Finally...

MERRY CHRISTMAS

to my family & friends

It's this time of the year again.. when people gets crazy about christmas shopping, christmas dinner, christmas ball, christmas barbeque, christmas present... etc.

To me, it's the time of the year when i can get some rest, do some good shopping and of coz Xmas mass... the church choir is alwez damn good on Christmas mass.. hehe!!! =)

Oh well, can't believe that it's been a year since i started working with this company. Time really flies... i learned a lot... from doing all those fussy admin jobs, until i'm taking care of a mini project all by myself. really satisfied with my own performance so far.... =)

hehe.. today is the day where we eat "tang yuan" to celebrate the first day of winter season (for the northern hemisphere of coz) and a symbol of family reunion. =) i just bought the ingredients to make "tang yuan".. hehe! and i LOVE tang yuan...nyum nyum.... you want some? come over to my place and have some... but just dun complain, coz my skills at making this funny lil chewy balls ain't that good. hahaha!!!!

okay. barbeque is ready. i better get rollin.... wanna get some nice decent food... haha!!!

Christmas Celebration on Franklin Rd

Last night i sent my brother to a bday party in town. Normally, a return trip to the city from my place will take approximately 10 minutes. But last night was just crazy. It took me approximately 35 minutes!!! i was soo bored and got so frustrated. Luckily i spent 6 mins on video call and another 5 mins on a phone call and also a few minutes trying to take pictures from ma car. Don't worry, i did not need to concentrate on the road becoz i was basically stucked there and couldn't even move forward!

oh well, here are a few photos from last night....

Franklin Road - Every Xmas, residents on this street will decorate their houses and thus attracting lotsa tourists and local ppl to come here and enjoy it. =)


House #1 - Can't imagine the power bill.... >.< House #2 - I like this one... hehe!!! The S-P-E-C-I-A-L one...

House #3 - Santa is coming!!!

House #4 - Awww... a heart shape... ^.^

okay.. before i actually went out "kepo" what on earth was happening on Franklin Road... i was stucked in the traffic. Look at the crazy traffic....

Franklin Rd / Victoria Street Intersection

Franklin Rd / Wilkins Street Intersection -- man, i was stucked here for freaking 5 mins! i just wanna go homee...... i'm living on Wilkins St btw... =)


Oh yeah.. not to forget... Sky Tower is celebrating Xmas with us too.. look at the color!! hehe.. Xmas color... la la la...

break down...

Mentally I’m sad n disappointed

Physically I’m tired

Too much pressure, too much expectation, too much to think about but too little energy I have.

I’m falling again. Yes… again…

Losing the passion

Losing the motivation

Ain’t complaining

Just feel like talking to someone…

Someone that will hear patiently,

Someone that will agree with my thoughts,

Someone that will make me laugh.

….

Perhaps I need a break,

Or perhaps I just need to be myself for once.

Purpose of Blogging

Haven’t been updating my blog for a while. Reason behind it is I’m a person who likes to bitch a lot and who likes to complain a lot. I don’t want to upset anyone in particular in my blog. That makes me wonder what’s the point of writing a blog? I wanted to express everything in my mind in my blog, but now I have to filter everything before I could publish it. So, what’s the point? I don’t know…

Relax

Oooo… what a way to start my day…

Without the boss and a few key people in the office, everyone looks happy and relax. Not that we are slacking, but we are doing things at our own pace, which is a really good way to start the week. Mondays are normally horrible. With some people still trying hard to stay awake after hardcore partying in the weekend and some people just feel like going back home and R-E-L-A-X….

Hmm… my weekend was good. No parties, no alcohol, just simply relaxing at home. I slept a lot, I only woke up for food and grocery shopping and I managed to clean my room yesterday, like real thorough clean!!!! Hehe… very satisfying… I even made up a list of things to do tonight after work… let’s see…

I gotta...

• sort out my closet (I bought new hangers… trying to classify my clothes according to the colour of the hangers.. okay.. I’m not crazy, but it does look nicer if you classified them!)
• sort out my recipes… (been trying all sorts of recipes recently. I found that cooking after a busy tiring day at work is a method to release the accumulated stress!)
• sort out my Masters course next year? Haha.. I’m lazy and the stupid advisor from Auckland Uni is not being helpful at all… hmm.. probably I should take a paper from Monash or Melbourne Uni as suggested by my manager? I can then study at my own time and submit my assignments electronically and I can fly to Aus for my exams! How cool is that? Hmm.. PROBLEM is… will I really study at my own time??? Hahha!!! M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N … is what I need.

Awww… I can’t wait to go back home now!!! Hahaha… and worst of all, I can’t wait to have my 2-week Christmas break! Hmm… 5 weeks to Xmas break. OHHH…. I just want to leave Auckland for a while just to keep me sane… Speaking about leaving Auckland, my Waiheke trip has once again been postponed. Blame it on the crappy Auckland weather. >.<>

TEA TIME!~!~!

Counting the days...

Mood swing… I really hate mood swing. But sometimes I just can’t help it.

Hmm… let’s see…

Five weeks + four days to December Christmas break...
Seven weeks to a brand new year… (1st Jan is a Monday)
Eleven weeks + four days to my 23rd Birthday…
Twelve weeks + five days to my trip going back home.. M-A-L-A-Y-S-I-A!!!
Thirteen weeks + six days to 2007 Chinese New Year (da year of pig!)
Sixteen weeks + three days to the end of my CNY break in Malaysia. =(

No appetite…it's almost lunch time... n i haven't had my breakfast yet. Just don't feel hungry and all that i feel like having is a bowl of hot soup… nyum…

Gotta search for recipes now...

Have a nice week people!

GOD BLESS!!!

Being a female engineer

"sorry... you are not an accountant/administrator. an engineer can't wear skirt, you gotta wear pants n comfy shoes!"

oh whatever! this was what my senior told me.

this is why...

• i've got tonnes of skirts at home and sandals brought in from msia.. but never been used!
• if i did actually go to work in skirts, "she" will make fun of me by saying real loud "OMG.. YOU WEARING SKIRT... THIS SHOULD BE THE FIRST TIME I SEE U IN SKIRT... HAHAHA"... F*** off.. not as if you have nice legs to show off when you wear skirt...
• i really admire other female working people that can actually wear nice outfits to work... they just look sooo nice...

oh.. i'm not really complaining. i just don't like "her" attitude. i nvr regretted being an engineer and in fact, i love my job. Probably next year i'll get to wear skirt more often consider i'm passing all the site works & survey shits to my junior.

hmm...

my weekend was a quiet one, which was really good. I went to bed around 12am on friday and saturday night. woke up damn early the next day. went out to do some shopping with my colleague for a company function tomorrow. quiet, nice, slow weekend.

Problems that I need to solve

#1 -- Car

My car is with Toyota now... yes.. AGAIN!!! hopefully they will get it fixed *fingers crossed* and then i'll get them to sell the car... yes! sell it! Need a new car...this time i'm going for a four door, tiny, not too girly and not too macho type of car... hehe!!

Four door coz it's way easier for my parents to use a 4-door car when they are here...
Tiny car coz it's way easier to park the car, to cruise around the town and cuter!!! yeah.. CUTE!
Not too girly /macho coz my dad is gonna drive this car when he's in NZ... haha.. it's just inappropriate for him to drive a cute girly car around eh???

And above all, this car needs to be TOYOTA... since i'm asking for a trade in ....

Toyota Corolla?? how's that sounds?Toyota Prius???

#2 -- PC

HAHA... YES! my PC again!!! okay. a recap of the "story of my f***ed up PC* (sorry bout my language). my pc somehow has been having problems of starting Windows system properly. The windows logo appeared and the screen just went BLACK OUT! the problem was "mup.sys" error which happens to be a very very common problem with millions of solutions. I've tried dozens of these solutions, n none of them could solve ma problem.

