Time flies...

Oh gosh! time really flies aye.... it's my fourth year here in NZ... suddenly got this weird n complex feeling. well, in less then 3 months i'll be leaving this beautiful city for another city ... entering another stage of life!
omg... am i ready yet? well, i'm not too sure bout it... but i'm really looking forward to it... mm... dunno wat's the point of me writing this bloody post today... i've got heaps of stuff in my mind that i wanna just write it here but i just dunno how to express it using words. mmm..... oh god! help me... i need a job, i need a good future, i need to graduate!!!! can i fast forward time??? i hate this stage of life where i'm just standing at the border.... dunno wat's the next second gonna be like, cant even imagine it! i know most of my friends are like me now, but it's really scary when i think about it. i have heaps of weird dreams about my life after graduate these days... really scary... haha.... but i hafta have faith in god right?? Only god knows what is best for me, for everything that happened to me, there's a good explanation behind. ^^
Good night guys.... I'm heading for a breakdown now... haha! byeee.....

Psychometric Test for ME

INTEREST IN JOB CONTENT

Carolyn's preferences can include routine, organized, and methodical procedures, but this is not a need or dependency. Carolyn is most likely to adapt immediate preferences to change if it isn't too sudden, radical, or disruptive. The predominant motivation is to strike a good balance between stability and flexibility.

TEMPERAMENT FOR THE JOB

Carolyn indicates a moderate preference to work under the competent leadership of others, closely with peers, or function independently. It is valuable to identify which social environment may be best suited for Carolyn, but the work role in and of itself is not the motivational factor.

APTITUDE FOR THE JOB

More than likely, all kinds and uses of numbers naturally make sense to Carolyn and a preference to work with numbers exists. (NOTE: Mathematical talent is as much a natural gift as artistic or musical talent, even though few people, acknowledge that fact. But it is readily acknowledged as a natural gift by those that have it as well as by those who don't.) Carolyn probably laughs, and understands exactly what is meant when Charles Schultz's Charlie Brown said, "How can you do new math with an old-math mind?") Carolyn's preferences lean heavily toward the conceptual, theoretical, analytical, and computational in the awareness, use and application of math. As such, math is an important vocational asset whether it is vocational specialization or vocational application.

PEOPLE

Carolyn is motivated to voluntarily communicate to others with the intent or hope that the information will be in their interest and for their benefit. At this motivational level, it is probable that Carolyn is more strongly motivated in benevolent and literary traits rather than just this persuasive trait. The persuasive trait here might have a lower motivational level, however, the sense of service responsibility will cause certain willingness, even duty, to communicate persuasively if warranted.

THINGS

Carolyn's motivational level supports the ability (either existing or because of pending training) to be perceptive and alert relative to monitoring operational processes by use of technical recording instruments. This includes remaining interested, alert and responsible throughout steady operational shifts. This activity could appropriately be called operational/clerical because it means monitoring what is going on.

DATA

Carolyn is highly motivated for routine, factual, mathematical problems related to operational, procedural, or administrative activities. This includes good logic, analysis, and attention to detail. (NOTE: Business math may be motivated strongly enough to be the heart of professional or vocational activity, as a CPA or corporate accountant, for instance).

REASONING

Carolyn is motivated and perhaps even mentally equipped for troubleshooting: to recognize or otherwise identify problems or developing problems in familiar operational or procedural areas; to tackle problems with intent to solve the problems and restore function to former levels or better. (NOTE: This requires onsite familiarity with those operations, a sense or suspicion of where things might or could break down, and savvy about ways to fix the problem).

MATHEMATICAL CAPACITY

(NOTE: The Worker Trait Factor called computational should be called business math because it means everyday calculations related to over-the-counter or on-site business calculations or transactions. Representative of this is commercial transactions such as buying groceries at a store, lunch at a restaurant, or a plane ticket at an airport. It is primarily composed of addition, subtraction, multiplication, division and recording results). Given this, Carolyn is highly motivated where activities call for computational math.

LANGUAGE CAPACITY

When given the task of reading elementary statements or instructions, Carolyn possesses adequate motivation to do so and then have good recall of specific content. This can be an asset when it interacts with other natural talents or abilities.

