「妳選擇別人是妳的選擇，我選擇妳是我的選擇，妳會改變妳的選擇，我卻不會！」
有空就看看吧~還不錯的一篇故事(真人真事)唷~傷心的男人總是選擇讓自已成長而非自哀自憐，女性同胞好好學學吧！
沒想到現在還有這種癡情男~你選擇別人是你的選擇，我選擇你是我的選擇.你會改變你的選擇，我卻不會！這句話真特別.
不應選擇你最愛的人來結為連理(因為他不會很珍惜妳).應選擇最愛妳的人結為連理(他會像寶貝一樣把你捧在手心裡). 才會過的很幸福吧.值的深思.一生只愛一人，一生只懷一種情。
她因獲選為模範生上臺領獎而為全校所認識，他成為仰慕者。
那年他14歲。一天放學，他發現她不但是坐同一路線下車，還在同一站下車，她家只隔他家一條小巷子。
他利用聖誕卡寫 了封【希望和妳作朋友】的信。
結果得到訓導主任在司令臺拿來念而譏笑一陣的回音，這封信讓全校都知道他是『癩蛤蟆想吃天鵝肉』，一個放牛班的孩子怎能獲得模範生的青睞呢？
他繼續寫信，寫了封起來，直到初三那年的聖誕節一起丟到她家信箱，她沒回音，訓導主任也沒回音。
高中聯考放榜，她考上總統府隔壁那一間學校，他的學校離總統府也不遠，他念化工科，還常和她同班公車，卻從未交談。他只能默默看著綠衣，暗自祝福，並為自己打氣。
他依然 寫信，依然在聖誕火紅季節整批寄，她依然不睬。
大學，她念師大，他到南部讀二專。
為了能再常看見她，他在南部苦讀了一年，考上了師大工教系，他又和她同學了。
還記得看了榜單，他口中念著她的名字，飛快地騎車到那條巷子，頭次按了她家的門鈴，在鈴聲中他滿腦都是她，渴望和她講一輩子的話她還是不睬他，她已有男友，但他寫了句話給她：「妳選擇別人是妳的選擇，我選擇妳是我的選擇，妳會改變妳的選擇，我卻不會！」
對他這總有些恐怖份子色彩的痴戀，她始終置之不理。他當兵那年的聖誕節，她嫁人了。
沒多久她去了美國，他也知道她生了個女兒。但他不絕望，他從小沒想到要去美國，總以為留美是天之驕子的事，輪不到平凡人，他原本認為每學期能讀完就很不錯了。
是她喚起他的美國夢，他到了美國讀書，才更體會雪地中的聖誕更美，他也更堅信十四歲的抉擇。
三十一歲 那年，他學成回國，在大學教書，他依然只單戀著她，他還是繼續寫信，每逢聖誕節信就特別長，只是沒有寄出，他打算等她到相識二十年再說。他是單純的要把單純的愛帶到中年。
三十三歲那年的聖誕節，她來找他。
十九年了！終於有了回應。
她已婚變，帶女兒回家，一個多月找不到工作，想到他在教育圈有許多好朋友。他當然幫她，她很快就重拾教鞭。
他追求她，用十四歲起就炙熱的單純愛情。她依然抗拒，她覺的自己不配，她不再是當年的才女，只是一個曾在婚姻中心碎的婦人。
他帶著兩大箱的信向她求婚，感謝她給他的ㄧ切：
沒有她～他大概讀個高職就停止了；
沒有她～沒學士、沒碩士、沒博士；
沒有她～熬不過人生地不熟的歲月；
沒有她～人生的道路不知道要怎麼混亂；
沒有她～他的字不可能如此工整，文章不可能如此流暢；
沒有她～他這學理工的是不可能喜愛文學詩詞，詩詞伴隨他的成為今日的我。
『好不好？讓我一生只愛一個人，一生只懷一種情。你沒有欠我的，我以愛你為生命最美的事。』
三十四歲那年的聖誕節，他和她走向地毯的那一端，他堅持請她的女兒作花童，他深愛這小女孩，視同己出。
這故事還沒完，不過他倆已攜手走過十個年頭的聖誕，在學校宿舍中，他們家的聖誕紅開的特別豔，特別早，也最晚萎。
這是真實的故事，此人就是師大工教系彭懷真教授。
摘不到的星星，總是最閃亮的。
但是很多人一但摘到..遇到了..卻不懂得珍惜..
世上的感情事就是那麼矛盾
摘不到的星星，總是最閃亮 的。
溜掉的小魚，總是最美麗的。
錯過的電影，總是最好看的
失去的情人，總是最懂我的。
這世界上，每一個人都有個想要尋找的人。
這個人，錯過了，就再也找不回來，好好珍惜你所愛的人跟愛妳的人....^^..
想說的話不要藏在心裡， 因為你不說出來永遠不會有人知道。
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
^^
Friday, October 28, 2005
Stressed.... ><
My favourite song at the moment...
Leo Ku's << 劲歌金曲 >>
第一章:天大的爱
爱你:
爱你我管不了是祸
未想过是为何能爱着你苦也未去躲
爱是永恒:
有着我便有着你真爱是永不死
穿过喜和悲跨过生和死
我的骄傲:
see me fly i am singing in the sky
假使我算神话因你创更愉快
爱是最大权利:
凭我彻底的勇气爱是最大权利
不理场面不伟大我共你始终同游生死
还有哪一种结尾花光一切在乎你
没有想过太多我只需要你
恋爱大过天:
恋爱大过天
想不想也日夜怀念连甜梦也不够甜
怎么闪同学始终会遇见
第二章:讲情
shall we talk:
shall we talk shall we talk
就当重新手拖手去上学堂
哪有一天不想你:
我带着情意一丝丝凄怆
许多说话都仍然未讲
纵隔别遥远怀念对方
悲伤盼换上再会祈望
越吻越伤心:
越问越伤心明明无余地再过问
明明知道衷心一吻会有更亲厚质感
我说过要你快乐:
我说过要你快乐让我担当失恋的主角
改写了剧情无言地飘泊
假如让我说下去:
我想哭你可不可以暂时别要睡
陪着我像最初相识我当时未怕累
但如果但如果说下去或者
情深说话未曾讲:
我有说话未曾讲你这刹那在何方
如何能联系上与你再相伴在旁
如晨光
第三章:日月星辰风雨潮
太阳星辰:
太阳星辰即使变灰暗
心中记忆一生照我心
爱如潮水:
我的爱如潮水爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随爱如潮水她将你我包围
蓝雨:
冷冷雨 wo...
没焦点因找不到你
冷冷雨低泣彷佛要等你经过
爱如潮水:
答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎
风继续吹:
风继续吹不忍远离
心里亦有泪不愿流泪望着你
让一切随风:
各种空虚冷冷冷吹起吹起风里梦
过去的心火般灼热今天已变了冰冻
如风:
来又如风离又如风
或世事通通不过是场梦
人在途中人在时空
相识也许不过擦过梦中
约定:
就算你壮阔胸膛不敌天气
两鬓斑白都可认得你
第四章:两个人
现代爱情故事:
别离没有对错要走也解释不多
现代说永远已经很傻
随着那一宵去火花以消逝
不可能付出一生那么多
相爱很难:
也许相爱很难
就难在其实双方各有各寄望怎么办
要单恋都难
受太大的礼会内疚却也无力归还
谁令你心痴:
darling i want you 你竟不知
默默向风呆企去等心中戏子
曾无限次欲话我知却也停止
相逢何必曾相识:
同是天涯沦落人在这伤心者通道上同行
也许不必知道我是谁
无谓令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你
令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你
教我如何不爱她:
如何可以不爱她
莫非生命只配有一个他
到了没法相处再去记它好处
凭回忆制造这自欺的笑话
温柔的你:
随时日在远飞难舍弃
每次看见冷冬到访的你
那年冬天两心遇上没逃避
第五章:浪情歌
谁明浪子心:
可以笑的话不会哭
可相知的心哪怕追逐
可惜每次遇上热爱
无法使我感觉我终于遇上幸福
友情岁月:
来忘掉错对来怀念过去
曾共渡患难日子总有乐趣
不相信会绝望不感觉到踌躇
在美梦里竞争每日拼命进取
飞女正传:
世界将我包围誓死都一齐
壮观得有如悬崖的婚礼
也许生于世上无重要作为
仍有这种真爱会留低
第六章:神爱世人
少女的祈祷:
祈求天地放过一双恋人怕发生的永远别发生
从来未顺利遇上好景降临如何能重拾信心
神啊救救我:
神啊救救我吧一把年纪了一个爱人都没有
孤独是可怜的如果没爱我人生是黑白的
爱神:
僧人都不喜爱我神你不欢喜我迫我入了魔
爱侣几百万谁料我蠢得竟可重覆去犯错
完结章:好心一早放开我
小城大事:
吻下来豁出去
这吻别似覆水再来也许要天上团聚
献世:
眼泪还是留给天抚慰
你是前度何必听我吠
爱与诚:
别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你不瞅不睬最终只会成为敌人
好心分手:
好心一早放开我
好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破
谁愿放手:
谁得到过愿放手
曾精彩过愿挽留
年年月月逝去越是觉得深爱你
Thursday, October 13, 2005
complex
mm.. tomolo will be my last day of lecture... the end of my uni life! by right, i should be happy, coz i've been waiting this day but i'm not! aiii... dunno... complex feelin.
anyway, thinking of closing down this blog.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
??
我是怎么了?好复杂的心情，根本捉摸不到我自己到底想什么，唉，烦死了。或许是即将要离开这个地方，离开这段人生的阶段吧!好矛盾噢。好渴望毕业，但对进入另一人生阶段又有些许的恐惧感。哈哈。我到底怎么啦!
这就是人生吧，面临好多抉择，也面临很多的失败和成功。
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
review
剧情简介
女主角 - 18岁的高中小太妹，成天生活在自己的幻想当中
男主角 - 28岁的检察官，认真，木讷，严谨正直的帅哥
因为上一代的指婚约定，两人被迫结婚而闹出了很多笑话。在身分地位截然不同，却在命运安排下相遇，相知相爱，发展出一段活泼开朗的爱情喜剧。
我的感想
很佩服剧中的女主角，虽然在没有爱的情况下被迫嫁给一个自己不认识且年龄大她十岁的男人，她还是那么信任自己的丈夫。虽然这些剧情纯属虚构，但是我领悟到天下是没有守得了的秘密。夫妻间应该坦诚相对，这样虽然会引起不必要的争吵或不合，但是这会比藏在心里来得更舒服。还有，我也领悟到我们应该真心对待人和事，虽然外人会在刹那间觉得你很愚蠢，但是到最后，你会是胜利者。切记，真心对待他人正如你希望别人真心对待你。别吝啬付出你的爱，因为爱充满人间。
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Habit
有人问我为何昨天写了中文的blog，自己想想了一会儿，只能说是习惯吧。毕竟中文还是我的母语，表达能力也比较好，觉得更亲切。虽然离开了大马已有四年了，但是我可以很大胆的承认我的思想行为上还是没有丝毫改变，或许更像华人吧!
别人常说，一旦出国就得入乡随俗，言行举止上都会受到该国的影响。mmm....我不认同。或许是NZ华人同胞的比率不是很低吧，所以这四年期间，我不但很少用英语交谈，而且经常用普通话或者广东话呢。哈哈，好奇怪吧! 看来我是选错国家了。原本以为出国深造，会学到一口流利的英语，结识到一群"鬼佬"，但是时间证明了结果是恰恰相反。所以啊，还在大马的朋友们，倘若你想凭着出国深造多练习你的英语，那不要来 NZ 了，尤其是 AUCKLAND，走在大街上的黄皮肤的人，可不是开玩笑的多呢。你会后悔噢!
