think too much… a bit too much to complicate things.

Switching my mind off…

Refused to go to work....

Back to work. Been busy for the morning when I just stepped into the office. Just had my lunch which was some noodles that “survived” from the accident this morning. Still feeling hungry… Can’t wait till 5pm… I’ll rush home and cook myself something nice.

Oh well, I had a long long weekend. I took yesterday off but ended up spending most of the time bumming in the house either sleeping or cooking. Thanks to the shitty weather that always hit Auckland when we have long weekends. My Taupo trip, Rotorua trip and Waiheke Trip have been cancelled due to the weather. *cries* oh well, another 8 weeks to Christmas, probably I should start planning. Hmm… anyone wanna go to Australia?

My K800i cellphone is on its way to NZ… there goes my money, but if money can buy me temporary happiness, I think I should spend it just as long as I won’t go bankrupt after that. Can't wait to have my new cellphone... i'm gonna take heaps of pictures.... muahahahah!!! ^^

Oh well, after having my cellphone sorted out, I sat down in front of my pc thinking of what are the things that need to be done. They are:
1. Get a good facial place (my face condition is getting worse, thanks to Akl weather... i missed my skin in Christchurch!!! argh.. DARN! recommendations anyone? ^^ )
2. Sort out my internet connection (been using Woosh connection for 11 months, thinking of changing it to a faster one....again, recommendations anyone? ^^ )
3. Plan for my trip (Don't want to cancel / postpone any trips now.. so i better start planning early.. probably gotta try to find out when is my xmas hol and how much is the air ticket and cheap accommodations.... anyone wanna join me?? gimme a buzzzz.... ^^ )
4. Lastly, if i still have extra money to splash out, i'm thinking of getting another brand new PC. This time i'll go for those branded ones.. don't care how much is it, as long as it won't give me problem and don't pissed me off... )

Kay back to work. I’ll do the boring stuff that my bro has sort of “forced” me to do later on. If you are not sure what I’m talking about, check out his blog at http://www.kevinteh.blogspot.com/... I saw my name at the bottom of the post… great one bro! I’ll do it if I became as bored as you later… HAHAHA!!

Have a great week people…. Thursday tomorrow… damn fast eh? =) any plans this weekend?

Tired

i'm tired... very very tired...

i almost got into an accident last night while driving home. my mind was not cooperating. i kept accelerating and i can feel that my mind is in a hibernating mode then. Damn dangerous, luckily i arrived home safely. Dozed off at 10.25pm....

Woke up at 2am because two of my surveyors couldn't make it to the morning session... just great!!! they informed me last minute, i mean VERY VERY LAST MINUTE. oh well, i got everything sorted out at the end. tried to convince 3 of my surveyors to do extra work... hehe!!! good job. survey started at 7am and ended at 9am... i stayed a wee bit longer in Glen Innes to sort out all my survey sheets and drove Hui Wern (one of my surveyors) back to the city. I "rested" at home for 1 hour... a nice one... just to charge up my battery before i came back here...

another hour to go before i move my ass to Glen Innes again. I think i need a coffee....

mood ain't that good recently. experiencing mood swing every now and then. why is that? i don't know... apparently i went to bed in quite a bad mood last night...

labour weekend coming up... what should i do? i gotta work this saturday, however i got Tuesday off, which is nice.... hmm... but do i really need tuesday off???

"Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well."

break down

it's been a long time since i last felt this way....

i don't know...

stress is building up....
life ain't easy....

i wish i can just....leave...
can i?

i don't know...

Dilemma

argh.. i just hate making decisions. a small decison making will actually drive me crazy. i just hate doing this....

okay.. i need help this time again.. please gimme me comments and make decisions for me.

these are the stuff that i want...
1. a new cellphone (my current one is faulty at times... and it's time to get a new cellphone)
2. a nice haircut (thinking of giving it a nice trim and straigthten or probably highlight it?)
3. a mp3 player (supposed to get one ages ago... but i was thinking if i can get a good cellphone, i won't need mp3 player....)

okay.. firstly, talk about cellphone. i've been dying to get N80, which is around 800 bucks (get it from singapore... it's damn expensive here in nz)... and then i discovered there's another new model -- N73 (slightly smaller, but no wi-fi, and a hundred bucks cheaper)... okay... someone has been convincing me to get Samsung E900... i went to Etown to have a loook, it's 520 bucks (GST included) which is way cheaper than the nokia N series... E900 is smaller, slimmer, cooler, but with no 3G and not as popular as nokia... should i get it? i don't know....

with the extra $$ i saved by getting E900 instead of N80... i could use it to do my hair... fyi, a nice haircut for me will cost me 300 bucks EASILY.... hmm.... howwwww...........

damn it.. i hate making decisions.... puh-lease help poor carol....

lunch break

I’m so damn tired… my brain is working real slow… I’m physically and mentally tired…

Life has been hectic. I mean EXTREMELY hectic…

Went for a survey in Mt Albert yesterday morning and my car broke down on Ponsonby Road. I called up Roadside Rescue and the towing truck came 20 minutes later, meaning that I was 15 minutes late for my survey. Surprisingly I wasn’t panic when my car broke down and I was not pissed off… I was happily having my breakfast in my car and save up my energy to scold the bastard in Lexus. This bastard looked pissed off and frustrated when he saw me. this is because this is not the first time I got the towing company to tow my car to Lexus. This car has been giving me problem since dunno when, and every time Mr Bastard will tell me “no problem! I can’t see any problem, you have to send your car here when there is a problem!!”.. and all sorts of bullshits… and I’ll get charged like 400 bucks everytime just for labour work! F**K !!!! the worst thing is I only send my car there when I’ve got problem…. How the heck I know when they tried to start the car, it works! Arghh… there must be some hidden problem la!!! Oh man, this bastard is driving me crazy.