MAN UTD IS BACK!

muahahahahah!! MU ROCKS!!!!! watched the first premiership game of the season for MU last night. it was cool!!! rock on!!

ME?!?!?! hehehe....

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life. The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
Try it!!! http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

不论在生活中，还是在网上
人人都会有朋友
朋友是什么
朋友就是彼此有交情的人
彼此要好的人
友情是一种 最纯洁、最高尚、最朴素
最平凡的感情
也是最浪漫、最动人、最坚实
最永恒的情感
人人都离不开友情
你可以没有爱情
但是你绝不能没有友情
一旦没有了友情
生活就不会有悦耳的和音
就死水一潭
友情无处不在，她伴随你左右
萦绕在你身边，和你共渡一生

My Dinner

kekeke.. my Dinner tonight...

Sweet n Sour Fish + Vege on rice... yummy!!!!

A brand new me...

kekekeke... i know someone's gonna ask me "how many new you are there?" hahaha.. well well well, i dunno aye! ^^ i just change and change and change until i found the best me! ^^
everything change every second... to adapt the changing environment, i reckon we should all change! Change our thoughts and we could change our world to a better one! right??? well, some ppl just say we should stay the same alwez... coz it's better to stick to the same old you... frankly, changing is neither good nor bad.. it's just the way of things coz nothing stays the same.
phew! learned a lot of stuff these few weeks after spending precious time with myself and read a few good articles and of coz had great weekends! study hard during weekdays and party hard during weekends! kakaka.. my motto for the remaining 83 days!

my babies....

Baby #1: My Samsung SGH- E600 Phone

she's almost 8 month old, the first phone i bought for myself. kekeke... love her so much! muacks.... *dun say i'm crazy*

Baby #2: My PC

This baby is slightly older than my phone... keke.. i think 9 month old? keke... she's my best teman.. basically accompany me the whole day la... the essential tool to keep me entertained at all times. ^^

Baby #3: Digital Camera

Well... gonna get my third baby soon.. probably in 3 weeks time, i'll announce the birth of my 3rd baby.. kekeke...

Snapshots for my day... 05/08/2005

Girls that go online in the middle of the night...

上网的女人，除了因为是工作必须，除了纯粹因为好玩，都或多或少有着自己的心事。尤其是经常深夜上网的女人，一定有着深深浅浅的不能轻易与人道的寂寞。 　　
这样的女人，不一定非常漂亮，也许只有几分可以让自己自信的姿色，但是一定有着丰富的情感，温柔而细腻。在现实生活中，她们或许都会有着或大或小的成就，是同龄人中的佼佼者，是别人眼中的能人。在工作中，她们可以独挡一面；在朋友面前，她们善解人意、尽力替朋友排忧解难。她们是生活中看起来的强者。在太阳底下，它们是赏心悦目的女人。 　　
只有在夜深人静的时候，她们才会疲惫地除去坚强的伪装，审视镜子中那个憔悴的容颜，对着网络对着键盘对着一个个陌生的名字倾吐自己的心事，释放自己的脆弱。 　　
她们也有着如水的柔情，只是无人轻易能解。她们也有着许许多多脆弱的泪水，只是别人很少看见。她们的爱执着而热烈，只是无人值得。 　　
你很难完全地走进她们的心里面完整地拥有它们。她们是成熟的女人。她们对生活有自己的见解，她们有自己处世的原则、有自己的人生观。 　　
但是她们一旦向你打开心扉，你就会惊奇地发现在那么坚强的外表下藏着的竟然是那么一颗伤痕累累的心，你会情不自禁地想要付出你的关爱给她温暖，你会不由自主地想呵护她疼她宠她。你会在她生病的时候想陪着她，在她没有力气的时候想牵着她，但是你又是那么害怕，害怕不小心伤害了她。 　　
于是你小心翼翼地保持着让她们觉得安全的距离。给她快乐，听她哭泣，让她的灵魂不在孤独地漂浮在寂寞的深夜。 　　
深夜上网的女人是寂寞的女人。但是她们不会选择去酒吧买醉，不会让袅袅的香烟麻醉了自己，不肯让自己在灯红酒绿的世界里迷失。她们不需要虚伪的怜悯需要真诚的友情。于是，她们选择了逃避，把满腔心事都深埋进文字，然后微笑着继续坚强的人生。
mmm.. i think so too...