但是无可否认，纽西兰是个漂亮的国家，是个很适合念书的好地方。还记得，我曾经开玩笑的告诉别人，这里是个念书的好地方因为这里科技不是很发达，电器电子业都比大马还落后，所以没有什么吸引人之处。哈哈，我很恶毒吧!
看来我这篇文章有些乱，不好意思，没有头绪，根本就是乱写一通。好吧! 还是少说废话为妙，最后就送上一句还蛮有意思的良言。
<<善待乏味的人。有可能到头来你会为一个乏味的人工作。>> ----有些适合我吧! 哈哈
Be nice to nerds. Chances are you"ll end up working for one.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
life
天气开始变暖和了，这么好的天气，我却无法集中精神念书。只感觉到我的头很重，一提起笔，情况就更严重，真是扫兴死啦!原本以为可以好好利用这个周末好好复习我的marketing课程，这下可好了，又浪费了一个周末。哀...因为没事干，又不想出门，所以只好上网聊聊天，阅读些文章和 blog (中文翻译成"部落"!哈哈，有趣吧!)
mm... 我搜索到这篇文章，<< 生命的价值>> 值得与大家分享:
不要让昨日的沮丧令明天的梦想黯然失色！
在一次讨论会上，一位著名的演说家没讲一句开场白，手里却高举着一张20美元的钞票。面对会议室里的200个人，他问：“谁要这20美元？”一只只手举了起来。他接着说：“我打算把这20美元送给你们中的一位，但在这之前，请准许我做一件事。”他说着将钞票揉成一团，然后问：“谁还要？”仍有人举起手来。 他又说：“那么，假如我这样做又会怎么样呢？”他把钞票扔到地上，又踏上一只脚，并且用脚碾它。尔后他拾起钞票，钞票已变得又脏又皱。
“现在谁还要？”还是有人举起手来。 “朋友们，你们已经上了一堂很有意义的课。无论我如何对待那张钞票，你们还是想要它，因为它并没贬值，它依旧值20美元。人生路上，我们会无数次被自己的决定或碰到的逆境击倒、欺凌甚至碾得粉身碎骨。我们觉得自己似乎一文不值。但无论发生什么，或将要发生什么，在上帝的眼中，你们永远不会丧失价值。在他看来，肮脏或洁净，衣着齐整或不齐整，你们依然是无价之宝。”
温馨提示：生命的价值不依赖我们的所作所为，也不仰仗我们结交的人物，而是取决于我们本身！我们是独特的——永远不要忘记这一点！
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
No more snow.... the end.....
Before n After...
My house is officially on sale!!! the house that has accompanied me for four years.. so fast aye. it was just like yesterday that i moved into this house. ><>
and a couple of photos of Ilam Road... see the snowy mountain at the far end? ^^
Monday, September 19, 2005
Special Day!!!
Siew Aun, Esther and Me
Me and Esther
More photos in "photos" or for pictures taken today, visit http://www.pbase.com/piggiecarolyn05/snow
Friday, September 16, 2005
updates
not gonna bullshit a lot here coz there is just too much to talk about for the past month. haha!! well, i've just spent a few hours posting all my recent photos online. click on the "photo" link above to have a look at them! ^^
enjoy n god bless.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Time flies...
Oh gosh! time really flies aye.... it's my fourth year here in NZ... suddenly got this weird n complex feeling. well, in less then 3 months i'll be leaving this beautiful city for another city ... entering another stage of life!
omg... am i ready yet? well, i'm not too sure bout it... but i'm really looking forward to it... mm... dunno wat's the point of me writing this bloody post today... i've got heaps of stuff in my mind that i wanna just write it here but i just dunno how to express it using words. mmm..... oh god! help me... i need a job, i need a good future, i need to graduate!!!! can i fast forward time??? i hate this stage of life where i'm just standing at the border.... dunno wat's the next second gonna be like, cant even imagine it! i know most of my friends are like me now, but it's really scary when i think about it. i have heaps of weird dreams about my life after graduate these days... really scary... haha.... but i hafta have faith in god right?? Only god knows what is best for me, for everything that happened to me, there's a good explanation behind. ^^
Good night guys.... I'm heading for a breakdown now... haha! byeee.....
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Psychometric Test for ME
INTEREST IN JOB CONTENT
Carolyn's preferences can include routine, organized, and methodical procedures, but this is not a need or dependency. Carolyn is most likely to adapt immediate preferences to change if it isn't too sudden, radical, or disruptive. The predominant motivation is to strike a good balance between stability and flexibility.
TEMPERAMENT FOR THE JOBCarolyn indicates a moderate preference to work under the competent leadership of others, closely with peers, or function independently. It is valuable to identify which social environment may be best suited for Carolyn, but the work role in and of itself is not the motivational factor.
APTITUDE FOR THE JOB
More than likely, all kinds and uses of numbers naturally make sense to Carolyn and a preference to work with numbers exists. (NOTE: Mathematical talent is as much a natural gift as artistic or musical talent, even though few people, acknowledge that fact. But it is readily acknowledged as a natural gift by those that have it as well as by those who don't.) Carolyn probably laughs, and understands exactly what is meant when Charles Schultz's Charlie Brown said, "How can you do new math with an old-math mind?") Carolyn's preferences lean heavily toward the conceptual, theoretical, analytical, and computational in the awareness, use and application of math. As such, math is an important vocational asset whether it is vocational specialization or vocational application.
PEOPLE
Carolyn is motivated to voluntarily communicate to others with the intent or hope that the information will be in their interest and for their benefit. At this motivational level, it is probable that Carolyn is more strongly motivated in benevolent and literary traits rather than just this persuasive trait. The persuasive trait here might have a lower motivational level, however, the sense of service responsibility will cause certain willingness, even duty, to communicate persuasively if warranted.
THINGS
Carolyn's motivational level supports the ability (either existing or because of pending training) to be perceptive and alert relative to monitoring operational processes by use of technical recording instruments. This includes remaining interested, alert and responsible throughout steady operational shifts. This activity could appropriately be called operational/clerical because it means monitoring what is going on.
DATA
Carolyn is highly motivated for routine, factual, mathematical problems related to operational, procedural, or administrative activities. This includes good logic, analysis, and attention to detail. (NOTE: Business math may be motivated strongly enough to be the heart of professional or vocational activity, as a CPA or corporate accountant, for instance).
REASONING
Carolyn is motivated and perhaps even mentally equipped for troubleshooting: to recognize or otherwise identify problems or developing problems in familiar operational or procedural areas; to tackle problems with intent to solve the problems and restore function to former levels or better. (NOTE: This requires onsite familiarity with those operations, a sense or suspicion of where things might or could break down, and savvy about ways to fix the problem).
MATHEMATICAL CAPACITY
(NOTE: The Worker Trait Factor called computational should be called business math because it means everyday calculations related to over-the-counter or on-site business calculations or transactions. Representative of this is commercial transactions such as buying groceries at a store, lunch at a restaurant, or a plane ticket at an airport. It is primarily composed of addition, subtraction, multiplication, division and recording results). Given this, Carolyn is highly motivated where activities call for computational math.
LANGUAGE CAPACITY
When given the task of reading elementary statements or instructions, Carolyn possesses adequate motivation to do so and then have good recall of specific content. This can be an asset when it interacts with other natural talents or abilities.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
MAN UTD IS BACK!
muahahahahah!! MU ROCKS!!!!! watched the first premiership game of the season for MU last night. it was cool!!! rock on!!
ME?!?!?! hehehe....
Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life. The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
Try it!!! http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P
不论在生活中，还是在网上
人人都会有朋友
朋友是什么
朋友就是彼此有交情的人
彼此要好的人
友情是一种 最纯洁、最高尚、最朴素
最平凡的感情
也是最浪漫、最动人、最坚实
最永恒的情感
人人都离不开友情
你可以没有爱情
但是你绝不能没有友情
一旦没有了友情
生活就不会有悦耳的和音
就死水一潭
友情无处不在，她伴随你左右
萦绕在你身边，和你共渡一生
Sunday, August 07, 2005
A brand new me...
kekekeke... i know someone's gonna ask me "how many new you are there?" hahaha.. well well well, i dunno aye! ^^ i just change and change and change until i found the best me! ^^
everything change every second... to adapt the changing environment, i reckon we should all change! Change our thoughts and we could change our world to a better one! right??? well, some ppl just say we should stay the same alwez... coz it's better to stick to the same old you... frankly, changing is neither good nor bad.. it's just the way of things coz nothing stays the same.
phew! learned a lot of stuff these few weeks after spending precious time with myself and read a few good articles and of coz had great weekends! study hard during weekdays and party hard during weekends! kakaka.. my motto for the remaining 83 days!
Friday, August 05, 2005
my babies....
Baby #1: My Samsung SGH- E600 Phone
she's almost 8 month old, the first phone i bought for myself. kekeke... love her so much! muacks.... *dun say i'm crazy*
Baby #2: My PC
This baby is slightly older than my phone... keke.. i think 9 month old? keke... she's my best teman.. basically accompany me the whole day la... the essential tool to keep me entertained at all times. ^^
Baby #3: Digital Camera
Well... gonna get my third baby soon.. probably in 3 weeks time, i'll announce the birth of my 3rd baby.. kekeke...
Girls that go online in the middle of the night...
上网的女人，除了因为是工作必须，除了纯粹因为好玩，都或多或少有着自己的心事。尤其是经常深夜上网的女人，一定有着深深浅浅的不能轻易与人道的寂寞。
这样的女人，不一定非常漂亮，也许只有几分可以让自己自信的姿色，但是一定有着丰富的情感，温柔而细腻。在现实生活中，她们或许都会有着或大或小的成就，是同龄人中的佼佼者，是别人眼中的能人。在工作中，她们可以独挡一面；在朋友面前，她们善解人意、尽力替朋友排忧解难。她们是生活中看起来的强者。在太阳底下，它们是赏心悦目的女人。
只有在夜深人静的时候，她们才会疲惫地除去坚强的伪装，审视镜子中那个憔悴的容颜，对着网络对着键盘对着一个个陌生的名字倾吐自己的心事，释放自己的脆弱。
她们也有着如水的柔情，只是无人轻易能解。她们也有着许许多多脆弱的泪水，只是别人很少看见。她们的爱执着而热烈，只是无人值得。
你很难完全地走进她们的心里面完整地拥有它们。她们是成熟的女人。她们对生活有自己的见解，她们有自己处世的原则、有自己的人生观。
但是她们一旦向你打开心扉，你就会惊奇地发现在那么坚强的外表下藏着的竟然是那么一颗伤痕累累的心，你会情不自禁地想要付出你的关爱给她温暖，你会不由自主地想呵护她疼她宠她。你会在她生病的时候想陪着她，在她没有力气的时候想牵着她，但是你又是那么害怕，害怕不小心伤害了她。
于是你小心翼翼地保持着让她们觉得安全的距离。给她快乐，听她哭泣，让她的灵魂不在孤独地漂浮在寂寞的深夜。
深夜上网的女人是寂寞的女人。但是她们不会选择去酒吧买醉，不会让袅袅的香烟麻醉了自己，不肯让自己在灯红酒绿的世界里迷失。她们不需要虚伪的怜悯需要真诚的友情。于是，她们选择了逃避，把满腔心事都深埋进文字，然后微笑着继续坚强的人生。
mmm.. i think so too...
86 days to go...