Last week, i went back to the PC guy, i requested to get a set of wired keyboard and mouse coz one of the problems for getting the mup.sys problem was the Logitech wireless keyboard and mouse. So... trying hard to solve my pc problem with my limited IT skills, i tried using a set of wired keyboard and mouse and dumped my cool wireless keyboard and mouse away! okay, the pc worked fine for a week. it operated nicely... shut down and turned on nicely without a problem!

The nightmare came back when i was trying to install my cellphone software into my pc. Firstly, i couldn't installed the hardware when i connected my pc with my phone via usb. and then when i installed the software into the pc, i was asked to restart my system so tat i could use the software. MUP.SYS error appeared again when i clicked restart... just nice....

i'm getting fed up with this shit pc... f*** it. for a pc of 800 bucks.. i wasted tonnes of money and time and energy to get it fixed... going back to Mt albert every now and then. F*** IT! argh... i'm just gonna hang on to this pc for a while. get my car problem sorted out and then deal with the pc guy again regarding my pc.

before all this, i need $$ to solve these problems. money.. pls come to carol... i dare not check how much money i've spent on the car and the pc... all i can say is... i've spent HEAPS!

okay. it's 1.16pm. i think i'm going to take a short rest and get some groceries for the week. Zzzz.....

oh... no FREE fireworks in Auckland for Guy Fawkes Day. how shit is that?

drinks?

After work drinks at Mac Bar... should i? should i? tell me...

i plan to go back at 4.30pm, but if i were to go for drinks, meaning i gotta sit here and rot for another 30 minutes.. coz everyone's leaving at 5pm.. hmm...

drinks or no drinks?

not sure...

side note: it's not even an hour since i last blogged... ^_^

i love microsoft words....

Damn I’m bored! Really really bored. I think that’s why they said you have ups and downs working in a consulting firm. Sometimes you can go real crazy with your work… work day and night trying to meet client’s expectations, and sometimes you can just sit here looking at the clock waiting for 5pm.

Oh well, I have been really busy for the past few weeks, writing up proposals, organising surveys last minute, doing after survey tidy up job, running models… etc. Now that I’ve got everything sorted out, I’m FREE. A bit too free I think. I did my final bit of leftover work today in a very slow pace. Got it sorted out by 11am. It was a bit too early to have lunch; hence I decided to do some spring cleaning around my small tiny cubicle. I started throwing all my waste papers into a box, making so much noise that my team mates came over and started chit chatting with me, which was good… meaning I had lesser time to sit here feeling bored!  I spent approximately 45 minutes cleaning up all the mess and wiped my desk… feels nice and clean and a bit too empty now. Haha! Occasionally I get clients coming into our office and was surprised to see how empty/clean my desk is. They will start teasing me said I’m not having enough job to keep me busy. Oh hell yeah! I need work… I feel guilty sitting here doing nothing but surfing trademe, friendster, friend’s blogs, cellphones, properties, gossips… and I feel bad keep bugging my seniors to pass me some work to do… I don’t mind if they are admin work, just as long as it keeps me busy and help me past my time at work… it’s 1.30pm, still got 3 hours to go.. YEAP.. I’m leaving office earlier today for a very obvious reason – I’m bored!!!

Speaking about my work, I had my performance review yesterday, which took me 1.5 hours. Amazing huh? Probably I talked too much and I was a bit straightforward. I basically sat there, shy for the first minute (coz talking to big boss ma…) then the next min I started splashing out whatever was in my mind. Haha. I mean EVERYTHING without thinking about the consequences. My boss was laughing and of coz I don’t understand what’s so funny about what I said… *weird aye?*

Oh yeah. Very happy coz he’s been very impressed with my work performance so far. And he set a few goals for me…
1. Take up 3 external courses related to traffic engineering (I asked for this…)
2. Take up a few masters paper by 2007 sponsored by the company (woohoo!!!)
3. Spend at least a week on site to experience working on site (sounds cool huh? Don’t have to wear working clothes, jeans will do… muahaha!! I hate dressing up for work and formal occasions)
4. Go to Australia, HK or China for secondment. Could be a 1 week long assignment or up to 2 months assignment. (imagine accommodation and food included with living expenses and get to meet up some cool people from the same company but at different countries, damn cool!!! Oh my… )
5. Learning traffic engineering design… (yes! I’ve been involving in planning/modelling stuff which does not require much engineering knowledge. Most grads are exposed to planning/modelling before they get to do some real engineering design job… ooh.. I’m starting to feel like an engineer now…)
6. Writing more proposals and getting some minor involvement in project management. (I’ll be given a small project to handle all by myself with occasional guidance from my senior.)

Hehe… and performance review will lead to salary review!!! Yeah… hopefully I can get my pay rise soon… I’m getting broke dumping so much money into paying rent every week. Further to that, my PC and now my Car have been giving me shit loads of problems. Always need money to resolve all these problems. I need money! What do I want for Christmas? I want a money printing machine. Eh? Hehehe…

Oh, despite complaining about lack of money, I’m gonna be 600 bucks poorer today because I bought myself a SE K800i cellphone. The main reason I bought myself this phone was that I want to give myself a present after working for a year. I think I deserve to buy something nice for myself, to pamper myself. Although after paying off this 600 bucks, it means that I’ve got 400 bucks left in my account. But, who cares? Haha… I’ll wait patiently till my next pay comes in… which is 13 days away… hahaha!!! In the meantime, if I wanna buy something, there’s always CREDIT CARD.. yeah baby! Credit card… I’ll worry about it later!

Damn, I blog too much. It’s such a good evident that I’m bloody bored at work. I might blog again in an hour’s time. You never know. Haha… la la la… I can hear the clock ticking… tick tock tick tock…. are we there yet?

*Zzzzzz…..*

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party

It’s Monday again. I was so reluctant to wake up this morning because of the miserable Auckland weather. I’m getting crazy dealing with the Auckland weather. Last weekend was a quiet weekend. Only attended one party at Opium on Friday night but I did not party hard as before. I just sat there… drink, drink and drink. Reason being I was too tired to stay awake and I didn’t like the environment at all. *sigh*

Something that I found out in Auckland is that many Aucklanders are smokers. I think 90% of my friends are smokers or probably learning how to become a smoker. Imagine going out with a bunch of people and all of a sudden, every one of them suddenly left the room and went out for a smoke, leaving you all by yourself. This is my situation… I really dislike this sort of feeling. Oh well, it’s nobody’s fault. It’s just because I don’t smoke, and I never had that urge to pick up a cigarette and start somking, although I always like to say that I would love to try smoking. So when people start smoking, the only thing that I could do is DRINK. Not too bad actually because I love drinking now. Not that I’m an alcoholic, but it’s the only way I could think of now to keep myself occupied when people are busy with their cigs.

Okay. I’m having a terrible mood today. Don’t ask me why, coz I don’t know why. It’s end of October 2006, approaching my 11th month working in this company. I’m going to have my performance review very soon, as in this Wednesday. Two days later… what’s my expectation for my 2nd year here? What do I want from the company? And what could I contribute to my department/company? These are really common yet important questions. I’ve been thinking hard… should I start planning for my Masters? Or should I wait for another year? Which sector should I go into? Should I go overseas for a short term assignment? Am I capable enough to go explore the world? There are so many things to consider. Some might think it’s easy decision making process, but to me, it’s not! Probably I’m a person who tends to think too much… a bit too much to complicate things.

Switching my mind off…

Refused to go to work....

Back to work. Been busy for the morning when I just stepped into the office. Just had my lunch which was some noodles that “survived” from the accident this morning. Still feeling hungry… Can’t wait till 5pm… I’ll rush home and cook myself something nice.