86 days to go...

Had a look at my calendar.... counting the days till i finish my last paper... the 31st october 2005. tat's gonna be my happiest day i reckon, finish my 4-year long degree. ^^ well, i'm really looking forward to that day... already planned what i'm gonna do that day when i finish my exam.... and i can imagine my happy look.. kekekeke....
Can't wait to meet my beloved friends back home... miss you guys so much!!!
Can't wait to spend time with my family....
Can't wait to get all my assignment done...
Can't wait to finish my degree...
Can't wait to leave University...
Can't wait to get a Job and enter the another stage of my life...
Can't wait...Can't Wait...
When i'm anticipating all these things to happen, the clock seems to tick slower... wonder why... but nvm.. at least mid of term is coming... it's always easier to pass time when we are occupied with some activities or work. I'm happy that i've got my holiday planned and i'm 100% sure i'll have loads of fun. Will post some pictures about my holiday coz i'll be getting myself a digital camera.. FINALLY.. keke.. wanna snap as many photos as possible so that i would see my changes... or the ppl around me, the environment around me.. changing... every single thing around us is changing every second... tat's the pretty and interesting side of our lives. you'll never get bored with it... just occasional frustration and annoyance... well, probably that's just some "spices" to be added to our lives.
oh well....it's another sudden moment tat i start thinking about my future... haha... it's pretty scary when i start thinking.. coz a lot of sad stuff will pop up and i'll be moody... well oh well.. i'm alone in the house, no one's gonna get affected, so no worries... and i have made it a habit to think through what i've done for the day and wat i've learned before i go to bed at night. i think it's pretty nice to have this habit... at least i learn from wat i've been through. ^^ try it guys... u'll love it. u'll know urself more and more each day...

**expect a new template for my blog guys!! ... kekekeke **

Song of this minute...

Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely

Carolyn's Latest Ten Rules to Live By...

1. Feed Your Strengths!
Do things that allow your brilliant intuition and service-oriented manner to flourish.

2. Face Your Weaknesses!
See your weaknesses for what they are, and seek to overcome them. Especially, strive to use your judgment against your internal ideas and intuitions, rather than as a means of disregarding other people's ideas.

3. Talk Through Your Thoughts.
You need to step through your intuitions in order to put them into perspective. Give yourself time to do this, and take advantage of discussing ideas with others. You'll find externalizing your internal intuitions to be a valuable exercise.

4. Take in Everything.
Don't dismiss ideas prematurely because you don't respect the person generating the ideas, or because you think you already know it all. After all, everybody has something to offer, and nobody knows everything. Steven Covey says it so well when he says: "Seek first to understand, and then to be understood."

5. When You Get Angry, You Lose. (THE KILLER!!!)
Your passion and intensity are strong assets, but can be very harmful if you allow yourself to fall into the "Anger Trap". Remember that Anger is destructive to your personal relationships. Work through your anger before you impress it upon others, or you will likely find yourself alone. Disagreements and disappointments can only be handled effectively in a non-personal and dispassionate manner.

6. Keep Your Eye on the Big Picture
Watch out for your tendency to become obsessed with details. If you find yourself feeling very, very strongly about a small detail, take a big step back and make sure that you can still see the goal. You're not going to get there if you get mired in the details.

7. Be Accountable for Yourself.
Don't blame the problems in your life on other people. Look inwardly for solutions. No one has more control over your life than you have.

8. Be Humble.
Judge yourself at least as harshly as you judge others.

9. Assume the Best. (da 2nd KILLER)
Don't distress yourself and others by dwelling on the dark side of everything. Just as there is a positive charge for every negative charge, there is a light side to every dark side. Remember that positive situations are created by positive attitudes. Expect the best, and the best will come forward.

10. Relax! (3rd KILLER)
Do yourself a favor and learn how to effectively unwind. Get exercise and restful sleep. Take vacations. Engage in relaxing activities. Take care of yourself and your loved ones by learning to let go of your passion and intensity for a respite.

good luck to meee.... ^^