Had a look at my calendar.... counting the days till i finish my last paper... the 31st october 2005. tat's gonna be my happiest day i reckon, finish my 4-year long degree. ^^ well, i'm really looking forward to that day... already planned what i'm gonna do that day when i finish my exam.... and i can imagine my happy look.. kekekeke....
Can't wait to meet my beloved friends back home... miss you guys so much!!!
Can't wait to spend time with my family....
Can't wait to get all my assignment done...
Can't wait to finish my degree...
Can't wait to leave University...
Can't wait to get a Job and enter the another stage of my life...
Can't wait...Can't Wait...
When i'm anticipating all these things to happen, the clock seems to tick slower... wonder why... but nvm.. at least mid of term is coming... it's always easier to pass time when we are occupied with some activities or work. I'm happy that i've got my holiday planned and i'm 100% sure i'll have loads of fun. Will post some pictures about my holiday coz i'll be getting myself a digital camera.. FINALLY.. keke.. wanna snap as many photos as possible so that i would see my changes... or the ppl around me, the environment around me.. changing... every single thing around us is changing every second... tat's the pretty and interesting side of our lives. you'll never get bored with it... just occasional frustration and annoyance... well, probably that's just some "spices" to be added to our lives.
oh well....it's another sudden moment tat i start thinking about my future... haha... it's pretty scary when i start thinking.. coz a lot of sad stuff will pop up and i'll be moody... well oh well.. i'm alone in the house, no one's gonna get affected, so no worries... and i have made it a habit to think through what i've done for the day and wat i've learned before i go to bed at night. i think it's pretty nice to have this habit... at least i learn from wat i've been through. ^^ try it guys... u'll love it. u'll know urself more and more each day...
**expect a new template for my blog guys!! ... kekekeke **
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Song of this minute...
Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Carolyn's Latest Ten Rules to Live By...
1. Feed Your Strengths!
Do things that allow your brilliant intuition and service-oriented manner to flourish.
2. Face Your Weaknesses!
See your weaknesses for what they are, and seek to overcome them. Especially, strive to use your judgment against your internal ideas and intuitions, rather than as a means of disregarding other people's ideas.
3. Talk Through Your Thoughts.
You need to step through your intuitions in order to put them into perspective. Give yourself time to do this, and take advantage of discussing ideas with others. You'll find externalizing your internal intuitions to be a valuable exercise.
4. Take in Everything.
Don't dismiss ideas prematurely because you don't respect the person generating the ideas, or because you think you already know it all. After all, everybody has something to offer, and nobody knows everything. Steven Covey says it so well when he says: "Seek first to understand, and then to be understood."
5. When You Get Angry, You Lose. (THE KILLER!!!)
Your passion and intensity are strong assets, but can be very harmful if you allow yourself to fall into the "Anger Trap". Remember that Anger is destructive to your personal relationships. Work through your anger before you impress it upon others, or you will likely find yourself alone. Disagreements and disappointments can only be handled effectively in a non-personal and dispassionate manner.
6. Keep Your Eye on the Big Picture
Watch out for your tendency to become obsessed with details. If you find yourself feeling very, very strongly about a small detail, take a big step back and make sure that you can still see the goal. You're not going to get there if you get mired in the details.
7. Be Accountable for Yourself.
Don't blame the problems in your life on other people. Look inwardly for solutions. No one has more control over your life than you have.
8. Be Humble.
Judge yourself at least as harshly as you judge others.
9. Assume the Best. (da 2nd KILLER)
Don't distress yourself and others by dwelling on the dark side of everything. Just as there is a positive charge for every negative charge, there is a light side to every dark side. Remember that positive situations are created by positive attitudes. Expect the best, and the best will come forward.
10. Relax! (3rd KILLER)
Do yourself a favor and learn how to effectively unwind. Get exercise and restful sleep. Take vacations. Engage in relaxing activities. Take care of yourself and your loved ones by learning to let go of your passion and intensity for a respite.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
When he doesn't love you anymore....
Something happened today.... this article cheer me up and give me strength to stand up and face the world again. ^^
当他不爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者是否是从未爱过。当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你。虽然他知道你深爱他，但他宁可选择装作是不知道。
当他不爱你的时候，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。也许他会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，却也仅此而已。也许你会再想要一点什么，于是说：“我们见面吧。”而他肯定心有烦躁了。当他不爱你的时候，你的爱，你的人，就会显得廉价许多。你占了下风，这是人的本性。他会说：“好，不过我现在有点事情。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧。或者我给你电话也可以。”而你这时千万不要当真，他只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。请，不要真的去等，不要骗自己。
当他不爱你的时候，请不要与他讲你的琐事，也许此刻，你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些。只是，他却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你，你的生活，你的过去，你的长处短处与他又何干？即使讲了。他也很快会忘记的，就如他忘记你的生日，你的地址，你的电话一样。没有爱，于是你注定挤不进他的生命。即使，你要的哪怕只是一个很小很小的角落。
当他不爱你的时候，请不要在他的面前流眼泪，不要在生病的时候告诉他。他无法给予你照顾和关心。至多是同情一下，而，请骄傲的你，不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。虽然太多的人，在爱的面前丢失了太多。连站起来的勇气都没有。何来骄傲？只是，要记得，只有爱自己的人，才可以真正的去疼惜你。而不是，旁观的同情。怜悯。
当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。请不要去计算自己的付出，不要希望有什么回报。爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的。不要计较对与错。这样会快乐些。要记住，你与他之间的爱，是单方面的，你用心，他无心。所以，也不要怪他。因为也许他也想做好一些。对你不要那样的冷漠。知识，爱一个人，对一个人好。本来就是一种本能。对不起，他没有这样的本能。
当他不爱你的时候，请不要失去自己的自信。因为爱一个人，并非他的优秀，而只是一种感觉。他让你有这样的感觉，于是你爱他。同样，他不爱你，也并非你不优秀。优秀，不是爱的理由。看看还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，也是异样甜美的。
当他不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福他。有了爱，便不该有恨。爱是美好的。恨却丑陋。何必让生命中最美好的东西化作丑恶呢？也不要觉得不公平。关于离去。他失去的是一个爱他的人，而你失去了一个不爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活，重新去爱的机会。
请不要去想到“永远”。爱没有永远。你此刻深爱，却注定遥远的某一天也不再爱他。他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。当他不爱你的时候，请轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。
当他不再爱你的时候，應該深深呼吸，因為一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你，不是安慰你。而是，这是生生世世早已经注定的。我們應該相信。
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
HAPPY DAY!!
hahahahahah... happy happy... well, i'm actually very sleepy now coz i had a 8am class today and i woke up at 7am after having only errr... 5 hours of sleep?? tat's obviously not enuff for a pig.. hehe... i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight.. so that tomolo i'll have a great day! well, according to horoscope, tomolo will be my luckiest day this week, we'll see what happens tomolo... lalalala!!!!
well, everything has been great today.... despite that i'm a bit tired, well, i managed to start my assignment and get approximately 80% done in 3 hours!! haha... then yeah... gotta know the results of the bowling event i went last week. can't believe i actually did a great job. so proud of myself.. heheh! gonna collect my prize soon.. hehe.. wat will it be ah??? *think think*
The results were:
Team Event
Champion ---- Team B 912 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team D 812 points
Adult Category Event
Champion ---- Team D 602 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team B 544 points
Children Category Event
Champion ---- Team B 368 points
1st Runner-Up ---- Team A 334 points
Adult Individual Event
Champion - High Game & High Series
Grace Loy
224 / 356
1st RunnerUp - High Game & High Series
Carolyn Teh
181 / 349
Children Individual Event
Champion - High Game
James P
122
1st RunnerUp - High Game
Cleo K
102
Champion - High Series
James P
221
1st RunnerUp - High Series
Oliver K
172
well, i'm in Team B, and each team has 2 adults and 2 children. It's actually quite fun playing with little kids. hehe... u can see their reaction when they got strike... haha... well, of coz you could see those kids that became real sad after a few tries coz they kept getting gutter balls.. but it's really nice.. :P had loads of fun! haha...
Anyway, i'm going to finish up my marketing quiz now and head off to bed.. need sleep! haha.. tired.. really tired. tomolo is another long day... ^^
Monday, July 25, 2005
cool down n u'll haf a clear mind!
i can feel the pressure whenever i'm in university lately. partly becoz it's the last semester and ppl are all trying to push themselves to the limit? haha... i'm not one of them. dad has been asking me to take things easily... haha.. yeah, here i am.. taking things REAL easily now. hafta push myself a bit already, really been slacking a lot!
i kinda missed those times that we dun really give a damn about studies, i mean like we kinda party hard and study hard at the same time... i cant feel tat anymore. although i still hang out quite a bit lately just to release the stress, but yeah.. ppl around me ain't happy and cheerful anymore.. aiii... tat actually make me kinda depressed. and it's really hard to cheer them up. whhyy!!! well, can't really blame them. every individual has their way of living their lives.. so yeah.. hehe... at least i tried my best to cheer them up.. but i failed? ^^
anyway, i've been thinking about some issues lately.. haha.. i m glad tat i finally found an aim which i can look forward to already! hehe.. at least from now until next year? hehe... cool stuff!!! just hope that everything will be great at the end. 98 days to go... woo hoo!!!
btw, i'm gonna be away in august hols... haha... another sudden random decision tat i made err... 3 hours ago? life is full of surprises.. hehe!! gonna make my life like tat so i wont have a monotonious life .... ^^ happiee happieee k ppl???
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Nice Weekend!!!
well, i went to bowling with UCSSS around 3.30pm, the first UCSSS event that i went to this year. it was great! besides meeting new ppl like charlene and marina, i broke my own bowling record.. hahaha... i got 181 for the first game and got 168 for the 2nd game.. woo hoo!!! hahaa.. congrats to myself ^^
Marina, Me and Esther
Me and Esther
After this event, i went over to heather's place for mark's surprise birthday party. oh... coz this party is supposed to be a potluck.. so me and esther went to countdown to get some food. oh damn.. i just hate the blardy cashier who told the rest of the cashiers around that i'm not allowed to buy alcohol... wtf! i have ID, it's just that esther is new to nz, she doesn't have a legal id.. so they said i'm not supposed to buy... well oh well, i would not be that PISSED if you kindly explain it to me... argh!!! luckily my EQ was really "high" at that time.. haha.. i din lose my temper and i went off... but it's just stupid. STUPID BLARDY PPL!!
ok ok... back to happy stuff... the bday party was another amazing event. haha.. we makan and drink and chit chat happily there. oh yeah.. i did a good job.. i introduced esther to them.. :) well, at the same time, i feel bad coz errr... the guys forced her to drink coz she's NEW to the club.. haha!! well, she went a bit high after a few drinks.. but it was funny la.. din get to take any photos there..too bad la...
anyway, i got home around 1am... to avoid getting drunk.. coz i was driving last night.. had the responsibility to send esther home... hehe... anyway, i really had a great time yesterday... :)
Friday, July 22, 2005
horoscope n me
i belif in horoscope... very very much. i know i'm a typical aquarius... especially when it comes to freedom, i dun like to be controlled and the more ppl control me, the more rebellious i become. haha!! and i enjoy being aquarius... proud of being an aquarius.. :)
mm.. according to the horoscope.. it's a special month for me ..and especially today! darn.. nothing happened today... well, still got 4 hours to go.. haha! but i saw something that made me sad though. mm.. dun feel like saying it here..but i can hear the cracking sound of my heart... shit! i dun wan a special month full of sadness... i want a special month full of surprises that will enlighten my life! sigh... looks like it's another challenge that i hafta face... i'm stronger each day...at least i LOOK stronger each day... but at the same time, my heart is weaker each day.. haha.. i might die of heart attack some day... the amount of problems/matters that my heart has to carry is larger than the "resistance"... life oh life...
i've made a life changing decision last night. and i know i'm gonna stick to my decision and i'm gonna make sure i haf no regrets. even did something crazy last night... drove all the way to sumner beach at night... hahaha... i was wearing sandals..walking on the beach!! omg... the craziest thing was i did not feel the cold coz my mind was spinning... mmm... come to think about, issit becoz of this decision tat made today a special day for me? haha..shit... i dunno aye!