Oh well, I had a long long weekend. I took yesterday off but ended up spending most of the time bumming in the house either sleeping or cooking. Thanks to the shitty weather that always hit Auckland when we have long weekends. My Taupo trip, Rotorua trip and Waiheke Trip have been cancelled due to the weather. *cries* oh well, another 8 weeks to Christmas, probably I should start planning. Hmm… anyone wanna go to Australia?

My K800i cellphone is on its way to NZ… there goes my money, but if money can buy me temporary happiness, I think I should spend it just as long as I won’t go bankrupt after that. Can't wait to have my new cellphone... i'm gonna take heaps of pictures.... muahahahah!!! ^^

Oh well, after having my cellphone sorted out, I sat down in front of my pc thinking of what are the things that need to be done. They are:
1. Get a good facial place (my face condition is getting worse, thanks to Akl weather... i missed my skin in Christchurch!!! argh.. DARN! recommendations anyone? ^^ )
2. Sort out my internet connection (been using Woosh connection for 11 months, thinking of changing it to a faster one....again, recommendations anyone? ^^ )
3. Plan for my trip (Don't want to cancel / postpone any trips now.. so i better start planning early.. probably gotta try to find out when is my xmas hol and how much is the air ticket and cheap accommodations.... anyone wanna join me?? gimme a buzzzz.... ^^ )
4. Lastly, if i still have extra money to splash out, i'm thinking of getting another brand new PC. This time i'll go for those branded ones.. don't care how much is it, as long as it won't give me problem and don't pissed me off... )

Kay back to work. I’ll do the boring stuff that my bro has sort of “forced” me to do later on. If you are not sure what I’m talking about, check out his blog at http://www.kevinteh.blogspot.com/... I saw my name at the bottom of the post… great one bro! I’ll do it if I became as bored as you later… HAHAHA!!

Have a great week people…. Thursday tomorrow… damn fast eh? =) any plans this weekend?

Tired

i'm tired... very very tired...

i almost got into an accident last night while driving home. my mind was not cooperating. i kept accelerating and i can feel that my mind is in a hibernating mode then. Damn dangerous, luckily i arrived home safely. Dozed off at 10.25pm....

Woke up at 2am because two of my surveyors couldn't make it to the morning session... just great!!! they informed me last minute, i mean VERY VERY LAST MINUTE. oh well, i got everything sorted out at the end. tried to convince 3 of my surveyors to do extra work... hehe!!! good job. survey started at 7am and ended at 9am... i stayed a wee bit longer in Glen Innes to sort out all my survey sheets and drove Hui Wern (one of my surveyors) back to the city. I "rested" at home for 1 hour... a nice one... just to charge up my battery before i came back here...

another hour to go before i move my ass to Glen Innes again. I think i need a coffee....

mood ain't that good recently. experiencing mood swing every now and then. why is that? i don't know... apparently i went to bed in quite a bad mood last night...

labour weekend coming up... what should i do? i gotta work this saturday, however i got Tuesday off, which is nice.... hmm... but do i really need tuesday off???

"Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well."

break down

it's been a long time since i last felt this way....

i don't know...

stress is building up....
life ain't easy....

i wish i can just....leave...
can i?

i don't know...

Dilemma

argh.. i just hate making decisions. a small decison making will actually drive me crazy. i just hate doing this....

okay.. i need help this time again.. please gimme me comments and make decisions for me.

these are the stuff that i want...
1. a new cellphone (my current one is faulty at times... and it's time to get a new cellphone)
2. a nice haircut (thinking of giving it a nice trim and straigthten or probably highlight it?)
3. a mp3 player (supposed to get one ages ago... but i was thinking if i can get a good cellphone, i won't need mp3 player....)

okay.. firstly, talk about cellphone. i've been dying to get N80, which is around 800 bucks (get it from singapore... it's damn expensive here in nz)... and then i discovered there's another new model -- N73 (slightly smaller, but no wi-fi, and a hundred bucks cheaper)... okay... someone has been convincing me to get Samsung E900... i went to Etown to have a loook, it's 520 bucks (GST included) which is way cheaper than the nokia N series... E900 is smaller, slimmer, cooler, but with no 3G and not as popular as nokia... should i get it? i don't know....

with the extra $$ i saved by getting E900 instead of N80... i could use it to do my hair... fyi, a nice haircut for me will cost me 300 bucks EASILY.... hmm.... howwwww...........

damn it.. i hate making decisions.... puh-lease help poor carol....

lunch break

I’m so damn tired… my brain is working real slow… I’m physically and mentally tired…

Life has been hectic. I mean EXTREMELY hectic…

Went for a survey in Mt Albert yesterday morning and my car broke down on Ponsonby Road. I called up Roadside Rescue and the towing truck came 20 minutes later, meaning that I was 15 minutes late for my survey. Surprisingly I wasn’t panic when my car broke down and I was not pissed off… I was happily having my breakfast in my car and save up my energy to scold the bastard in Lexus. This bastard looked pissed off and frustrated when he saw me. this is because this is not the first time I got the towing company to tow my car to Lexus. This car has been giving me problem since dunno when, and every time Mr Bastard will tell me “no problem! I can’t see any problem, you have to send your car here when there is a problem!!”.. and all sorts of bullshits… and I’ll get charged like 400 bucks everytime just for labour work! F**K !!!! the worst thing is I only send my car there when I’ve got problem…. How the heck I know when they tried to start the car, it works! Arghh… there must be some hidden problem la!!! Oh man, this bastard is driving me crazy.

Oh anyway, I asked for a courtesy car this time because I was actually on my way to a traffic survey in Mt Albert. He straight away said “NO. you have to booked it earlier…” I gave him a real bitchy face… “how would I know that my car will break down. And YOU said that there’s no problem with my car… I don’t care. GIVE ME A CAR!” so yeah.. he went away.. had a wee bit chit chat with his colleagues.. and gave me a car, a mini Daihatsu car. Real tiny… but cute.

Speaking about this tiny car, i feel intimidated driving on the road. Feels like I’ll be blown away when the weather turns crappy, and feels like I’ll be run over by some big trucks…. But overall, cute car…could save lotsa petrol too…  this morning while I was driving in the Shore, I tried to change lane and cars just don’t give way to me… damn it! I cursed like hell coz they don’t show a bit of courtesy. Damn it! Don’t let me see you when I drive a bigger car… damn it!!!! Btw, I jot down their car plate number just in case I feel evil and I feel like taking revenge. Muahahahah!!! Lesson is .. don’t piss me off!!!

Okay. lunch time.. what should I have?? Rice? Nah…. Burger? Nah…. What?! Hmm.. I wonder….

Long weekend next weekend. Our plan of going to Taupo has been postponed. Where should I go? I feel like going away for a day or two… just leaving Auckland for the sake of staying sane…

*yawn*

hmm....

what should i say... or better still what COULD i say...

worked hard for something and you did not get a share of it at the end....
ended up doing something that you dislike ...

i'm tired... i'm hungry...

anyone free on next wednesday? between 7 to 9 and 4 to 6? pls contact me... cheers!

current mood: feel like going to the beach.... have some fresh air.....

spring?!?!

is it really spring now?!?!?! damn it! the stupid wind... fuhreeezzing!!!! the wind was so strong that i could hardly walk properly... damn it...so many kilos of fat still cant withstand the strong wind! stupid auckland weather.. stupid stupid stuipd!!!!

yeahhh... i'm in sort of grumpy mode. been busy begging ppl to do traffic survey for me. nowadays ppl don't really response to incentives.... no matter how great the pay is, it's still damn hard for me to get surveyors.... giving me reasons like "ahhh.. it's too early..." "nah... it's weekend, i wanna go shopping"... DAMN IT! if i can do it, i'll do it myself. arghhh...oopsss... shouldn't be swearing... i mean err i mean... "please please ... could you please spare a few hours to do traffic survey for me?? puhleaseeeeeeee...."

oh well, i arrived late again today. not my first time, but i was not supposed to be late! stupid bus... i saw the bus, and i used up all my energy and ran towards the bus! guess what.... the bus left when i was just RIGHT NEXT TO IT! damn it .. damn you bus driver ..... you need to check your eye sight... can't see properly eh??? damn it.. gotta wait for another freaking 15 mins for another bus.... not too bad after all, met my senior in the bus... PHEW!!!

okay.. back to more work... free shout from the other department tonight... should i really drink?? hmm.. i alwez say it's alcohol free weekend, and there's alwez a reason that i can't say no to alcohol... sigh!!!