Oh anyway, I asked for a courtesy car this time because I was actually on my way to a traffic survey in Mt Albert. He straight away said “NO. you have to booked it earlier…” I gave him a real bitchy face… “how would I know that my car will break down. And YOU said that there’s no problem with my car… I don’t care. GIVE ME A CAR!” so yeah.. he went away.. had a wee bit chit chat with his colleagues.. and gave me a car, a mini Daihatsu car. Real tiny… but cute.

Speaking about this tiny car, i feel intimidated driving on the road. Feels like I’ll be blown away when the weather turns crappy, and feels like I’ll be run over by some big trucks…. But overall, cute car…could save lotsa petrol too…  this morning while I was driving in the Shore, I tried to change lane and cars just don’t give way to me… damn it! I cursed like hell coz they don’t show a bit of courtesy. Damn it! Don’t let me see you when I drive a bigger car… damn it!!!! Btw, I jot down their car plate number just in case I feel evil and I feel like taking revenge. Muahahahah!!! Lesson is .. don’t piss me off!!!

Okay. lunch time.. what should I have?? Rice? Nah…. Burger? Nah…. What?! Hmm.. I wonder….

Long weekend next weekend. Our plan of going to Taupo has been postponed. Where should I go? I feel like going away for a day or two… just leaving Auckland for the sake of staying sane…

*yawn*

hmm....

what should i say... or better still what COULD i say...

worked hard for something and you did not get a share of it at the end....
ended up doing something that you dislike ...

i'm tired... i'm hungry...

anyone free on next wednesday? between 7 to 9 and 4 to 6? pls contact me... cheers!

current mood: feel like going to the beach.... have some fresh air.....

spring?!?!

is it really spring now?!?!?! damn it! the stupid wind... fuhreeezzing!!!! the wind was so strong that i could hardly walk properly... damn it...so many kilos of fat still cant withstand the strong wind! stupid auckland weather.. stupid stupid stuipd!!!!

yeahhh... i'm in sort of grumpy mode. been busy begging ppl to do traffic survey for me. nowadays ppl don't really response to incentives.... no matter how great the pay is, it's still damn hard for me to get surveyors.... giving me reasons like "ahhh.. it's too early..." "nah... it's weekend, i wanna go shopping"... DAMN IT! if i can do it, i'll do it myself. arghhh...oopsss... shouldn't be swearing... i mean err i mean... "please please ... could you please spare a few hours to do traffic survey for me?? puhleaseeeeeeee...."

oh well, i arrived late again today. not my first time, but i was not supposed to be late! stupid bus... i saw the bus, and i used up all my energy and ran towards the bus! guess what.... the bus left when i was just RIGHT NEXT TO IT! damn it .. damn you bus driver ..... you need to check your eye sight... can't see properly eh??? damn it.. gotta wait for another freaking 15 mins for another bus.... not too bad after all, met my senior in the bus... PHEW!!!

okay.. back to more work... free shout from the other department tonight... should i really drink?? hmm.. i alwez say it's alcohol free weekend, and there's alwez a reason that i can't say no to alcohol... sigh!!!

OH BY THE WAY....

it's MOONCAKE FESTIVAL.... without mooncakes.... ><

shitty auckland weather....

Phew!!!! Started pouring the minute I stepped into the office... I’m lucky!!!! Phew!!!! Looks like it’s going to be another “sad” day for Auckland. Damn it! It’s supposed to stop raining yesterday according to the weather forecast… at least, predicted to be a cloudy day… stupid weather!

For your information, I created a drama scene this morning, and it’s only 9.10am! HAHA… not even in the office for half an hour and I have already successfully created the topic of the day. Oh well, not a really drama type of drama but good enough to keep everyone moving and laughing. Haha!!

Hmm… apart from the drama I created…. I received a letter today from Bistro, saying “CONGRATULATIONS! You won a bottle of house wine to enjoy with a meal here at Bistro”…. Sounds great right? But it’s a rip off. In order to get that bottle of house wine, I have to buy an entrée and two main courses. Each main course at least cost 10 bucks… entrée will be around 7 bucks, meaning I have to spend 27 bucks to get a bottle of wine that might only cost a few bucks in countdown??

Okay. Back to work. Looks like I don’t have any mood to work.

16 mins to go...

errr..... expect me to know so much....

err.. yeah... there's a new grad in our team now.... i'm actually his "buddy"... (buddy = someone to "take care" of you when you r new to the team)... and yeah, he came over and asked me sooooooo many questions, and 80% of the time, i have no freaking idea how to reply him. GOSH... sorry man! i feel sooo bad....

sowieeee.....

btw, he's single, he's 26, he's tall, he's quite cute... muahahhaha!!! my only motivation to go to work now.. HAHAHA... kidding...

at 4pm...

I’m sleepy… really sleepy….my eyes are dry… concentration level very low… dozing off soon… I’m having ‘pocky’ just to keep myself awake… Zzzz….

Oh.. my secretary just came by and snatch my pocky away…!!!! >< *cries*

An hour to go…