101 days to go... i'm waiting for that day to come..... so tat i can escape the reality again... and be another me... cant wait for tat day to arrive. ^^
mm... i'm getting a digital camera soon. IXUS 50 or IXUS700??? which one is better? well, like wat my friend said, we cant turn back time, i just wanna capture every nice/sad view i see in my life... and i wanna see my changes... so i plan to take a photo everyday... like a diary for myself. wat do u think? hehe.. and i think i'm quite photogenic... so yeah... i dun mind taking heaps of photos! ^^ okiez la. i wanna go and take a nap already. i found a way to avoid getting depressions... tat's to hop on to my bed and sleep whenever i feel sad... or when i feel tat i'm gonna be sad any minute. i better run now before it's too late... ciao babez!
**dream is the only place that i can find the perfect heaven...**
-- The end --
mm.. finally... my crucial week has come to an end! phew! i reckon everything went smoothly with a wee bit of uncertainty in between. well, i'm glad tat everything has been done.. at least for now. :) just hafta sit here and wait for good news hopefully.
well, despite my tight schedule and continuos job interviews i had this week.. i did realise something about this environment i've been staying in for the past three years. i've got this very weird feeling about it, but i just dunno how to explain.. haha.. shit, i'm talking crap. anyway, i'll try explaining it next time. let me have a clear mind first. ^^
oh yeah... i was flipping through my photo album just before... thought about my high school life.. missed my buddies back then soooo much.. wondering how's everyone doing. well, i messaged my bestest buddy like two hours ago and had like a one hour long sms "chatting" with him. i'm glad that he still thinks about me and do care about me.. haha! i was so scared tat there will be some "barrier" in between us as i din contact him for 2 years liao... hehe.. it alwez make me happy and feel wanted when ppl say they miss me.. especially my high school mates. i din see some of my high school mates for 4 years!!! haha.. really wanna go back home again... well, wait for me man! three more months, then i'll pack my bag and fly back to msia for like 4 or 5 months!! wait k?? and any of u... *hint hint.. u know who i'm talking about * who plans to get married, do it in these 4 or 5 months la.. coz i wanna attend your wedding ma.. hehehe...
also, i especially missed my sistas back home... wonder how they are doing. i only stay in contact with chloe.. my 3rd sista on a daily basis.. becoz the others are still not used to using internet for chatting purpose. haha.. some are busy flirting with guys.. good on ya sis! enjoying life aye?? haha.. as long as you r happy..
life is short.. just need to cherish every moment.... tat's what i'm doing now. despite some depressions at times...but i alwez try to cheer myself up. i prefer having another happy day rather than a sad day. and of coz i know God will alwez be there to help me. every failure that i've gone through is a challenge to me.. and God is just training me to become a better person.
hehe.. okiez la.. i'm heading off to bed.. Zzzzz...more to come tomolo.. !!!
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
complex feelin
it's drizzling out there... just like wat my feeling for these few days.
what happened to me? i dunno
i really dunno.... i'm not really DEPRESSED...but i'm just feelin a bit lost and helpless.
loneliness is killing me? not really... i alwez keep myself occupied. ^^
then what issit? still examining... mmm....
well, i've just been to three interviews for the past three days. cant blif that the comments given by all 4 interviewers are the same... you are a cheerful person. great! hahaha... am i really that bubbly? well, i WAS! look at my display pic. tat was taken in year 2003 if i'm not mistaken. although i was still studying engineering and going through the same deep shit about study pressure at that time, but i was super happy. why? why? why? i dunno again... probably friends that have been chatting with me these few days are pretty annoyed at my answers and my reaction when they are trying to comfort me. mmm.. sorrie aye. coz i'm just telling the truth... i REALLY DUNNO...
probably i need an aim now.
do some social work? mmm.. probably it's good..
or do part time job? coz apparently i'm pretty free this sem... on average i got 2 hours of class per day.. how cool is that..
well, will see about this matter later. coz i'm currently focussing on getting a job so that i dun hafta worry about my future. went for interviews with two big companies. hopefully i could get a job. pray pray pray..and god will hear my prayer!
gonna go to my pavement class now. i'll blog again sometime later today after i finished my other job applications. :)
take care mates.. and really wanna apologise to those who i complained to a lot these few days.. especially you... i'm sorry.... u know who i'm talking about u... but thanks for being there... really... just gimme time. i'll realign myself and adapt with my new life. i just need time... time time....
Monday, July 18, 2005
my travel plan
my crazy travel plan after i graduate... how long will it take me?? mm..dunno aye! but i'll use up all my savings.. haha!!
nz --> australia --> malaysia --> london --> paris --> NY ---> florida --> texas --> LA --> tokyo ---> hongkong --->shanghai ---> thailand ----> msia ---> hawaii ---> nz
wat do u think?
suddenly tot of this song ...
你怎么舍得我难过
对你的思念
是一天又一天,
孤单的我还是没有改变,
美丽的梦何时才能出现,
亲爱的你好想再见你一面.
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过,
想起了去年的这个时候,
你的心到底在想些什么,
为什么留下这个结局让我承受.
最爱你的人是我,
你怎么舍得我难过,
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走,
最爱你的人是我,
你怎么舍得我难过,
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过.
life is full of unexpected events and it's indeed cruel. we just hafta live with it and stand up on our own at where we failed. this is LIFE! to all my friends who are depressed and disappointed or unhappy.... cheer up! life is full of ups and downs, u'll get the UPS of ur life very soon. just believe and it'll be right at the corner waiting for u... ^^ i'll be right here waiting for you guys... cheer up!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
nervous nervous n nervous!!!
omg... haha..tomolo i'll haf my first interview!! and it's with one of the biggest companies here in NZ. argh...i'm super nervous now... oh god... gimme strength!
mm..been watching interview videos borrowed from the career centre and been jotting down all possible questions that i would be asked. now i'm trying to do some more research about the company and prepare my answers. oh dear.... haha.. hope everything will be cool. my dad cant seem to understand why i still hafta prepare for interview and why am i so nervous. hehe... well, i cant control also. errr... dun ask me! i've got three interviews... monday, wednesday and thursday.. mmm... scary, stress, and challenging week for me. crucial week for me also... about my future.
wish me the best aye! hopefully i'll come back from every interview with a smiling face.. haha!!
Saturday, July 16, 2005
thank god!!!
hahahaa.... i PASSED all my first sem papers... haha... damn happy now. first of all, i wanna thank GOD, then gonna thank my beloved parents... n family... muacks! love ya guys soo much! thanks for being there when i needed you guys so much.. thanks for the support, the love, mm.. EVERYTHING! couldn't have passed all my papers without you guys... well, really hope everything will become better in the future. ^^
three interviews next week... pressure pressure.... pray pray again...
just a short blog today coz i'm too hyper.. haha!!! happpy... wanna talk to daddy and mummy first.
Friday, July 15, 2005
NERVOUS
i'm super hyper now after a cup of white chocolate latte... with SUGAR! hahah.. damn. it's not good to have such sweet stuff so late... haha.. and some more hang out with a super crazy girl... tat really makes me sooooo hyper!
well, hyper hyper hyper... coz i wanna forget that i'm actually nervous and worried. list of things that i'm worrying now:
1. my results gonna release tomolo... hope everything's great!
2. interviews... just got another interview ..so i'll have two interviews next week. damn nervous aye.. my first time! been working so hard by studying interview skills and run through company profiles. hope everything's turn out to be great too! desperately seeking a job. hahahahah!
teehehehhe.... but anyway, i'm trying to be hyper so that i could forget these worries in me... and somemore.. ppl around me nowadays are so depressed. when depressed ppl meet depressed ppl...then both will be depressed.. so i might as well be hyper and smile.. so tat they could be happier... am i right?! hehehe... anyway, wish me luck and i pray hard hard for you guys out there who's facing some challenges in life or errr.. have some difficulties? GOD BLESS!
Thursday, July 14, 2005
change
yeah... things changed... and after a long discussion with dad, i decided to change my initial plan after graduation. YES! not gonna study masters anymore. haha... reason?
mmm..
1. no more confidence in studying as my results are getting worse and worse....sigh...
2. feel like having a break from studies
3. feel that i'll be more sure wat i'm gonna study for my masters degree in the future if i had some working experience.
so yeah... i've actually been thinking about this for quite some time. and i'm glad that my parents did realise about my problems. thank you soo much! i'm glad that they encourage me and they are alwez here by my side for me... sooo happy and i thank god for everything.