OH BY THE WAY....

it's MOONCAKE FESTIVAL.... without mooncakes.... ><

shitty auckland weather....

Phew!!!! Started pouring the minute I stepped into the office... I’m lucky!!!! Phew!!!! Looks like it’s going to be another “sad” day for Auckland. Damn it! It’s supposed to stop raining yesterday according to the weather forecast… at least, predicted to be a cloudy day… stupid weather!

For your information, I created a drama scene this morning, and it’s only 9.10am! HAHA… not even in the office for half an hour and I have already successfully created the topic of the day. Oh well, not a really drama type of drama but good enough to keep everyone moving and laughing. Haha!!

Hmm… apart from the drama I created…. I received a letter today from Bistro, saying “CONGRATULATIONS! You won a bottle of house wine to enjoy with a meal here at Bistro”…. Sounds great right? But it’s a rip off. In order to get that bottle of house wine, I have to buy an entrée and two main courses. Each main course at least cost 10 bucks… entrée will be around 7 bucks, meaning I have to spend 27 bucks to get a bottle of wine that might only cost a few bucks in countdown??

Okay. Back to work. Looks like I don’t have any mood to work.

16 mins to go...

errr..... expect me to know so much....

err.. yeah... there's a new grad in our team now.... i'm actually his "buddy"... (buddy = someone to "take care" of you when you r new to the team)... and yeah, he came over and asked me sooooooo many questions, and 80% of the time, i have no freaking idea how to reply him. GOSH... sorry man! i feel sooo bad....

sowieeee.....

btw, he's single, he's 26, he's tall, he's quite cute... muahahhaha!!! my only motivation to go to work now.. HAHAHA... kidding...

at 4pm...

I’m sleepy… really sleepy….my eyes are dry… concentration level very low… dozing off soon… I’m having ‘pocky’ just to keep myself awake… Zzzz….

Oh.. my secretary just came by and snatch my pocky away…!!!! >< *cries*

An hour to go…

it's been a week...

yeah.. exactly one week....

Last weekend was a quiet weekend apart from attending Richard’s party in Opium. First of all, i don't really know the birthday boy, he's Richard, he's 26, he's Marcus' friend... and secondly, i don't really know Marcus, i heard about him ages ago coz he's somehow related to my closest buddy here in nz but i only really met him in the 9/9 party... and thirdly, i wanted to stay at home and sleep after partying for so many weekends in a row.... and lastly, i don't really feel like going to opium, it's soooo high class... girls all dress up like Paris Hilton, all of them sort of "glow in the dark".. it just doesn't belong to me, i think errr.. i still prefer a noisy bar where most people are drunk... or probably just sit at home... dreaming.... i just don't feel comfy hanging out in a high class place. no doubt that place is A NICE PLACE.... but i m just not that kinda girl that likes to dress up, put on those stupid make up.... talk nicely... act like a gal... AHHH... GIMME A BREAK!!!

Another weekend is approaching.... a few more hours before the weekend starts. Weather has been really nice these few days. Starting to get warmer.... guys love this season coz they can have some good "eye exercise"... rolling their eyes, checking out bikini girls.... *wink*... As for girls, only the slim/shapy girls or girls who are really confident will love this season as they will start wearing lesser and lesser just to attract guys.... hahahahaha..... as for me, i still prefer winter/autumn season.... i m not a beach person coz I’m tanned enough!!!

Speaking about tanned skin.... i went shopping last weekend. Bought two tops in esprit, one of them is brown color top... guess what the salesgirl told me... "i like your tanned skin..." I gave a quick smile... not really a happy one; it's more like a smile saying “err… okay… thanks?!” probably if I’ve been granted a wish, I would want to be fair. ><

Okay… enough bullshit from me. Back to my good old modelling work. DAMN IT! I’ve spent hours and hours setting up models and inserting 6 years traffic volume into every single model… and now I gotta change something!!! Meaning what… REDO THE WHOLE DAMN THING!!! Just great…. My Friday is great…. Arghhhh!!!!

Calm down carol… calm down…. Currently listening to some soft music to calm myself down…. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………………..

stressed

"it is not very intelligent to park your cab here, or probably you are not intelligent enough to know this!"

the bus driver shouted at the taxi driver coz the stupid taxi driver parked his taxi in the bus cage on a congested street... HAHAHA.... oh well, i was half asleep then, and the bus driver really woke me up from my dream... DARN!!!!

hmm... i fall asleep quite easily on the bus nowadays. I've been really exhausted everyday. probably it's because of my non-stop working schedule during the weekdays and crazy partying during weekends. speaking about my work, my piled up work is killing me slowly. it's time for me to be independent and do some engineering job. one of the seniors actually told me that they are preparing to let go their hands, and let me explore the engineering world myself coz the new grad is coming in feb next year and i m no more "the cheapest labour" around... ><

mmm...i'm enjoying my quiet weekend. i actually fell asleep on the sofa while watching tv just now. this really proved that i'm freaking exhausted. what's the plan for tomorrow? not sure yet... oh another thing, i feel bloated..... probably because i ate too much.... need to eat more prunes to get rid of the shit in me... HAHAHAH!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
it's the fifth time i missed out on your birthday celebration... ><
anyway,
hope you have a great day
stay healthy and god bless!!!!
*hugzzz*

Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

Snapshot of my Colorful Life in Auckland (up till August)

21 July -- Jan's 25th Birthday
(Kevin, Pei Ling, Mel, Janice, Dave, Jengis, Yvonne, ME!!!)

29 July -- DV8 Predrinks
(Dave, Janell, Maggie, Jan, ME, Mel)

29 July -- DV8 Predrinks
(too many ppl.... )

5 Aug -- Winter Steamboat Session... YUMMY!!!!

12 Aug -- Dinner @ Star Cafe
(Gerald, Jessie, Mel, Jan, ME, Kevin, Jason, Jengis, Jeremy)

20 Aug -- Pre drinks session before heading to Met Bar
(Simon, David, ME, Jan, Kevin, Mel, Jengis)

20 Aug -- in Met Bar
(Mel, Jan, Jengis, ME)

20 Aug -- in Met Bar
(ME, Kevin, Jan, Mel)

25 Aug -- Me & Christine (dinner at Food Alley)

26 Aug -- Yvonne's Birthday Party Predrinks Session
(Yvonne, Maggie, ME, Jan)

26 Aug -- Yvonne's Birthday Party
(Dave, Jengis, Kevin, Maggie, ME, Mel, Jan, Amy, Yvonne, Janell, Kevin)

26 Aug -- Yvonne's Party
(Maggie, Mel, ME, Kevin)

Updates for you...

"Differences had always existed
The dust that gathers in the wind accumulating to pain"

I’m feeling tired and sleepy again. Probably because of the weather… shitty weather has again hit Auckland. Oh well, I prefer having shitty weather during weekdays to having it on weekends.
Just a snapshot of my recent life as requested by my close friend…

Work
I’m kind of in a relaxing mode recently. However, the first thing I knew when I stepped into the office this morning was that I won my first proposal that I submitted for a bid last month. The main reason why I had a chance to write up this proposal all by myself was because we never wanted the job. So, my manager thought that it might be a great opportunity for me to do some practice, you know, just play around... Hmm… now I won the job… amazing aye!! Honestly, I’m not really excited, but I am truly surprised. Looks like I will be busy in the future… hope that it’s near future… I’m rotting… but well, I get paid to rot in the office. Not a bad thing too!

