STRESSED

Hmm.. How do you know when i'm stressed out?

I start cleaning up everything...
I start waking up very late....
I start talking to myself quite a bit....

Guess it will last for another few weeks before everything reverts back to normal!

Dinner

Well, i took up the role in the house to prepare dinner on weekdays as much as i could. There are tonnes of reasons for doing this although some might think i'm just worrying too much and i don't have to do this; but oh well, i just want everyone to have a nice decent (msg-free) meal as much as possible. As simpl as that and most of all, I enjoy cooking. It's a stress-relief activity!

What i realised recently is that cooking for 2, 3 or 4 people is very different from cooking for one. Back in the old days in Christchurch when i was living all by myself, it's just so easy. Do my groceries once a week, cook every two days and that's it. I don't have to worry about not having enough food to feed everyone or cooking too much resulting in food wastage, or the worst is cooking something that doesn't suit everyone.

I want to make a point that I'm not complaining here. I enjoy cooking but i just don't like to see food to be wasted and worst of all, i don't like listening to complaints, especially complaints saying i cooked too much. It seriously makes my heart aches sometimes.

Well, like i said, I'm not responsible to cook dinner for all my "housemates". I do it as a courtesy and because i'm a full time student. But I seriously don't like to see my effort for cooking dinner is taken for granted.

Food Wastage
i normally cook dinner every weekday except for some fridays. If i don't cook on any weekdays due to some special occasions, i will inform my "housemates" so that they could sort out their dinner themselves. Although again, some would actually comment that i don't really have to do that, but it's a courtesy thing. In return, I always hope that i will get a simple text (not last minute text) from whoever that decides not to have dinner at home. This will make it easier for me to prepare the food and to avoid wasting food. Unfortunately, this tiny request hardly happens? Why? Am i asking too much?

There's a point to note here: Wasting food is just wasting your own money because you contribute to the weekly grocery expenditure as well.

Too much food?
Having too much food on the table is very much related to previous paragraph about food wastage. The only occasion when there is too much leftover is when someone did not show up for dinner without informing me. Well, I only cook as I told and again, it is YOUR money that you are wasting because YOU paid for the groceries too.

In other occasions, i always cook adequately. I don't think i have ever cooked too much. You judge if for yourself: I normally have three pieces of chicken thigh, a plate of vege to feed five people (yes, I have the leftovers for lunch the following day). Is it really that much?

Another comment that i received (that keeps me pondering for a while) is: "It is a psychological thing that having too much food in front of you will tempt you to eat more". Well, i have to agree with this comment, but sometimes due to the difference in dinner time, it seems like i have cooked too much for the people who have earlier dinner but in actual fact, it is the same portion everyday! The funny thing is these comments never come up when all four of us have dinner at the same time. Why is that? I personally think it is an irresponsibile comment because you yourself have to take responsibility of the amount of food you eat and your own diet. You have to know how to resist temptation!

Well, after all, i don't think i deserve to receive all these harsh comments or looking at my food ended up in the waste bin. I volunteered myself to do weekly grocery shopping for the household and i volunteered myself to cook dinner on weekdays. It is then your responsibility to inform me to avoid food wastage and your call to control your own appetite.

However if any of you prefer not to have dinner at home at all, just let me know. This could possibly avoid some disagreement or unhappiness in the house. I don't want to turn my interest in cooking as another burden in the house. Oh well, i can still cook for MYSELF! =)

Sleepless nights

It's been a long long time since i last posted something here. Oh well, I have been really busy with my assignments, research projects, presentations...etc.

Sleepless nights....

Have you ever felt really tired till ur brain suddenly shuts down?
Have you ever tried lying on the bed knowing that your body wants to rest but your brain refuses to?

Another two months... hopefully.