well oh well, just hope that the rest of my results for my first semester paper will be okay... and yeah. my interview next week will be great! wish me luck and pray hard! :)
Monday, July 11, 2005
测测你一生会爱几个人
Q1.当他温柔的看着你，你会说：
A.你的眼睛大又圆→Q2
B.你真好→Q3
C.你踩到我的脚了！→Q3
D.你想什么呢？→Q2
Q2.当你想念他的笑和他的吻的时候，你会
A.打电话给他→Q3
B.一个人呆着，练习眨眼睛→Q4
C.找好朋友→Q5
D.洗衣服→Q3
Q3.喜欢听浪漫伤感情歌吗？
A.害怕听→Q4
B.非常喜欢→Q4
C.厌恶→Q5
D.还好→Q6
Q4.有种花的习惯吗？
A.没有→Q5
B.有→Q5
C.懒惰→Q6
D.咱们看下一道题→Q6
Q5.如果朋友送你一只狗，你会：
A.表面高兴，心里想这家伙害死我了！→Q6
B.感到太幸福了，早就想要一只→Q7
C.接受的时候就面露尴尬→Q8
D.顺其自然→Q9
Q6.如果男生跟你夸他自己的能力有多么强，他自己多么帅，你会认为：
A.男人都这样。是个男人，他就帅ⅲ 鶴7
B.他真无聊→Q8
C.他挺有意思→Q7
D.他喝多了→Q9
Q7.你怎样处理以前情人留下来的东西？
A.扔掉→Q8
B.留着→Q9
C.送回或送人→Q9
D.砸烂→Q8
Q8.喜欢去麦当劳点什么样的东西？
A.套餐→Q9
B.单点→Q10
C.一定要用优惠券→Q9
D.不一定→Q11
Q9.喜欢上网做什么？
A.查信或很简单的事情→Q10
B.写文章、灌水→Q11
C.狂聊天→Q12
D.不喜欢上网→Q11
Q10.信用卡有多少张？
A.零→Q11
B.一张到三张→Q12
C.不知道→Q13
D.很多吧→Q12
Q11.怎样修理你的头发？
A.去小发廊→Q12
B.自己动手→Q13
C.我没有头发→Q12
D.找个有品的发馆→Q13
Q12.你的QQ需要身份验证吗？
A.当然→Q13
B.不用→Q14
C.你问哪个QQ?→Q15
D.不一定或者没QQ，不使用QQ→Q13
Q13.有固定喜欢的明星偶像吗？
A.曾经→Q14
B.有→Q14
C.没有→Q15
D.很难说清楚→Q16
Q14.当一个人对你说爱你，想象一下你当时的表情会是：
A.傻笑→Q15
B.惊讶→Q16
C.无表情→Q15
D.诧异→Q16
Q15.去动物园的时候，请你选择以下你比较喜欢去做的事情：
A.喂动物→Q16
B.摸动物→Q17
C.咬动物（如果动物园允许的话）→Q17
D.吃动物（仅仅允许幻想）→Q16
Q16.你喜欢跟情人怎样相处？
A.拉着→Q17
B.搂着→Q18
C.压着→Q19
D.未成年不宜→Q18
Q17.累的时候喜欢：
A.睡觉→Q19
B.洗澡→Q20
C.被按摩→Q18
D.其他→Q19
Q18.当你希望跟一个人一辈子在一起，你会选择以下：
A. 跟他说→A
B. 等他说出来→Q19
C.让他跟你说→Q20
D.别的方式→Q19
Q19.喜欢爱人跟你撒娇吗？
A.喜欢跟爱人撒娇→B
B.还好吧，能接受→Q20
C.笑，一般吧→B
D.非常喜欢，觉得这样很可爱→Q20
Q20.当爱人在你面前哭泣：
A.无奈，不是很喜欢→D
B.为难，不知道该怎么办→C
C.哄他，但自己比较清醒→B
D.跟着心碎→A
A. 你的真心人就是那么一个，永永远远的那样一个。从此以后，不论你 再遇见谁，跟谁在一起，你再也不会对其他人有以前那个人那样的上心。人是很奇怪的东西，没有理由的相遇。没有理由的萌生爱意。也许爱一个人很简单，但是总想起的还是他好，还是那个他没有任何毛病。在你心中永远完美。就象《东京爱情故事》中的莉香，永远的微笑着，成为一个美好的标志。
B. 你的真心人是谁？你一生会有无数的爱人，少则七八个，多则20多个。你自己都不知道谁是你的最爱。也许有的人会被你记住，但记住不代表爱情。你戏弄红尘嘲笑爱情，浪逐尘世，也被尘世、爱情、红尘狠狠的报复、惩罚。应该说，这是你自找的。你就象《东邪西毒》的西毒一样，你渴望知道被人喜欢的感觉是这么样的，结果伤害了很多人。现在，看到了这个测试结果，你是不是应该考虑来个结束呢？是你回归单纯的时候了吧？
C. 你会有那么两个刻骨铭心的爱人，甚至是一段三角恋爱。你最爱谁？恐怕你也不清楚，一个阶段一个想法。这不是你的错误，更不是他们的错误。当然，也不是我的错误。爱情这东西，公说公有理，婆说婆有理，说来说去说得谁心里也没有底。但愿你现在已经离开了那段乱七八糟的经历。如果现在还没解脱的话，给你一个建议，他们两个谁都别跟随。不够完美的爱情对谁都是一场折磨。不如从头开始。虽然后来的爱人不再是那样的爱了，但是象阳光一样温温的爱情有什么不好呢？
D. 恐怕，你一生也没有最爱的人吧。因为你对自由的渴望，因为你对你所追求的文化的热爱也许远远超过了对爱情的关心。也许朋友对你来说是更加可靠的心理上的中流砥柱。和你这样的人组成家庭应该是很幸福的。因为你能用超出一般的人的眼光来看待事物。因为你太理性还是因为你太独特？找到一个和你身心合璧的人也许真的太难了。所以，恐怕是这样。但是，茫茫人海，谁又能找到真正合适自己的那个人呢？
HUGS... tats wat i need now...
hugs.... argh... i super need some warm hugs now.... first day back at school, got heaps of unfortunate events happened. feeling so lost, feel like crying, feel like shouting... so? i cant do all these stuff... it's a fact tat i hafta face and it wont make any difference if i do cry or shout, right?
argh....fuck! life is tough.... and yet i hafta believe that life is beautiful... i screwed up everything at the last minute after months and months of hard work... kill me pls... an accurate head shot will be nice.. simple and easy! how i wish my family or my buddies are here with me... gimme a nice warm hug.... i dunnid any words to comfort my disappointed heart, i just need a nice warm hug. hugs can create miracles... i believe that. well, too bad.... the ones that i need are so far away from me... so i think i hafta hug myself and comfort myself.
missed my friends back in high school... my true friends. at times like this, they will either scold me (so that i will be awake) or gimme a warm hugs... cant find anyone here in this piece of land which i've stayed for 4 years... at least i can talk to God, at least i can talk to myself... i'll be strong and wake up and face everything... tis is what i keep telling myself. can i do it? i hope i can... life is full of ups and downs... i'm facing the downs now and hopefully eveyrthing will be sweet in the end.. pray for me!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
MY SONG --- 你走你的路
如果你的生命注定无法停止追逐
我也只能为你祝福
如果你觉定将这段感情结束
又何必管我在不在乎
如果我的存在只是增加你的痛苦
为何你不对我说清楚
莫非我早该知道我将要孤独在我们相识的最初
你走你的路
直到我们无法接触
我也许将独自跳舞
也许独自在街头漫步
你走你的路
用我无法追赶的脚步
我也许将独自跳舞
也许独自在街头漫步
我也曾经想过回头寻找来时的路
心中的你已经太模糊
你以为可以从我这里找到幸福
而我却总是让你哭
如果我们的爱已经成了彼此包伏
何不就让我们承认错误
因为我知道我终於将会孤独在我们相识的最初...
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Short Trip back to Malaysia
just got back from a 11 day trip back to Malaysia. sound a bit crazy hor... went back for 11 days only. well, i tried that before 3 years ago in my first year of university. i went back for 10 days during easter break, which was approximately one month after i arrived in this country. haha! well, i was forced to leave this place coz i was still staying in the halls and i had no where to go. i still remember that my dad came over and dragged me home, and my mum was so surprised to see me in the airport! haha...
well, this trip back to msia was the "bestest"... did a lot of shoppings, and bought heaps of stuff which were all out of my expectations. well, as ppl alwez say, expectations kill! right? also, i got to spend precious time with my parents and we talked a lot. coolie? missed malaysia now... din go back 2 years liao... everything has changed, but one thing will never change... i've got my bestest family over there... hehe.. muacks! luv ya guys soo muchie!
oh okay... i'm gonna talk about some changes in our pretty country, Malaysia, through observations la ha.. trying my best:
1. Phones
- not as kolot as NZ, msia is promoting 3G phones... cool stuff hor.. and the phones there are super geng ... so tempted to get a new phone but it's not practical to get one now as i'll be in this outdated country. no point! hehe..
2. Cars
- everywhere i go, i'll see big adverts promoting BMW. dunno why... oh yeah, the BMW 1 series is a damn cute cars..suitable for girls... also, if you are after cars buatan msia.. Proton Gen 2 is the most popular choice la... so many women/girls driving this car.. all look damn sombong one..as if they are driving sports car.. haha! kenot take it.
3. Highways
- Soooo many highways have been constructed in KL - Selangor area. I got so pening on the first few days as I still don't really know how to go to places from my house. i think i can easily get lost aye! scary...!!!
4. Price
- whew! food price, petrol, car, clothes... just about all the stuff is facing a price increase... i used to get a large plate of char kuey teow for only RM2.50.. but not now, i paid RM 4.00 for only a small plate of char kuey teow that won't make me full... damn!
5. Pop songs
- haha..the most popular song has a very cute name, it's called "老鼠爱大米". well, this song is not that nice but just dunno why it's so popular. i heard it's a name of a tw series.... just gonna wait and see... :P try downloading it and see whether if you like it !
mmm... i forgot wat other changes i've noticed. i'll keep updating this list.. it's almost 12am.. time to sleep.. hehe! i'm becoming a sleeping beauty nowadays as i've got nothing better to do. it's my last night to sleep more because my next term will start on monday. Not really that happy, but at least it'll keep me busy and i wont die of boredom at home. hehe...also .. pray that my first sem results are pretty okay.. i just need a PASS for everything... !!!
will keep blogging laaa...
forgot to get a digicam back in msia... aiks!! damn.. see??? tat's what i mean expectation kills... i EXPECTed to get a digicam and a cool sunglasses back in Msia... but i din get these stuff... arghhh... din plan to get so many clothes... but i got like a whole box of new clothes... u guys gonna see me wearing my new clothes...not now la.. now cold ma..but in summer! hehehe!!!! happppieeee
la la laaa... sleep loooo... Zzzzzz....
Friday, July 01, 2005
An article about LOVE (from Chloe...)
Sometimes, love dies; and there is no easy
Some of us see it coming. Some of us dont.
But most of us try not to see it at all.
Because it is easier to pretend that all is well rather than admit that your dreams have been shattered and that you are left only with the broken pieces of your heart.
It hurts to imagine the person we love with someone else.
It hurts to no longer be the object of his/her affections.
It hurts to be no longer the center of his/her universe.
It hurts to no longer be wanted.
It hurts to be discarded, replaced and dumped unceremoniously like an old rag that has outlived its usefulness.
It hurts to no longer be loved.
But it happens everyday to the best among of us to the beautiful, the kind, the talented, the smart, the successful, the multi-awarded.
It happens to the perfect wife, sister, friend and mother.
It happens to the civic leader, the CEO, the cover girl.
Whether or not its something we did or didnt do, sometimes, love just dies.
And overthinking would serve no purpose.
To be loved is a blessing.
But to no longer be loved is not necessarily a tragedy.
We've been raised since childhood to believe that love must last forever.
And perhaps it must.
But isnt it possible to simply be happy for the love you have no matter if it doesnt last forever?
Isnt it possible to simple savor the moment and become richer by it without wanting to possess it forever?
Isnt it possible to love and let go and love again?
Isnt it possible to love forever but to love different people over time?
Its all right to no longer be loved.
Its all right to stop loving.
Its all right to mourn for loves losses but to condemn yourself to a life of misery because your love didnt last forever is foolhardy.
If love must die, let it go peacefully into the night.
But dont keep score.
Love is not a contest.
It is not a competition to see who emerges the prettiest, the craftiest or toughest.
Love is what it is a gift.
It cannot be forced on anyone.
Neither can it be forced out of anyone.
So let it be.
When love dies, hold on to the memories.
But let go of the one you love.
Saturday, June 25, 2005
i'm free...
finished my mid year exams and i'm free like a bird. went out with some friends last night and slept real early because i was super exhausted both mentally and physically.
i feel great now after 13 hours of sleep. gonna pack my stuff and kao tim some things before i go back home tomolo. dun miss me too much guys... i'll be back! just wait... i just need to go back and get some "fresh" air and a space for me to do some serious thinking coz i think i failed one paper.
well, happy holiday ppl!!!
i dun really have a great internet access back home. so yeah.. might see u guys when i come back here...
Thursday, June 23, 2005
How Do People See You?
Slow and Steady
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
haha... i personally think so... mmm...
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Thought of the day
2 more papers to go and i'm free.. haha... feel so relieve!! ^^ well, the past few weeks have been a totally new environment for me. i learned how to be strong and be independent after relying on someone for so long. mm..not actually that long la..but feel like it's very long. yup... and i got drunk as well... mm yeah..something i super regret of... but i cant do anything now and i think a lot of ppl out there have been gossiping about me aye.. but i dun give a damn!!!
yup..tis is wat i'm gonna talk about today. Well, wat's life? wat's the aim of life?? i think my aim is simple.. just to be happy, make ppl happy... easy as that. and i dun give a damn about wat other ppl think about me. well, they more or less will affect my mood or perception about things, but yeah... if i have to think about all the ppl in this world, then ill be super busy and i dun think my brain capacity is enough to "sort out" everyone's feeling about me. Just wanna have a simple, sweet, happy life.
and yeah... i'm still trying to move on with this kinda life, but i feel some emptiness in me still. it's time to get something to fill up this hole in me. and i'm pretty sure i'll recover from this mood. it might be weird at first, but sooner or later, everything will be sweet. I believe in God... he can do everything. and i know he'll help me to go through all the stuff i'm going through now. well, at least i'm doing my best now to live, i've been studying hard... and show to my parents and the ones that love me that i'm okay. then i'll be sweet. i dun care wat other ppl think about me, i just care about wat the ppl i love and care about think about me.