Life
Nothing much apart from partying hard on weekends and walk around like a zombie on weekdays. Know quite a number of friends for the past 10 months in Auckland, which is a good thing. Don’t worry, I still miss you guys a lot *wink*…missed those times that we went out and hang out in mamak stall till late, bitching about people around us, sing karaoke, shop till we drop in KL, or just chill out at someone’s place… 5 more months to go…keep counting… how I wish I’m there RIGHT NOW!!! Oh gosh… miss you guys sooooo much!!!! *muacks*

Hmm… short post today… nothing much to say… partly because I’m half asleep, and partly because I don’t know what to say. I’m gonna start bumming around the office again. Participated in this walking challenge, gotta count how many steps I walk a day… the minimum amount of steps I should walk a day is 7000 steps… current count: 18217 (Day 3)

Visit www.kevinteh.blogspot.com for photos of the nine-nine party...

crazy.. i am crazy...

Damn… I’m sleepy… AGAIN… oh well, I’m always sleepy. Have this tired look 365 days a year just because of my natural dark circle. No matter how many hours I sleep, I still get dark circles around my eyes, makes me look like an ultimate panda… haha! so yeah, don’t say I lack of sleep coz I ALWAYS look tired.

Had a busy start to the day, at least I was not as bored as yesterday. Happy that I actually got some real work to do today because both my manager and supervisor are back! Yippee… I always prefer to be super busy. I always ask for more stuff to do and I constantly reminding my colleagues to give me more work, no matter if it’s a shitty admin work or a real engineering work. I just don’t give a damn. As long as you keep me occupied and money keeps rolling in! haha.. Yeah.. Materialistic. I need money for my new cell-phone…Nokia N80… muahahahaha!!!

Hmm…it’s Tuesday, and people around are still talking about the “nine-nine party” last Saturday. Hmm… what can I say about this party? It’s cool, it’s cool, and it’s definitely cool!! Oh well, I got comments such as “OMG, you were crazy…”, “Carol… you changed!!!”, “I thought you were a good gal until I saw you that night”, “OMG, you looked different with make up on”…. Haha… Whatever people, I have to say that I really enjoyed myself a lot and I hope that my friends that I invited to come along to the party enjoyed it too. It’s really something different for them this time. FYI, I used to hate going clubbing and partying when I was in varsity, I did not even want to go near a club even if my friends feed me alcohol… that’s why I missed out the fun … now it’s time for compensation. Clubbing and partying are good activities for us to release our stress and temporary forgetting about the rules that we have to abide when we are working… you know, like those “you gotta look professional”, “you gotta look serious”.. bullcraps. So yeah, we should party more, and get high and drunk during weekends, don’t you think so?? oops, I have to make it clear, drunk doesn’t mean drunk till you puke or drunk till you collapse… hehe…whew! I loveeee partying!!! Woo hooo… after this party, I realised that ACG is expanding aye?! To the beloved founders of ACG, I think it’s probably time to have a board meeting and make up some new rules and also collect membership fees…you know.. preparing for our next party! *wink*

Okay… better go now… I update my blog everyday using Microsoft Words, then copy and paste it to blogger… coz my boss is sitting behind me… I have to type all my posts secretly, pretending that I’m typing a report… MUAHAHAHAH!!! Dun care la… at least I’m not chatting online… that’s considering chatting via email is not classified as chatting online! Hahahahhaa…. Still get spam regarding the crazy party on Saturday… hmm… hahahahaha! Will have another party like that soon… I hope… I hope…. Do it weekly eh? HAHAHA... kidding… I’m not a party girl... I’m just crazy….

*Currently suffering from Coffee Overdose Syndrome… getting real high… let’s go boogie boogie…countdown --- 3 more days to another weekend!!!! Jumping around in da office… la la laaaaaa*

when i'm moody

i blog when i feel like it...
but when i'm moody...
i tend to blog MORE THAN ONCE a day..

fyi, i'm very pissed off now... very very pissed off... arghhh... !&#!^#*!%^&$....

>< stay away, i really really BITE!!!!

Another weekend

I’ve been sitting here doing nothing for the morning just because both my manager and my supervisor were away for the day. I’m dozing off… So tired… I think I need a quiet weekend, a quiet one that will let me get my battery charged and a quiet one to let me enjoy what I enjoy doing.

Let’s see… Last weekend was very busy AS USUAL, very happening AS USUAL, very tiring AS USUAL. The so-called “nine nine party” was superb! I never thought that my small tiny flat could squeeze in 30+ people. It’s really great to get to know more people, although I hardly remember the names, but I think I still recognize their handsome/pretty faces! Haha… Looks like I could start searching for these faces on Friendster. Woo hoo!!! This is cool…!!! Oh well, everyone looked happy in the photos taken that night, which is really a good thing. We had so much alcohol, especially my crazy brother. He drank half a bottle of vodka! OH MY… Again, I only favour Pina Colada… I was holding the jug of Pina Colada when everyone else was busy socialising… haha yeah… Auckland has turned me into an alcoholic and a party animal. Heather, my uni mate, was surprised to see the new carol. Haha! Back in varsity, I never wanted to go clubbing nor approaching a club/bar/pub on weekends. Oh well, look what I am now… party almost every weekend!! Alcohol, Party, Alcohol, Party… the two words that keep popping up in my mind on weekends AND weekdays too… Thanks to Auckland…Bloody happening place full of happening people. Shiat… can’t wait for the next PARTY…

Think I’m contradicting myself again. I said that I need a quiet weekend, but now I’m thinking of Partying this weekend…. Oh dear… HELP!!!

Pictures of the Nine-nine party will be uploaded soon…. Attached below are pictures taken before and after the party, i.e. Friday night pool session and Sunday afternoon Ice-cream session in Mission Bay (note: we all looked tired and sleepy…)

Friday Night -- Pool in Cue City

Jengis & Kevin

Jan & Jengis

Heather

Kevin

Sunday Afternoon -- Mission Bay Movenpick

Heather

Jengis & Me

Janice & Kevin

Me & Heather

cute

grumpy mode

All of a sudden, I lost my mood… I lost the motivation to work…. I just got back from the Shore and I’m so freaking tired, no kidding…

I blame my sudden mood swing on the weather, the stupid sun that makes me headache…I’ll get sun burn if I took off my jacket, but if I wear my jacket, I’ll be super warm.. argh…how I wish I’m fair.. and never turned dark! Hahaha… my parents will be shaking their head now if they read this. Haha! Coz I always question them about my skin color… why why whyyyyy!!!!!

Hmm.. wonder what’s wrong with me. All of a sudden I’m in a super grumpy mode… weekend is here, and it’s going to be a super busy weekend. My best friend, Heather, is finally coming up to Auckland after persuading her for so long. But my energy level is sooo low, probably I should just stay at home and take a long nap before picking her up from the airport. But, if I sleep in, I’ll miss out the dinner with my mates…. !!!! NO NO… let me think of a better way… drink COFFEE? Hahahaha…. Coffee is my best friend, but I still have the tired look on my face. Sleep early tonight? DOUBT IT… I might be busy chatting with Heather… or….

Something that annoys me up till now is my fucked up PC... oopss sorry about my language, but yeah…. My PC has been continuously giving me shits. Okay here is the story about me and computers if you don’t know.