Had a long chat with bro and mum... got a lot of tiny thoughts popping up. I'm really glad to have them in my life. They are so supportive and trust me so much. i'm really glad. also ppl such as my bestest sis, chloe, who's in australia, but gave me so much advice and she's going through a break up as well... and heather, my bestest buddy here...and ehun, a siao char bor in UK tat never failed to keep me occupied when i got negative thinkings.... and a lot of ppl out there... muacks!!! luv ya guys sooooo much!!! i'll be a strong piggie again... u'll see! i nvr give up coz...
Piggie's Aim of Life = simple + happy + sweet + no regrets!!!!
right?? hehe...
yes! 2 more papers... i'm off to my books again... ciao!!!!
pray for me, k???
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Things about movies
~~~ thanks to grandpa weiliem ~~~
All beds have L-shaped cover sheets which reach up to the armpit level of a woman but only to waist level on the man lying beside her.
The ventilation system of any building is the perfect hiding place. No-one will ever think of looking for you in there and you can travel to any other part of the building you want without any difficulty.
Should you wish to pass yourself off as a German officer, it will not be necessary to speak the language, a German accent will do.
A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating but will wince when a woman tries to clean his wounds.
Kitchens don’t have light switches. When entering a kitchen at night, you should open the fridge door and use that light instead.
If staying in a haunted house, women should investigate any strange noises in their most revealing underwear.
Cars that crash will always burst into flames.
Wearing a vest or stripping to the waist can make a man invulnerable to bullets.
If you find yourself caught up in a misunderstanding that could be cleared up quickly with a simple explanation, for goodness sake, keep your mouth shut.
Any person waking from a nightmare will sit bolt upright and pant.
A cough is usually the sign of a terminal illness.
All bombs are fitted with electronic timing devices with large red digits so you know exactly when they’re going to go off.
When in love it is customary to burst into song.
When confronted by an evil international terrorist, sarcasm and wisecracks are your best weapons.
One man shooting at 20 men has better chances of killing them than 20 men firing at one man.
Creepy music coming from the cemetery should always be investigated more closely.
Most laptop computers are powerful enough to override the communication systems of any invading alien civilization.
Freelance helicopter pilots are always eager to accept bookings from international terrorist organizations – even though the job will require them to shoot total strangers and will end in their own certain death as the helicopter explodes in a ball of flames.
Most people keep a scrapbook of newspaper clippings – especially if one of their family or friends have died in a strange boating accident.
All computer discs will work in all computers, regardless of software of operating systems.
Police Departments give their officers personality tests to make sure they are deliberately assigned a partner who is their total opposite.
When they are alone, all foreigners prefer to speak English to each other.
Action heroes never face charges for manslaughter or criminal damage despite laying entire cities to waste by their actions.
You can always find a chainsaw when you need one.
Any lock can be picked by a credit card or a paper clip in seconds – unless it is the door to a burning building with a child trapped inside.
You can tell if somebody is British because they will be wearing a bow tie.
When driving a car, it is normal to look not at the road but at the person sitting beside you or in the back seat for the entire journey.
An electric fence, powerful enough to kill a dinosaur will cause no lasting damage to an 8 year old child.
Having a job of any kind will make fathers forget their son’s eighth birthday.
Honest and hardworking policemen are traditionally gunned down three days before their retirement.
If you are blonde and pretty, it is possible to become a world expert in Nuclear Fission at age 22.
The more a man and a woman hate each other, the more likely they will fall in love.
If being chased through town, you can usually take cover in a passing St. Patrick’s Day parade – at any time of the year.
All grocery shopping bags contain at least one stick of French bread.
It’s easy for anyone to land a plane, providing there is someone in the control tower to talk you down.
Once applied, lipstick will never rub off – even when scuba diving.
You’re likely to survive any battle in war unless you make the mistake of showing someone a picture of your sweetheart back home.
The Eiffel Tower can be seen from any window of any building in Paris.
People on TV never finish their drinks.
The Chief of Police is always black.
Monday, June 20, 2005
A song recommended by my friend... hehe.. his fav song..
This romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can’t sing a love song
Like the way it’s meant to be
Well, I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby, that’s just me
And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I’d give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I’ve made mistakes, I’m just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him ’cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We’ll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Meaningful article to share with all my friends...
Recently read a very meaningful article regarding eternal love n trust from A to Z... too bad it's mostly in mandarin.. hehe!! but i think it's easy to guess the content!
Ａ －－ Accept (接受)『世上沒有十全十美的人』這句說話是千真萬確的，尤其兩個人一起並不等如兩塊合得來的積木，必須互相遷就。記著，你愛他，就必須接受他的一切，甚至缺點。 Love him/her for who he/she is.
Ｂ －－ Belief (信任)不信任對方，經常以懷疑的口‘吻’盤問對方，這種互相猜度的愛情就只有分手下場。既然跟他一起，就應該完全信任對方。believe in each other
Ｃ －－ Care (關心)關心的程度正好表現你對對方的重視程度，間中打個電話給對方關心式問候一句：「工作辛苦嗎？」又或者傳呼他：「天氣涼了，請加衣。」這些關心未必有實際用途，但起碼能令對方暖在心頭。alwez care for each other
Ｄ －－ Digest (忍受)我們不是聖人，總有情緒起伏的時候，若然對方是「凸」的時候，你何不做「凹」去忍耐一下他，安忍一下他呢？tolerate his/her mood swing
Ｅ －－ Enjoy (欣賞)你應欣賞對方的一切，欣賞這段愛情帶給你的開心、幸福。這樣，你便會愛得更愉快，不要只懂埋怨，在雞蛋裡挑骨頭。Never complain and be glad on the happiness and care given.
Ｆ －－ Freedom (自由)縱然已婚，也應給予對方應有自由及保持秘密的權利，你的另一半不是你的終生奴隸，不要讓他認為跟你結婚就等如被困籠中的寵物。 adequate freedom and privacy are necessary
Ｇ －－ Give (付出)愛情這樣東西不一定是你付出「一」，便會收回「一」，但不付出，便一定沒有收穫。對你的愛人，應有如對自己一樣，毫無保留的付出，這才算得上真愛。 Give n dun expect anything in return
Ｈ －－ Heart (心)愛情最重要的道具是心，你必須真心對待，用心去愛。沒有心，又怎稱得上真心相愛？ Dedicate 100% of your heart to him/her
Ｉ －－ Independence (獨立)甜言蜜語的人會說：「我是為了你而生」。其實，每個人都有自己的生存意義，不應過分依賴對方，成為對方的沉重負擔，甚至負贅。 Dun rely on him/her too much, that will only give him/her burden.
Ｊ －－ Jealousy (妒忌)適當的妒忌、呷醋能表示和你對對方的重視，但切記是合情合理的呷醋；反之，毫不講理，大發雷霆地呷醋，必惹人反感。 Too jealous will cause irritation.
Ｋ －－ Kiss (吻)一吻勝過千言萬語，輕輕的一吻已能代表你惜他、愛護他，所以請不要吝嗇你的紅唇。 Dun be stingy to give a kiss to him/her
Ｌ －－ Love (愛)都說是愛情，沒有愛又怎會有情呢？愛跟喜歡不同，愛一個人，你必定願意為他做任何事，這是最高的境界。閒時不妨跟對方說句：「我愛你」，擔保比任何禮物來得甜蜜開心。 Tell him/her "i love you"
Ｍ －－ Mature (成熟)為甚麼一般人的初戀總會無聲無色的慘敗，因為年輕人都戀愛得較為幼稚；況且，沒有一個人會喜歡對方長年沒頭沒腦地蹦蹦跳。人成熟一點，你的愛亦會早熟一點，直至開花結果。 Be mature
Ｎ －－ Natural (自然)很多人初拍拖時都會把一切缺點隱藏起來，變成另一個人。日子久了，缺點才一籮籮地出現，令對方吃不消。其實，不做作，流於自然的愛情才是細水長流。 Be the real you in front of him/her
Ｏ －－ Observe (觀察)經常細心觀察愛侶的喜好，不但能更了解對方，更能間中給他驚喜。好像愛侶看雜誌時無意讚某明星的手表漂亮，你便可留待他生日時買一隻給他，那份心意必定比禮來得珍貴。 Always observe him/her n give him/her surprises
P －－ Protect (保護)做男朋友的當然要保護女朋友，但做女朋友的亦要保護對方的尊嚴，不應容許別人中傷、侮辱你的另一半。Protect him/her from any harm
Ｑ －－ Quarter (寬大)寬大是基本的要訣，對愛侶的錯誤，你應以寬大的態度原諒他，因為你是最愛他的人。Always prepare to forgive
Ｒ －－ Receive (接收)對於愛侶為你所做的，請不要表現得無動於衷，令他氣餒。他付出，你應以欣賞的態度去接受，這才能令感情更進一步。Appreciate what he/she has done for you
Ｓ －－ Share (分享)若你愛他，就必能與他分享他的喜與哀，這是作為一個伴侶最簡單的責任。 share your happiness and sadness with him/her, it's the most basic responsibility
Ｔ －－ Tender (溫柔)歌都有得唱啦！愛人當然要溫柔地愛，因為男人女人缺乏溫柔都是不可愛。 treat your partner with tender and care
Ｕ －－ Understand (明白)不明白對方的想法，對方跟你說話，你永遠只獨自發呆，那就是一段缺乏溝通的愛情。多站在對方立場，將心比己地想，必定能更了解你的另一半。 be understanding and communicate a lot
Ｖ －－ Veracity (誠實)對愛情，必須一百巴仙的誠實，你也不想你的另一半是個「大話精」吧！時常互相欺騙的感情又怎能天長地久呢？ Be honest to your partner
Ｗ －－ Wait (等待)最重要的是你要與他同步成長，同步走完這段人生路，千萬不可一個走先，遺下另一個在後。 grow up with him/her, nvr leave your partner behind
Ｘ －－ `X` (乘法符號)把你對他的愛每天以倍數地乘上去，愛情自然變成無限大，愛情走也走不掉。 multiply your love for him/her each day
Ｙ －－ Yearn (想念)工作或不在一起時，不妨多想念對方，間中致電或傳呼他說句：「我很掛念你。」必能對方甜在心頭，更起勁地工作。 miss him/her always, a short text to him/her saying tat you miss him/her is more than enough
Ｚ －－ Zest (熱情)像小龍女般雖然貌若天仙，但卻冷若冰霜的情人，除了楊過，相信都沒有人願跟她一生一世。所以，做愛侶的，適當的熱情能加添不少樂趣，但切忌過分熱情如火。
mmm.... tried real hard to explain in english.. haha!!! but yeah... i think i learn a lot through this article. at least i m happier and i see the bright side in the tunnel. also... i'm glad that i have this blog to speak out wat's in my heart..
hehe!!! i'm getting better and better each day... exams here... gotta study and study and study! i think i can do it! pray for me ya.... ^^
Thursday, June 16, 2005
bored in uni... sleeeeeppppyyyy
好久不见，还好吧!已经步入第五天了。从我们分手至今，你已经消失的无影无踪。我有那么烦人吗。或是你有那么忙吗。唉，就如我爸说的这还不是个结局，虽然感到很欣慰也很期待我们会在一起，但是，我已经给自己做了个最坏的打算，我将会离开这个伤心地，到其他大学念书。很懦弱的一个决定吧! 但是不能怪我啊，毕竟我还是个女生，有很多事情，怎样都很难坚强起来，虽然屡次告诉自己这不是世界末日，我将来会遇到一个更好的男人，或是爱情不能勉强的。哈哈! 如果你们有尝试过像我这样的经验，你就会晓得这是多么艰难的一件事。说倒容易，但是办得到却是另一件事。
当然，我希望会有奇迹出现，我知道我现在那么执著是没有用的，现在我们俩最重要的事情就是专心考试，其他的事情我会等他考完试再去找他，好好的跟他聊。趁这段时间，我们应该冷静地想想，如果我们真的复合了，我们会不会为了其他的小问题再分开呢? 我已经认真的想了这一切，知道他就是我要的伴侣。或许他不这么认为。但是我不怪他。不能勉强他嘛!