April 2005
Dad brought in a shuttle pc for me, a whole set… including monitor, keyboard and all the other shits… *sorry about my language again*
August 2005
I came back from my holiday in Malaysia and turned on my pc… BLUE SCREEEN!!!! Heard from my friends, blue screen = death screen… so yeah.. basically I spent 250 bucks just to get it fixed… unfortunately problem still there… so I paid another couple of hundred dollars…. *heartbroken*
November 2005
Moved from Christchurch to Auckland. My pc started giving me problems such as “dvd burner problem + automatically restart + super noisy + computer on halt” blah blah blah….
*real pissed off n frustrated*
December 2005
Parents brought my PC back to Malaysia coz it’s still under warranty in Malaysia… *heartbroken coz I had no PC and I had NO FRIENDS in Auckland then…*
April 2006
Trying to give myself some reward, so I used up half of my monthly salary to purchase a SHUTTLE PC.. just like the one I had but with higher specs.
*happy n excited*
May 2006
ever since I bought the PC I got lotsa problems. The PC is so noisy (mind you, shuttle pc is famous for its silence…) + the PC will suddenly go on halt!!! Sent back to the PC shop basically every weekend… got sooooo freaking tired and pissed…. They changed my hard disk… changed every single shit they can think of… the problem still remained unsolved.
*tired + disappointed + heartache*
June 2006
I was really really pissed .. I requested either they gave me a full money back or swap a pc for me… so they swapped a pc for me… they told me that I should use “amd” instead of “intel” coz somehow my internet service provider “woosh” has some conflicts with “intel” which I still think it’s a bullcrap! I nvr encountered any problem when I was using my laptop with woosh connection… I tolerate once again, I said “fine… I’ll bring that back home and try”… okay, nothing wrong. So they refunded 400 bucks to me…
*pray hard that this new pc is gonna behave*
July 2006
everything went okay. the pc was surprisingly quiet and this is the only hassle free month!
*happy*
August 2006
PROBLEM!!! Arghhh… tat day I left my pc on overnight, so the next morning, I switched it off to let it rest. A few hours later, I switched on my pc… windows logo popped up… and BLACK OUT! Wtf!!!! Arghhh… i got sooooo sad…… called up the pc person, he said ‘VIRUS ATTACK’.. fine.. so I reformatted my pc…. And it worked for a few days, and the problem came back again… I really dun understand why… no one can solve it too… I dun mind paying money to get the problem fixed.. but is it fixable? I’m soo sick of going back to the pc shop. I’m so sick of facing them… I’m so sick of trying to talk nicely to them and asking them to fix my pc…. I’m soooo sick of all these. Why do I keep having pc problem? Why? arghh…
*formula for my current mood = 1000xfrustratiion + 10000xsad + 100000xannoyed*

Oh well, calm down carol… it’s just a PC… calm down… but i just couldn't!!! i'm going back to the pc shop this weekend again, should i talk to them nicely or should i just screw them up? hmm...

3.5 more hours to go… I’m looking at the clock in front of me… ticking its way to 5pm…

something to share....

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you wa nt them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

Once you have loved, you will always love.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside him/her knowing you can't have him/her, see him/her or be with him/her ever

SO....

Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you,for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.
*hugzz*

staying at home n rot

9am!!! i'm awake.... i'm sneezing... i'm hungry...

i almost finished using up the whole toilet roll... coz i kept blowing my nose... luckily i din have blocked nose last night..... so i had a good night sleep last night...

shit... wat to blog today?

i'm not sleepy, not tired... but i'm not well enuff to go to work.
coz i have to keep blowing my nose.... keep rushing to the toilet and i hate blowing ma nose when there's ppl around me.... and another reason is... i got my voice back, but it's too sexy.... i scared i'll make ppl drool... hahaha... kidding....

argh.. who's online now to chat with the lonely me? hahahaha.... i wanna go away... i wanna leave auckland for a short time... labour day long weekend is coming..... let's go! *wink*

1 more day... back at work *fingers crossed*
2 more days... ma best friend will be here....
3 more days... party at met bar! muahahah
4 more days... a day that i'm anticipating... *secret*
5 more days... MONDAY... Zzzzz.....

holiday!!!

yeah... i'm having my hols now...

the flu is killing me.....

this morning i had to get off the bus like 6 stops beforehand coz i was coughin real badly and felt sooooo unwell. i cough all the way to my office... thats like 2km of walking and coughing.... hmm...

Stepped into the office today and got sent back home by my manager coz he thinks that i'm not physically well to cope with my work!

HAHAHA... goodie... so now i'm at home. Just woke up from a 3 hour nap... feeeel sooooooooo niceeeeeeeeeeeeee....

man, i'm so bored...... sitting at home, staring at the pc screen, sleep, eat.... wat else? hmmmm.... oh gosh, sudden crave for coffee!!!! HAHAHA...

this blog is full of shit.... ignore it!

should i go to work tomolo? HAHAHA...

Pictures

Went to this new place on Nuffield Street, Newmarket last Friday. took a few pictures while i was having dinner. Very very nice place, the atmosphere is good, cute waitress and waitresses, food is good, but EXPENSIVE. luckily it's free dinner that night. really enjoyed myself. Went to the new pub next door after dinner but only hang out for a while..... here are some pics! :)

Jennifer, Me, Rob, Gabriel, Francis, Georgina & Simon (anti-clockwise from Right)

240 bucks!!! but it's free for us la...each of us gets a main dish + one side dish + two drinks for free!!! cool cool....

seafood ramen

me and the chopstick head waitress... ^^

Georgina, Me, Gab and Francis

Nice side dish --> Grilled Chicken.. yummy!!!

My oh my....

I really hate being sick. I just took two nurofen pills.

Headache --> Sore throat --> Fever --> Gastric --> Body Aching --> lost my voice --> Flu --> Fever AGAIN….

You name it, I got it! Why don’t I have the luck to WIN everything when it comes to buying lotto?

Just great … Piled up work + postponed site visits & client meeting… sux!
The worst part is… I’ve been a quiet gal for the past two days… how did I lose my voice? It’s such a pain for me coz I’m not a quiet gal, I love talking… arghhhh... when I get my voice back, I reckon I’ll be super noisy…I mean SUPER NOISY!

At the meantime, hopefully I’ll be okay this weekend. Don’t wanna be sick and weak when my best friend is here. AND most of all, I want to be in good shape to go MET BAR… muahahaha!!!

*hugz*

Random Acts of Kindness

hahaha... i was laughing this morning when my colleague told me it's RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS DAY... so we all SHOULD show our kindness... BULLCRAP.. ahahhahaha!!!!! good news for me though, when ppl try to tease me, i'll say MIND YOU.. SHOW YOUR KINDNESS!!!!
okay ppl.. remember to show ur KINDNESS to ur friends... especially to me.. thanks laaa!!! kakakak... oh not to forget, it was merdeka day yesterday... happy merdeka day!!!! :)



boogie boogie.... time to go have fun.. muahahahha!!!!

sick ~.~

I’m sick… I’m sick… I’m sick…

I can’t concentrate…. I’ve got piled up work to do and my brain is giving a hard time. Argh… eyes are closing, body is aching…. Should I go home soon? Hmm… let’s see what I can still manage to do… finish up the crash analysis data for Michelle, get Nigel to help me record traffic conditions, and WHAT!? I got soooooo many stuff to do. Just took another two panadol… oh well, it’s just a wrong time to be sick. I’m supposed to go North Shore to do a site audit, hmm… looks like it cant be achieved now… I can’t drive. I don’t think I can. I almost fell down while holding the rail in the bus this morning. ><

Will blog later when I have energy + time + mood….

bye bye rat... i'm a pig!!!!

Was chatting with mum last night and guess what…. We have been MC2 (mong cha cha, i.e. blur blur…) for 22 years!!! Okay, the story goes like this….

Mum was asking me about chinese calendar and asked me to check online for some information. So I google searched and came across this site where if you inserted your birthdate, they would tell you about your zodiac sign and your birthdate in chinese calendar. To confirm that this chinese calendar is accurate, I inserted my birthday and surprisingly, I was born in the year of pig instead of rat… hmm… so I tried again this time using my dad’s birthdate, and then my mum’s and then my bro’s… the information provided were all correct apart from mine. I questioned my mum, she was sooo surprised.. (her cute reaction really cracked me up! ) haha… and she even called up my grandma right away. My grandma also blur.. haha! She said there is a possibility that I am a pig instead of rat. Hmm… and grandma assured me that pig is way better than rat… haha!!!

So, for you guys out there who was born in the year of 1984, you are:

A pig up until 3rd Feb 1984
A rat from 4th Feb 1984 onwards…

I’m really speechless. Blur for 22 years.. hmm…. So I AM a pig…. My dad teased me… tat’s why you sleep like a pig, eat like a pig and love pig soft toys! HAHAHAH… I think it’s somehow true eh.. hahaha!! Oh well, pig is not that bad okay? Although they are ugly, but they are nice… hehehe..~~ ADORABLE ~~ that’s the word!!! *wink*

coffee

hmm.. i just had a real strong coffee... awake now... my collleague was talking to me this morning and i hardly remember what he's saying.. >< now ppl laugh at me liawwww......

left or right?

向左還是向右?
告訴我吧....我又再次站在三岔口﹐再次猶豫﹐再次讓自己煩惱。
我在幹嘛啊。
是不是自己想太多了。
或許吧
有些時候忘記是最好的
應該忘記
應該瀟灑些

tired...

A really tiring/busy/happening weekend just gone past… it’s been sooo tiring till the extent that I actually fell asleep in the bus and almost forgot to get off the bus at parnell library!!! Oh my… hope that I did not SNORE… hahaha!!!

It’s Monday. Weather is great again. Why do I have to sit here staring at the screen and not enjoying myself out there? Hmm… all of a sudden… I feel like…

• having my coffee somewhere where I can enjoy the sun (but not get sun burnt… yeah yeah. I know I’m dark.. BUT… I’m still very scared of getting sun burnt coz I’ll be getting age spot on my face... I’m 22!!! Getting old, feeling old…)
• leaving Auckland and go somewhere to just relax… labour day is coming… not very far away and not that soon. It’s on the 23 October, another long weekend to take a good rest and probably go somewhere… Miaw miaw… u hear me? HEHE….
• Sleeping… oh yeah, I ALWAYS feel like sleeping… my hobby! Kakakaka….
• Shopping…. Oh well, although I went shopping last weekend, but errr…. Did not enjoy it at all because I did not get anything!!!!! :( this is bad… I lost 2kg recently and sort of think that it will be great coz I might fit into some of the outfits that I like, yeah yeah.. like those sexy ones that I always dream that I can squeeze all my fat in.. HAHA.. but too bad, I did not get anything at all coz all the sizes are super big. ARGHHH…

Haha.. all these are not gonna happen coz i’m at work 5 days a week.. and weekends are always too occupied, hardly get the time to take a nice rest. The sign of “lack of sleep” is starting to show on my tired face and my slow reaction brain. I should really sleep early tonight but I think I cant! Have to bloody solve my pc problem. Why is it giving me so much shit? Why did it suddenly black out ? tell me tell me… the bloody pc guy said it’s VIRUS attack.. I reformatted it and still giving me problems. Hmm…. I’m sick and tired of reformatting, praying hard everytime before I press the Power button. Sooo sick…. Been asking myself, can I survive without a pc? I think I can’t. I need to go online to chat with my friends, keeping in touch with my beloved friends overseas… but I can really survive without a pc back in Malaysia. Probably I have my loved ones with me there… haha! Or probably I’m too busy with them… miss you guys soooo much!!!!!

At the moment, I can’t wait for next weekend to come. I’ll have my closest nz buddy here in Auckland with me, HOPEFULLY *fingers crossed*… and I really hope that she’s feeling okay now. *hugsss* stay tough!!! You always have me… hehe!!! *muacks*

Will blog later if I’ve got energy.. now, let me check my horoscope for the week. Wonder whether if my luck will be better… HAHAHA!! Yeah yeah.. I’m superstitious. ^^

Sometimes When We Touch

This song keep appearing in my mind recently... dunno why... the first time i listened to this song was when i was really young.. hmm... used to love singing this song... oh well, what could i say... it's a really really nice song by dunno who... you could tell me.. and here's the lyrics...

You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

On what you say or do?

I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

And I see how hard you've tried

I've watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

another sucky day... will blog later when i get home... Zzzzz.... i need a cold beer!

Different....

i feel like...

doing something different..........
having something different........
being someone different..........

issit that hard to change? wish you are here with me.... or wish i m there right beside u.... really missed those days... haven't seen u for ages, "how are you now??"

i'm fallin....

why... can someone tell me why????

arghhhh.... !!!!

annoyed... i'm sooo annoyed now... !%#$^%^#$%#

can u just leave me alone???!?!?

confused

yeah.. i'm soooooooo confused.......

*i haven't had the time to update the photo links.... *

when carolyn meets carolyn

hahaha... have u ever tried googling your name??? oh well, i typed in "carolyn teh" n apart from my name appearing in mabel's blog, i found this real cute one... hahahha..... a "carolyn teh" is in there!!! ooo.. soooo many cute kids... kekekekekek.....

okay... carolyn has big eyes, very very innocent loook, fairly dark... and she's shy... awwwww............... take a guess man!!! :D

how i wish i look like her when i was a kid.... kakaka....

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Those were the days...

想到你們已經全回國了﹐
令我有鼓衝動﹐
好想飛回去。

想念我們在一起的日子...

你們還好嗎?

等我噢!

Give the NICE GUYS a chance!!

1. Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
2. IT MAKES US FEEL SO SECURE TO KNOW THAT OUR GIRLFRIEND ISNT OFF FLIRTING WITH GUYS WE'VE NEVER HEARD OF!!
3. We don't care if you talk to other guys.We don't care if you're friends with other guys.But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
4. When we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
5. Don't be mad when we hold the door open.Smile and say "thank you."
6. LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T "FEEL BAD" We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
7. Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
8. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are. honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. not all dolled up
9. Don't flirt with guys when were not with you. We have eyes everywhere. And when we find out, we're pissed.Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with YOU.
10. Don't take everything we say seriously.Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.
11. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartny is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
12. Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful" I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Heyhandsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of. on the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )
13. Girls, I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY, DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
    - Someone who will honor your morals.
    - Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
    - Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
    - Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

hehee... bet all my GUY friends are happy that i posted this eh.. hehe!!!mind you.. i'm not on their side, just that i agree that sometimes girls are a wee bit too sensitive. :) hehe.. just wanna be fair to the poor guys out there. :P

Guys, never expect that your other half will understand you... even though if you met a girl that really understand and agree with the list above, she will just automatically changed and wont be THAT understanding when she is officially yours! haha!!!!

oh well. this is what makes guys and girls two unique group!!! keke.... interesting! mmmm...... i'm talking crap again.. haha!!! watever la.... :P

pics coming up soon.....

what i wanna say is...

我受了重伤, 己不再对爱渴望.

happy?

這是感情面臨考驗的五月﹐你會越來越了解自己想要的是什麼?

已經猶豫了很久﹐這段戀情是否應該繼續下去? 無論是單戀或者是已有穩定的伴侶﹐甚至陷入三角關係的水瓶座﹐在五月份都會重新思考彼此的關係。你曾經不太確定自己真正想要的是什麼﹐但透過對方向你提出的一些要求﹐讓你看清了你和他之間﹐早已存在關鍵性的問題。你會明白你必須做出選擇﹐或者是你得徹底改變自己某些習慣﹐重新調整愛情關係﹐你才能真正得到快樂!

MANCHESTER UNITED ROCKS!!!!

hahahhaha... i've been laughing and hypering for hours!!!! MANCHESTER UNITED WON THE CARLING CUP!!!! woooo hooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeay... i actually woke up at 4am for the match... went to work after watching the match and i m still very energetic now!

touching moments when the players wore the "for you smudge" t-shirt... if i were alan smith, i'll be crying like a baby... Manchester united is superb!!!!!

just a few pics taken from soccernet...