我还是天天诚心地祈求上帝保佑我，为我做出最好的选择。好期待那一天的到来。你们大家会祝福我吧!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
愛由一個笑容開始，用一滴眼淚來結束
當你愛上一個人而不被對方所愛，是一件很傷害的事。
但最痛苦的莫過你愛一個人而卻沒有勇氣讓他知道你的感受。
最好的朋友是那一種能夠讓你坐在鞦韆上，不發一言，
然後靜靜地一起離開，感覺就是從未有過最好的對話。
這是真實的 ~~
你永不知道你得到了什麼只知你失去了的時候；
而更加真實的是
你永不會知道自己失去什麼只知他到達的時候。
要遇上一個人只要用一分鐘的時間，
要喜歡上一個人只要一句話的時間；
要愛上一個人只要用一天的時間，
但要忘記一個人卻要用一生的時間。
為自己的夢想而去想，
到自己想到的地方，做自己想做的事，
因為你只有一次的人生及一次機會去做這全部的事。
嘗試把自己放在對方的立場，當你感覺受到傷害時，
很有可能他也在是被傷害。
最快樂的人並沒有需要擁有世上所有最好的事，
而只需要令到大部份的事能沿著自己的人生而來。
人生中一件傷心的事是當你遇見一個對你充滿意義的人，
但你卻在最後才發現。
一句不小心的說話會令一場罵戰展開，
一句殘酷的句子會摧毀你一生，
一句話愛的句子卻會是無限的喜悅和祝福。
愛由一個笑容開始，用一個吻來成長，用一滴眼淚來結束。
當你出生時你一個人在哭，而所有在旁的在笑，
因此請活出你的生命， 當你死的時候，
圍繞你的人在哭而你便是唯一在笑。
愛情是自己的，自己要個怎樣的愛情自己最清楚，不評論他人的愛情，
因為有些情感不是外人可以體會的，就像你不喜外人來評論你的愛情般。
全心祝福，衷心禱告，愛其所愛，終愛不悔
愛可由一個笑容開始,在用一個吻來成長，去無法用一滴眼淚來結束
當你愛上一個人而不被對方所愛，是一件很傷害的事
魚說:你看不見我眼中的淚,因為我在水中
水說:我能感覺妳的淚,因為妳在我的心中
Exams here!!!
EXAMS here again!!!!
坐在Glade整天﹐但是我沒有做到任何功課。原本打算今天復習Traffic Planning﹐但是沒有心情啊。主啊﹐幫我可以嗎? 一直告訴自己要堅強﹐但是就是很難集中精神。看到週圍的東西﹐都會想到他。很多人要我離開這裡﹐回馬來西亞﹐但是我能永遠逃避嗎? 我不想逃避﹐也不想面對。如何呢? 有誰可以告訴我。我好像開始另到我週圍的人有些不耐煩了。是不是我太執著了。是不是他們已經知道我沒有機會了所以為了不要讓我更傷心而編了個謊言﹐說我們還有機會在一起呢? 誰可以告訴我啊! 我知道有時候不知道勝于知道真相﹐也很理解有些事情沒有對錯﹐也沒有解釋的必要。但是我很執著的想知道是什麼原因﹐這是因為
第一﹑我很愛他﹐我不想就這麼放棄。我們倆經營的那麼用心的感情說結束就結束嗎。這不是很不公平。
第二﹑我不要我們倆在未來日子有任何一點的遺憾。
我知道他有些難處﹐有些很重要的事情要處理。為什么不能一起分擔呢。他應該很清楚的知道我不會對他置之不理的。還是因為我的這份關心另他喘不過氣來呢。又有誰能告訴我。
至于他提起的遠距離感情。這很重要嗎。以我們做這行的﹐經常出國公干是很正常的。難道說你每到不同的地方做工﹐就會換你身邊的她嗎。他不能有這樣的想法。但是我能理解他﹐他現在也應該不好受吧。
雖然週圍的人已經開始告訴我﹐我們再在一起的機會很渺茫了﹐但是我希望有奇跡。我希望只是他一時的氣和壓力令到他做了個那麼突然的決定。分手前一晚﹐夢到和他分手﹔自從分手當晚開始﹐卻夢見和他複合﹐這是不是上帝給我的一個希望和暗號呢。唉… 好像我問的那麼多問題都沒有答案噢。我要振作啊。我可不可以找他好好聊聊呢。這當然會是在考完試後﹐我不會打擾他唸書的。放心吧。
主啊。告訴他吧﹐我真的很愛他。難道兩個相愛的人不能在一起嗎? 難到遇到一些挫折就那麼容易放棄嗎。我知道主很愛我﹐您一定能知道我需要什麼。也會為我做個很好的安排。對不?
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Life
一切都變了。我的生活少了個可以依靠的人。當我傷心難過時﹐少了個可以給我安慰﹐給我擁抱的人﹔當我寂寞時﹐少了個可以和我聊天的人﹔當我生氣時﹐少了個可以抱怨的對象。Mmmm…. 我又單身了。又是被男人拋棄了。我到底錯在哪裡。我不清楚﹐也許我永遠都會被蒙在鼓裡了。我太清楚他的個性﹐他是不會回頭的﹐他說到就做到﹐如果他不說﹐也沒有人可以逼他。那我不是又很冤枉地被判了死刑嗎?事情發生在上周五﹐他到學校探望我﹐因為我正忙著寫作業。我整天沒吃﹐所以餓了﹐要求他陪我一快兒吃午餐。很平常的﹐他說他很忙﹐所以很凶地回家了。我很擔心我們又起衝突﹐所以急忙地寫完作業﹐就到他家。怎知﹐當我到他家﹐他正和另一個女學生補習。我有少許妒忌﹐就離開了。我覺得很傻﹐以為他會因為心情不好而生我的氣。原來一切都錯了。我很傷心地離開。
那晚﹐他告訴我不要生氣﹐問我要吃晚餐嗎﹐我因為已經燒飯了﹐所以拒絕。他也不多說。大約凌晨﹐他上網和我聊天。我很坦白地告訴他我的心情。他道歉而且告訴我不要擔心﹐還告訴我他很愛我﹐要我早些睡覺﹐明天會是更好的一天。
星期六早上九點﹐他發了簡訊要我祝福他﹐因為他要去和他的公司開會﹐這個會是關係到他的未來。所以我祝福他了。他還說遲些會找我﹐還和我甜言蜜語了一番。兩個小時後﹐他又發簡訊告訴我他的約毀了。意思是這間公司不會再供他唸書﹐也不會再給他生活費。我很關心地發了簡訊要求一起出來商量商量﹐很想安慰他。但是他已經不回我的簡訊了。之後大約下午五點﹐他告訴我他遲些才回家﹐要和他的朋友們去踢球。我當然說好啊﹐因為他最喜歡在傷心的時候﹐不是睡覺﹐就是運動﹐而踢球是他最喜歡的運動。
一小時後﹐我再發簡訊問他要不要一起吃晚餐﹐因為我很擔心他。但是他叫我自己進餐﹐告訴我他要值勤。這個簡訊令我覺得有些不妥了。但是我不知道發生什麼事﹐我很迷惑﹐很擔心。我整個晚上守在電腦屏幕前﹐等他發 message 給我。他發了簡訊給我﹐說他不能再愛我。我當時的心碎了。我問他﹐他卻說他已經決定了﹐而且不會改變。他不能停止想到會在他離開紐西蘭前和我分手﹐還告訴我長痛不如短痛。我還跑到他家求他﹐問個明白﹐但是他就是不肯給我機會。最後﹐我很累了﹐心也無力了﹐我從來沒有那麼傷心過﹐我們經營的那麼辛苦的感情說結束就結束﹐這我怎麼可以接受啊。離開他的家前﹐我要求他給我個擁抱﹐他緊緊的抱著我﹐然後叫我保重﹐告訴我我會找到個更好的男生好好的愛我﹐傷心地跑回房了。
告訴我﹐我到底做錯了什麼。難道兩個相愛的人不能在一起嗎。為什么一定要分開我們倆。我到現在還很不明白。但是我不能再脆弱了﹐我要堅強﹐我要勇敢面對一切﹐耐心的等待他。我知道有一天奇跡會出現。我愛他那麼深﹐他一定會感覺到的。我深信這次分手是一時的魯莽造成的。他也一定很傷心。對嗎?
你們會支持我吧。我不會很傻吧。事發後﹐他一直逃避我到今天﹐我也不再煩他﹐但是我每天都以朋友的身份寫了個很短的message 給他﹐激勵他。因為我知道他現在很煩﹐我什麼都知道。我多麼希望他可以和我分擔他的一切痛苦。我只要讓他知道我永遠都在他的身邊﹐雖然只是個朋友﹐但是我已經很滿足了。我願意拋開男女問題﹐只關心他其他更重要的問題。但是﹐他知道嗎。我要讓他知道嗎。我自己也很不清楚。我只知道我要振作﹐要堅強﹐不要讓他擔心。畢竟這段感情是花了很長的時間﹐慢慢培養的﹐我很執著的相信會有個很好的未來。就如爸說的﹐我們大家需要些空間和時間去想﹐愛情一定要經得起考驗才能長久。你們大家會祝福我吧﹐會為我祈禱吧。
Saturday, June 11, 2005
This is the last time...