A year older...~.~

Another 10 days and one of my closest friends or in fact one of my so-called sisters is going to get married. Yeah, at the age of 22+ and she’s getting married. She’s number 1 now because she’s the first one to get married in our class. I was shocked when I heard about this news a few months ago, I think it was in November when I just arrived in Auckland. I got this news from my other sister in UK. I could still remember that she sent me a text and asked me to call her because it’s super urgent. At that moment, I thought she got into some trouble or something more serious. She just tricked me. Anyway, I received this news a few days after I know about the other similar news. My cousin got married too; and again, at the age of 22. Haha! Is it a trend or what? *thinking*

Well, as of today, I’m officially 22 now. Not that I want to be like them, but I’m searching for a goal now. This does not mean that I don’t have a goal now, but my goals are either too far or too unrealistic to think about in my current situation. I have to think about something practical; something that I could achieve in the short run, and something that is slightly challenging so that I would have a sense of achievement once I achieved it. What about cars? What about house? Well, I definitely know many people around my age or those who have just started their career life will think about owning their first car, their first house, etc. But, I never seriously thought or plan these things. Probably I know it isn’t that easy to get all these, that’s why the fear build up within me and made me so reluctant to think about it.

There’s really something missing. I just realised about it. My brain starts spinning and the “thinking button” just automatically turns on once I’m free. So yeah, blame it on the Auckland Anniversary long weekend. I noticed that even though I’m busy at work on weekdays and sort of fill up my spare time, I still feel that I could do more with my time. That is also part of the reason why I keep saying I want to look for a part time job. I want to make myself super occupied!! Well, this problem has just been solved last night. I’m starting my part time work next week and hopefully everything will be good then. Again, once I’m busy I won’t think of all these things and just let time decides everything for me. It’s really good in a way that I don’t have to stress myself.

Pictures coming up…. I’ve got a few pictures to share with you all. Friends that I recently made, and my new life. ^^ I’m moving again! Haha… I’ll soon be an expert in moving home aye!

Also, thank you for those who remember my birthday. Especially you.. haha! It's really a big surprise when i know you still remember my birthday, know you for 5 years already! haha.. i never thought you would remember! hahahaha.. thanks! still waiting for your present though. ^^ Also, a big thank you to my cousin, carine... hehe! thanks laa.... my family...& friends... ^^

心理年龄鉴定

您的心理年龄39岁

与您实际年龄差18岁


幼稚度32％
成熟度71％
老化度39％

from http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! My second CNY celebrating away from Malaysia. Well, I don’t really mind because I never liked CNY.

This year is a bit different than last year’s CNY. Last year, we just cooked a few dishes and celebrated it with my cousins down south in Christchurch. It was just a simple gathering then. However, this year I get to have reunion dinner with my cousins from Howick, and spent time with my Te Atatu relatives on the first day of CNY. Get to eat proper reunion dinner as well as a proper traditional vegetarian meal for the first day of CNY. Oh yeah, not to forget, having meal with CNY songs playing in the background! Haha…

Beside CNY, today is Auckland anniversary day. Meaning that Aucklanders get a long weekend too! So yeah, it’s kind of great for Chinese here. They get to really celebrate their CNY. It’s so far been a really tiring break for me. But it’s cool. Hehe! No regrets! I’ll just brag a bit bout what I’ve been doing these few days.

Friday
After work I met up with Kenny and Kam for the very first time although we all have been here for a few months! Dinner  visited Kenny and Kam’s place - bowling. Arrived home at around 10+ pm, super tired, just took a shower and off to bed!

Saturday
Woke up around 9 and met up with the landlord to sign the tenancy agreement. Had dim sum breakfast + lunch with Kenny, Kam and my brother and sent Kam to the airport. We later on went to find some “gifts” for both my relatives. That was a hard task because mum has always been in charged of packing gifts for relatives during festive season. Whereas now, we have to think what to buy and search for it! We were lucky enough to get what we want in a really short time.  After the shopping, we went straight home for a quick rest before we went for the reunion dinner with my cousins in downtown. We had 9 dishes altogether… 4 adults plus 2 kids. All the dishes were in super size; we can barely move or talk at the end of the dinner. TOOOO FULL…..

Sunday
Again, woke up at around 8.30am to attend the 9.30am mass in St Bens. We went to Te Atatu uncle’s place after that and spent around 2 hours there EATING again.. haha… CNY is all about eating aye! Came home at around 1pm and sent bro off to the airport at 2pm. As I was really exhausted, I took a 1 hour nap in the late afternoon until I received phone call from Heather. As expected, she called me coz Wellington’s foggy weather forced them to close the airport; in other words, she was stranded in Auckland and no where to go. Oh well, I went to airport and pick her up… (my 3rd time) The fun part arrived! I called up Kenny and met up with him and two friends at around 8pm. If I’m not mistaken, the two new friends that I just made are: Philip and Derrick? We had bubble tea in North Shore and watched the Auckland Anniversary fireworks from there too! Then we went for bowling after that… Arrived home at around 1am.

Monday
It’s 10am now. Supposed to go “bai nian” with Kenny and friends but I’m just too lazy to move and err.. heather is still sleeping!!!! Wake up heather! Later on I’m gonna send her to the airport and then pick up my bro and Mabel. I’m really getting used to the route to the airport now! Haha.. and not to forget I’ve used around 100km in less than 48 hours. Oh gosh! >< OK… now what am I supposed to do??? I’m hungry and tired… btw, happy birthday to myself.

Starting Work!!!!

Finally, my 2.5 months break has come to an end. I’ll be starting another new phase of life tomorrow. Can’t wait to meet new people, and most importantly, can’t wait to get busy again. I’ve been rotting at home for so long until my brain is not functioning that well anymore. Well, I’m fully prepared to get busy and to learn new stuff once again. Hahaha!! ^^

或許是開始對我的假期生活感覺到有些枯燥乏味吧﹐才會令到我那麼興奮。又或許是我的個性﹐我非常討厭漫無目的的生活﹐所以對于明天開始就會變得忙碌的生活充滿期待。哈哈。希望一切都能順順利利!!!! 加油噢晨曦! ^^

最後﹐有一段話想與大家分享:

“人都會變﹐也會想通一些事情﹐不管你願意或有沒有預期。反正﹐老天爺總會有他巧妙的安排和考量的﹐完全不必你去勉強﹐而且也勉強不來的﹐不是嗎?” ---光禹的 <<給最初的愛>>

這段話﹐以不同的角度去思考﹐會有不一樣的體會﹐不一樣的領悟。大家不妨想想吧!!

Think about these...

Just read a book written by Zhang Xiao Xian, and i find these quite meaningful. Think about it! :)

1.
“被恨的人﹐是沒有痛苦的。
去恨的人﹐卻是傷痕纍纍的。”

長久的恨一個人﹐只是對自己的一切不願負責任。恨﹐是一種可憐的逃避。當你被人所恨﹐你是比恨你的人幸福。

2.
我們每天穿在身上的東西:
自信﹑堅強的樣子
瀟灑的模樣
滿不在乎的神情
然而﹐回到家裡﹐我們又打回原形了。

3.
捨不得把書看完的人﹐都是害怕離別的人。看完了﹐會有無限的失落﹔明天﹐我還有什麼可以做呢?

4.
“每一天都是恩賜”

當我們擁有時﹐我們總是埋怨自己沒有一些什麼。當我們失去時﹐我們卻忘記自己曾經擁有些什麼。我們害怕歲月﹐卻不知道活着是多麼的可喜。我們認為生存已經沒有意思﹐許多人卻在生死邊緣掙扎。那什麼時候﹐我們才肯為自己擁有的一切滿懷感激?


Happy Birthday Bro! tat's tomolo. :P

happy new year!

know it's a bit too late... happy new year ppl!!! will update some pictures later on. ^^