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
BACK!
hi guys! i'm back after a long long time. I have been so busy and stressed out during my Missing In Action time... most of the time, i'm very depressed and lost. yeah...i cried a lot of times too. i know that crying isn't a big deal, but it IS a big deal when i dunno what made me cry... i can't seem to find any good reason. i dun understand myself. or it's probably more appropriate to say that i nvr understand myself. well, anyone out there that actually understand themself? is this a mission impossible or issit just me... ?
mmm... the reason that i m writing here is to release some stress + anger + disappointment... i'm helpless and i got no one to talk to. of coz i know that he's alwez there to listen and a few more of my close ones that i could talk to... but i just dun feel like telling anyone. partly because i dunno how to express myself better and i dun want to trouble them. especially my beloved tomato.... i felt bad after telling him how disappointed i am right after my test last nite without considering he has his own bigger problem to deal with. i blame myself for being so selfish... who can i talk to?? how i wish my parents are here and their one big warm hug will solve all the sadness in me.
you might think i'm taking this thing too seriously, or probably u haven't had a clue on what's bothering me. 'it's just a test'.. 'dun worry'... 'you think i'm better than u?' yeah..these are all the common replies whenever i tried to talk to ppl about my disappointment. These reply alwez make me speechless after that. mmm..... i studied so hard especially for the two outside papers this year because i want to pull my GPA up to get a better class in my degree, and looks like everything is just not gonna come true...
argh... just attended econ lecture... and i found that i lost interest and confidence in studying econ. help!!!! how i wish an angel wll just come up in front of me and make my life or probably my day better. i can't stay on like that. the frequent emotion pop ups is gonna kill me slowly ... i'm gonna go crazy real soon. ><
Friday, March 11, 2005
Lonely Me...
i'm lonely, very lonely. just don't know why. i normally dun turn on any music when i'm home and NEVER when i'm studying. but i did it today! omg...wat's wrong with me? i feel lonely. bro just started working a few days ago, he got an "odd" shift, which starts around 4pm and ends around 12 midnite. yeah! exactly... that's the time when i'm at home and still wide awake. during school days, i normally go to bed by 12 midnite, and effectively making me home alone all the time. >< sad ...
does anyone like to be alone? i actually like to be alone when i've got something to keep me occupied, or when i'm really busy and need time to be alone. but not now... i finished one of my homework planned to do this weekend in uni this morning, and i planned to finish up my 2nd homework tonight. Looks like it's not gonna work..! coz err.. i totally lost my mood. :(
just called parents. they said they gonna consider selling this house because they won't like me to stay in this house alone when my brother's going to Auckland this June. They scared that i'll be lonely and the house maintenance would be another extra burden for me. They want me to think properly whether if i wanna move out. Well, honestly, i have no idea. should i move out? i like privacy when i'm studying... but when i'm bored, i like to be among my friends. So what should i do? sigh... will i go crazy when i'm lonely? i'm just in the 'temperory loneliness" situation now.... what if i'm gonna face a "total loneliness" later? could i adapt it? i dunno... *confused*
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Sleepy Head
whew... i've got one more lecture to go before i could go home and take a nap. i'm so bloody tired and i wonder why i need to sleep a lot these days. i used to get insufficient sleeping time and yet still stay awake throughout lectures in high school. but i cant now. wat's wrong aye?! issit becoz i'm getting old by every second? haha.. sometimes how i wish i could just not sleep at all and spend all my time doing stuff that i want or need to do. (want as in watching korean drama all day long.. or probably just shop around... ; whereas need means stuff like a typical student has to spend time doing, eg. doing homework, revision and read some other helpful materials) looks like this is not gonna happen to me. i'm just too lazy and slack too much sometimes.
having econ lecture in half an hour time. but i'll have to be outside the lecture theatre 10 minutes before the lecture starts because the lecture hall is too small to fit so many students that want to attend the morning session of this course. Speaking about courses, this year timetable is comparatively better in a way that i don't have a lot of lectures per semester. this mean that i should have more spare time to do what i NEED and WANT to do. haha..but it's not the case at the moment. i still dunno where i spent my extra time doing. well, honestly, i did manage to spend some time doing revision and i still manage to get my work done on time. but i still think that i need MORE time... does this happen to everyone? or issit only me?
anyway, i hafta go now. class starts in 25 minutes but before that i have to go to the cafe and grab my breakfast. :P schedule for the day:
11am - 12noon === nap
12noon - 1pm ==== wash car
1pm - 2pm ====== lunch time
2pm - 4pm ====== traffic revision and econ tut + revision
4pm - 5pm ====== watch my hk drama that i missed out last nite.. :P
5pm - 6pm ====== prepare dinner
6pm - 7pm ====== watch my horoscope programme.. hehe!
7pm - 9pm ====== marketing revision
9pm - 10pm ===== watch my hk drama.
10pm onwards.... dunno yet.. probably sleep early. :P
tat's it la! :P
Thursday, March 03, 2005
-no title-
I finally “settled down”… as in I finally made up my decision on what papers to take this year. I’m just going to drop Solid Waste Management for Hydraulics Engineering paper this semester and I think everything will be cool in second semester. At first, I was thinking of taking Accountings in this first semester as well as I think it’s pretty straightforward compared to Marketing (that I’ve already enrolled in). but since, Accountings does not fit well into my exam timetable, I’ll just have to say “NO”. I’m still not sure whether if I could excel in all these papers but I’ll just have to try my best. Started some serious studying (or revision) yesterday and I’m making sure that I could keep up this study mood for the rest of the year.
Anyway, today is clubs’ day in varsity. I joined 4 clubs this year, and I’m pretty excited about it as well. As usual, I joined CMSA and UCSSS. And guess what? I finally join “UCanDance” this year. This is the club that I always wanted to join ever since my first year in university. Can’t believe that I join this club after three years wondering around in Uni, anyway, I hope that I could really learn something there. Also, I joined yoga club just to have some proper yoga treatment and I really do feel good after yoga. I strongly recommend all of you guys out there to do yoga. It’s good for you, physically and mentally. Trust me!
Sunday, February 27, 2005
me in 2005
A Brand New Me.... this year is a special year for me. i'm 21 and i'm finally in my final year of my civil engineering degree. not that i've been anticipating my graduation day for long, but i would love to end my degree as soon as possible.
i've been so stressed out for the past three years, struggling hard to get through every year, making sure that i dont fail any papers that would ruin my future. it's hard initially, because civil engineering is not my first choice and it's still not my first choice. i always wanted to study quantity surveying, and i still wish i've got an extra degree in quantity surveying after 3 years studying civil engineering. i just dunno why. my family has been telling me that i made a right choice studying civil engineering at the end and told me i'll have a bright future. but i'm still not convinced after these years.
i always envy my classmates that are really passionate about the stuff they are learning and when they are in lab doing some research, they really like what they are doing. i could never do that. i did all my assignments because i wanna pass the paper; i attended all the labs praying hard that the lab will end soon; i study hard during exam time because i dun wanna regret at the end if i get sucky results . isn't this pathetic? i wonder how many varsity students out there are similar to me? where's the passion i need?
it is also this "passion" that made me so indecisive when i have to choose my own papers to study this year. it wasn't a problem to me for the previous years as all the courses are compulsory and all i have to do was to attend the scheduled lectures and labs, do all my assignments and sit for the exams. easy as that. unfortunately, this year all third pro students have to choose a minimum of 6 civil papers out of 8 papers. this is really a pain for me. i could only tick a few options that really interest me and that i have a wee bit of confidence to excel in. tat is also why i was really busy for the first five days back to school as i attended every single lecture to decide whether if i have interest in that particular lecture. and yet, i'm still indecisive. time is running out and i better make a decision asap because i wont be able to concentrate if i din make a decision soon. argh.... what should i do?
well, about my new year resolutions, i always wish for "world peace, good health, and excellent results". excellent results.... did i ever get that? what's the point of getting great results when you dont know why u r studying all these? argh... it's pretty frustrating sometimes. but the best thing to do now is stick to what i've always been... i'll just go ahead and finish up my degree with the best result i could get so that i wont regret in the future. i think that's the best i could do considering that i don't have any special interest in any field. and it's a bit too late to switch to another degree. just hope that everything turns out great and i'll find my passion in this field soon. SOOOOO.... my study aim for this year is to " be a study freak and get my bestest grades ever at the end " . (sounds too ambitious right? but i really hope i could do it)
enough crap about my studies, and i dun feel like talking about my future studies, which is my masters degree next year. let's talk about my life in general. as i said i'm 21 this year, i think it's time to change myself overall. i dunno why, i always hate myself. i never liked myself. my self confidence is a negative number alwez. sigh... but how to change this attitude? i have no idea. but it's really time to change myself. or else, i'll be having another sad and pathetic year that i don't feel like remembering. i've always been very annoying, people that are close to me would realise that. and also, i'm always in my own circle of life. i dun like to socialise with other people, and i feel annoyed when people comment about my social life. i'm still wondering issit wrong if i like to be alone? issit better to socialise more? i think the main reason that i don't like socialising is because i'm scared that i'll be cheated by other people. some of you might know, i hardly trust anyone (sorry if i hurt some of u guys out there...). i've been through times when i was betrayed by someone that i trusted the most. i still can't get through these kinda things easily. deep inside me, i'm still a lil girl. tat's why i rather "lock" myself up in my own circle with occasional "visits" to the outer world than letting myself getting hurt at the end. dun try to correct me at this point, everyone has his/her own perception about their life. hope you guys understand. i'll just have to once again build up "trust" slowly in the future, but it takes time.... and i'll just stick to what i've been for now.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
i'm in deep trouble!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit...where is my ring?! argh..!!!!! i've been walking around campus the whole day and i just realised that i've lost my beloved ring an hour ago. what can i do? i've been looking around civil suite, where is the place i realised about it. and also, i've walked around campus following the routes i took the whole morning. damn!!! i'm waiting for the next class to finish so that i could go into C1 and check whether if i could get it back. i really hope that i could find it as it really means a lot to me. it has accompanied me for more than a year now, and it's meaningful to me. >< i'm really screwed this time. i'm sad... feel so lost... :( help...!!!! i know i've broken someone's heart. yeah... i dun dare to face him not until i've found it back.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
hmm... i'm finally 21.... a few more hours to go before i finish my birthday. i'm really excited about today. hehe!! well, i was a bit disappointed at first when no one actually very "keen" to celebrate my birthday when i was counting down to 2nd feb. hehe..BUT... i was wrong! hehe.... i got my first surprise party at 12am sharp. my beloved bf baked a choc cake for me and everyone (my bro, my two cussies, and mabel) sang me a birthday song... sooo touch!!!! well, my parents text me continously after that. soooo happy. Oh yeah, i received quite a number of pressies also. hmm... lemme list down:
1. my parents gave me CNY ang pow + birthday ang pow
2. my bro & Mabel gave me a gold "cross" pendant
3. Leon ( my lil cuz) gave me a pair of earrings
4. Elaine (my other cuz) gave me a korean drama series ( cool yeah?)
5. Heather gave me a pair of earrings as well (she gave me a month ago...)
6. My lovely bf (tomato) bought me a temporary gift --- flying pig!!!
7. and myself... i bought myself a birthday bear..
hehe..sooo fun!!! but the only thing i'm disappointed about were my sisters in msia forgot about my bday (probably they are busy over there) and my best friend in France forgot about my bday as well... sigh!!!!
nvm... i'm still happy ... hope this year will be a better year... !!! ^^
Monday, January 31, 2005
Headache + Sleepy
sigh.... i'm still very sleepy and headache ever since i arrived in Christchurch two days ago. Watsup with me???? HELP!!!!
Back in Christchurch
I'm finally BACK! i'm totally exhausted after spending 2.5 months in Auckland staying in a matchbox size room (shared by TWO person summore!), working in a very very busy city, with majority of the Aucklanders being a bully! omg..can you imagine that? but well, there are obviously some people out there that loves Auckland very much. to me, i'll give Auckland a "5" out of "10" overall because the studying environment there is crappy!!! but the working environment there is pretty cool, coz u get challenges around, and there are major projects around you tat u can gain precious experience.
argh... i really wanna write a loong long blog when i first got home yesterday, but i spent a lot of time unpacking my stuff and help tomato to move into his new "apartment". we even had our dinner at 10.30pm!!!! amazing aye?! some more the internet connection here at my own house is not as FAST as the connection i get in Auckland. i'm not patient enuff to wait for it to connect.... the connection i got in Auckland is 100Mbps, while i get only 46.6Kbps now here. ><
anyway, i'm trying to realign my mood now... wanna change from "work" mode to "study" mode soon. i think i'm headin to bed now. my head is bursting and i feel like kinda lost in the space. i dun even understand what i've writtne above. Sorry abt that. will write a better one soon.
"will upload my auckland photos soon"... pls wait patiently.
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
ATTENTION!
hey guys!! i'm gonna leave my working diary in the work link shown above. not gonna put another one here in my main page. :)
have a nice day!